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Update
So in the end, I’ve come to a conclusion -- I’m archiving this blog and I’ll be remaking at a later point in time. I don’t want to delete because there are a lot of things here that I want to keep. However, when I remake, I’m also going to be making my blog private because I don’t want to deal with an overabundance of stress and some other personal choices. Thanks for letting me have a fun time! Maybe see you around again~
Indefinite Hiatus;
So I hear there has been some bullshit going down in the community lately that people are wrong for rping darker things. Let’s put it this way -- I don’t want to deal with any of that. Just from what I’ve heard from my friends and the posts they’ve showed me? I’m beyond angry. To the point I no longer feel safe rping in the tumblr community. You know why? Because I’ve been abused. My whole life. By multiple people. Let’s see, most of them happen to be in my family too. There’s my mom who is manipulative and emotionally abusive, my cousin who beat me up every day for two years? Oh let’s also remember the fact that I’m a CSA survivor. And I’ve been bullied and abandoned my whole life. Yeah, I’m 17. Guess what! Let’s ignore the fact that I have aspergers to begin with and that’s been neglected my whole life, so people try and force my brain to function in ways it is not meant to. Let’s also ignore all the OTHER numerous disorders I’ve developed because of YEARS of truama and abuse. Not like I have dissociative identity disorder and literally lose minutes, hours, days of my life because of trauma. Not like I have borderline personality disorder because my whole personality hasn’t been WARPED BECAUSE OF IT.
Yet it’s still not okay for me to rp darker things to cope or feel comfortable. I’ll just keep everything inside and locked up alright? Would that make you happier? Writers write based off their experiences. We write in order to make ourselves safe and comfortable. To get thoughts out, ideas. Look, I got a lot of things wrong in my life. But I know I don’t have it the worst. Point is that I identify with villains, rp as villains, and write darker things to help cope with everything that’s happened in my life. If you have a problem with that guess what!
FUCK OFF AND STOP DOING THINGS LIKE THIS. YOU’RE LITERALLY HURTING AND SCARING OFF SO MANY OF THE PEOPLE YOU’RE TRYING TO PROTECT WITH YOUR BULLSHIT.
JUST STOP.
Alright, enough is enough.
If you haven’t been able to tell, lately I’ve been ridiculously bad at making sure I keep up with this blog. It’s not because my muse has failed me (though he does seem to have taken a liking to hiding away in the library and never moving), but it’s because life problems and the state of this blog are quite literally killing me. Quite a few of you know the problems I’ve been having as of late and I honestly care not to reiterate them here. The people that need to know already do, and the rest of you can ask if you want. At this point in time, at the end of the last quarter of my junior year in school, I have little time to put much effort into anything (and my brain things have been acting up so I haven’t had the energy required either.)
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[ Aqua ]
✫ — ❝You seem… familiar, somehow. Have we met, somewhere?❞
[ ίиfίиίтυм ] ━━>
“Have we met before?” An interesting question. “In the past? Once, maybe. In my forseeable future? Many times.”
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this is kinda late. shhh. also feel free to kill me if i forgot to put you on here.
there are honestly no words in any language nor any actions that could possibly get across just how grateful i am for all of you guys. to the people who roleplay with me, to the people who like my portrayal and my headcanons, to the people who just consider me in some way worthy of gracing their dashboards… thank you, from the very bottom of my heart.
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[ Lea ]
Okay, he wanted to take this one down a peg or two. So what if he was being hostile? This was Xehanort, just as much as the adult version. Or the version that had become Xemnas. Even if it hadn’t been exactly him, he’d stolen his childhood friend from him. And he’d just let it happen because he couldn’t find it in himself to care. So maybe it was his fault as well, but he’d only been a thirteen year old boy when he had wandered into the castle, it hadn’t given anyone the right to his heart. Or Isa’s for that matter. Especially not Isa’s. His words struck him to the core. He wasn’t strong enough, he was trying, but it didn’t make him strong enough. Instead of letting it get him down, he let it be fuel for the fire.
“Strong as you? That right? Is that why I derailed all your precious plans without a hitch? Or why Sora’s not a vessel right now? I bet you didn’t plan that one. You had your perfect little plan, well you didn’t count on one thing, I made a promise to my friends to always be there to bring them back. And at this moment it covers Sora, since Roxas and that girl are apart of him. Got it memorized?”
[ ίиfίиίтυм ] ━━>
"Be careful in your assumptions, petulant flame. Not everything is always as it would seem. Plans grow can grow and change, people like yourselves? Not so much. What you see as a victory could very well be a loss. Believe me, there is always more to something than meets the eye."
Xehanort raised his head slightly, unwavering eyes staring straight at the other. A perfect plan? No such things. There had to be room left for error where necessary. Things needed to be calculated carefully and odds taken into consideration, but in the end a plan will only work if the pawns themselves move correctly. Unfortunately those pawns happen to have hearts -- or at least most of them. Hearts can be unpredictable, and because of that there will never be a perfect plan.
"How do you know there will be anything for you to 'bring back?' What is left of them resides within that boy, but let me ask you a question. Have you ever considered the fact that they could have completely integrated into his heart? Have you ever seen any evidence that proves otherwise? There is nothing to say that they are even alive, let alone conscious within that mess of a boy. Even if they are there, who is to say that you will ever find them from within him? What of Saix? What if your precious Isa no longer exists? Nobodies are only shells of who they once were and the last time I checked he not only was a nobody but he had a shard of my heart. It will erase whatever is left of his previous existance and give him a completely new one."
"Your promise, Lea? Don't make me laugh."
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[ Riku ]
✩⊰ It had been such a nuisance trying to get Xehanort here in captivity. It was hard enough to lure him away from The World That Never Was, but having to fight him (that filthy cheater) and knock him unconscious had pushed Riku’s patience to the extremes. Not to mention how the Gummi Ship ride back was more stressful than ever before, with an unconscious enemy as his passenger.
In fact, Riku actually considered trying to draw upon his dangerous reserves of darkness in order to open a Corridor, just to avoid an agonizingly long trip through Gummi Space. But unfortunately, the risks were far too great, especially while dealing with his captive enemy, so instead he chose to test his luck with racing back to the Tower before Xehanort came to his senses. As it turned out, he had plenty of time to spare when he arrived.
And so upon his arrival, Riku had left Xehanort alone, tied up and trapped in a room enchanted by Yen Sid himself. The spell on the room was to bind magical abilities in order to avoid any sneaky escape attempts, and if Riku’s own duly aching heart as his power was restrained was anything to say for it, then it certainly did its job well. Though it made staying in the room quite an annoyance…
But his own escape was brief, and after reporting to Master Yen Sid, Riku immediately returned to Xehanort’s ‘prison’. What he didn’t expect to see was a very much conscious captive, desperately making his way towards the door. His arms folded at the sight before him, and after his prisoner responded to his sarcastic question, Riku was left with an all too sour expression on his face.
“Ugh… Don’t you get it? You’re not getting out of here any time soon. And if you try to escape… I can promise the only regret’ll be yours.” He moved closer to Xehanort, his sharp glare without an ounce of sympathy for the captive. “You’re alone and powerless in a place full of Keybearers. Do you really want to push your luck?”
[ ίиfίиίтυм ] ━━>
It was just too much already. He didn't have the patience, desire, or energy to waste on something thist ridiculous. How had it happened again? Why had he acted out so stupidly and allowed that blasted Dawn boy to get the better of him? Oh it just, it just pissed him off so much he was ready to bite off someone's head. He wasn't that weak, he couldn't be that weak. No one could defeat him. No one.
A low noise resembling a growl escaped past Xehanort's lips. This was not going to end well for him. Unfortunately the rope was too strong, and whatever this place was obviously restricted his current magical ability. Damn. Even a few burns would have been preferable to being tied up and restrained. He could have casted firaga, burned through the ropes (even it meant getting himself burnt in the process) and then gotten out of there through a dark corridor. A few mild burns to the wrists and ankles would have been nothing compared to the damage to his pride he was about to face.
"Luck has nothing to do with it."
"If you think you are about to keep me contained, you're wrong," Xehanort stated blatantly. His voice was firm, stronger than when he had first spoken, and this time it didn't waver at all. It seemed that a mask had almost taken over and was hiding his real emotions. Though he was rather angry, and quite viciously seething underneath, the surface remained calm, no longer allowing emotion to breach. Not only did it act as a protective mechanism, but it also allowed the boy to gain enough of his mind to think through his current situation. Now relax and just... think. What was the best way out of this?
"What exactly do you want with me? You do know that there are ways to get what you want withouth luring someone out of their home and then attacking them. Would you not find it rude yourself if I had done the same to you? Release me, because I am not amused with this game you're playing."
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[ Eraqus ]
Eraqus frowned deeply. Xehanort had that mockery? Hardly. There was sincerity in the fact that they’d been friends, but now… He hadn’t even done anything. Damnable first impressions! At what angle was this even remotely repairable from?
"Don’t be bitter, you’ll get wrinkles." Hmph. "That aside, you weren’t very friendly last we spoke." Even though his pout was earnest, he knew it probably wouldn’t help. It faded to merely a sad frown and his gaze slipped away again — downward, yes, but at some great distance away, so it may as well have been to the side.
Eraqus forgave him, but couldn’t place it into words. If he couldn’t find a way to, sometime soon, that didn’t somehow come off as mockery… then things would only continue to spiral down, he was sure.
[ ίиfίиίтυм ] ━━>
"Look at me when you speak. At least give me that level of respect, Eraqus." Golden eyes bat at the other. "Being bitter doesn't cause wrinkles, stress does, and the last time I checked, they weren't the same thing."
Of course he saw it as mockery. How else was he supposed to (even though he wasn't allowing himself to see it in any other light.) Frustration and anger still lingered in the boy's heart, though misplaced, he could not seem to shake it off, and it would be quite a while before it had completely settled. He couldn't just go back to seeing Eraqus as he had before, could he? Yes No. It was best not to think of that yet.
"Perhaps I was too rough when we last met. I won't try to deny what I did, though I won't try to apologize for it either. What happened happened, and I will make no effort to erase it from our past."
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[ ??? ]
This place was wet.
It seems he arrived at night, and maybe he shouldn’t have been messing around with that computer. It seemed to have teleported him pretty far away, neon lights shining down on him. And it seemed said structures were the only source of light on this World, a large Castle loudly calling like a lighthouse. He could see it from a distance, arms held tightly around him as he shivers in his short-sleeved coat.
So wet. And so cold. Shadows crawl around and about him, the boy entirely ignoring them; fearless, uncaring. In his time? Heartless didn’t attack people. Only the World Heartless, the ones dozens of feet tall, would attack things. The foot soldiers were virtually harmless to those with a Keyblade, would never attack unless heavily provoked or directly commanded to by one of the less savory individuals in each World.
He brushes his hand down a Neoshadow’s antenna, a quiet whisper of a question, an impulse of feeling and imagery as an answer. Well, apparently the residents of the Castle up ahead frequently thinned their numbers, but were also gathering a fuckton of LUX. They were hoarding it for themselves! Probably a secret rival Foreteller stronghold. At least not Unicornis, so the silver-haired boy cups his chin and thinks. Plotting, planning, deciding; he’d definitely get top-charts if he stole as much LUX as the Heartless were hungering for.
But as he gets closer to the Castle, he encounters a very sharp dropoff, lying on his stomach to look over it. Hearts, it went on for fathoms. He scoots away, sitting down and staring at the Castle in the distance. No path was available, so he just kind of stares, a small pout on his lip. There had to be some way…
[ ίиfίиίтυм ] ━━>
Talk about unfamiliar faces. Of all the people that could be trying to get into Castle That Never Was, it was someone that Xehanort had never even seen before. That didn't seem quite right... He could think of a mulititude of people who would be trying to infiltrate or even attack the castle, but this boy was definitely not one of them.
"You'll never get in there." There were no paths, at least not any straight shots that someone would just be able to happen by. They'd have to find a roundabout way to get in, and that was implying that they would have the luck to find one. "Instead of worrying about the castle, you should be worrying about where you are. Do you even know?" How was it that someone the likes of him had even stumbled upon The Never Was? It shouldn't be that easy to get to this place, especially seeing as how most people didn't have any sort of ability to travel off world.
Stepping from the shadows, Xehanort walked over to the other, stopping just a ways behind him, a bit out of the other's reach. The other was... interesting. At least mildly so, it seemed to be the only redeeming quality that he had yet noticed. Then again, his interest was so fickle, he could push him aside just as quickly as he had taken any notice of him.
"What business do you have here? If it is none, I would strongly suggest for you to leave this place just as quickly as you seem to have come. If not, you should at least give a name and state your purpose here before I eradicate you."
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#;promo#[[throws this here for no reason other than the fact that I love Katt please lover her]]#[[this is literally the best riku in the fandom and the mun needs a shit load of dokis]]#[[she's shy but please once you get to know her she is literally the biggest trash baby and best friend anyone could ask for]]#[[please love her]]
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[ Eraqus ]
Upon seeing this Xehanort, he lowered his gaze to the ground and it took a long moment for Eraqus to summon up the nerve to raise his eyes again. And after that, another long moment to register what was even said.
"Yes, I’m fine." He wanted to shift his eyes away again, but he steeled himself to stare inquisitively instead. "And yourself, friend?" The stress on the last word nearly left him with a crazed smile, but he forced that away, too. "Your affairs outside of time have certainly taken their toll on you, I’m sure."
[ ίиfίиίтυм ] ━━>
It would almost appear as if the other was reluctant to meet his gaze. Fortunately, when Eraqus did look at him, he didn't turn away again. Good. Xehanort would much rather have the other looking at him than away, and there was a high chance that he would have made Eraqus look at him if he hadn't done it by himself.
The intonation on the word friend, set him off slightly, and immediately his gaze turned to a slight glare.
"Mockery? Pathetic, Eraqus. I thought it was below you, though I wouldn't know anymore would I? You seem to have changed significantly from the you as I knew you. As for your later statement, my actions through time are no concern of yours."
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I just wanted take the time and say thank you Leonard Nimoy for everything you’ve done for us. You have made playing Kingdom hearts for me a great experience, and you will be greatly missed. I still cant get over this. There’s no one that can replace how perfect he was as Master Xehanort. Thank you for giving every one of us the experience of listening to your beautiful voice work.
rest in peace.
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Young Master Xehanort