{{ ooc. AIGHT BOI, THIS BLOG IS ( nearly ) READY
All I have to add is rules & what-not. All my muse pages are up. Since I have a 3 hour exam today ( not including the hours immersion for it, ffs ), I’ll be adding the other pages AFTER my exam. Because I have like an hour before I gotta run for it. so. Yeah. I also have a few more exams before I’m officially free, but otherwise, I’m out of school & I’m ready for this blog to start.
ooc: when was the last time I updated like April lmao
but yeah schools out for 3 diddly darn months & I have no money & no plans so I’m gunna use these three months to retreat into my room and start gASP,,, roleplaying again
hopefully, maybe, most probably
( because all of my friends are getting roleplay blogs & I’m here all alone getting jealous so instead of festering in my Disgusting Feelings™ I’m gunna start it off again )
haha but I’m still in a pretty bad mental state so when I make the RP blog it’ll be extremely highly super selective because ??? because I want to tbh ??
so. so there it is. I have some exams to do in the next two weeks or so. plus I am getting my hair dyed blue next week so. I am busy over the next fortnight but after that I basically have nothing to do so,, I,,,,, might aswell
ooc: every once in a while I’ll be dissociating to the point where I’m numb and feeling super reckless for no reason and then i stop for like 10 minutes and I’m like “shit remember when I was a cool roleplayer before Depression McGee came and whooped my ass”
( in fact I wasn’t even cool I was just an asshole who was just semi-funny with 500+ followers, wyd )
…….anyway
ooc: haha another update as promised
The funeral is tomorrow. I’m meeting my grandfather for the first time tonight. I’m… very anxious. I really don’t know what to say or do, or if he’ll even like me. But… Yeah. A lot of my friends are coming to the wake after the funeral, which is good I guess…
I’ll have a longer update up on Wednesday. This one’s just brief, I know. Again please like if you read this.
ooc: So another stupid update like these things are basically procedure now lol
So my dad’s funeral is on Tuesday, today was kinda rough, tomorrow will be even worse. Tomorrow I’m meeting my grandfather for the first time too (as in, my dad’s dad).
As for my mental health, it’s getting worse. Next week is the last week of school then we have 2 weeks off for Christmas and the new year, so that’s something I won’t have to worry about as much (but considering I have an exam on the week I come back from the break, that will not help me… at all). My mum’s looking into getting counselling for me but she’s had a negative impact on my mental health too (which is ironic, really). I know I’ll probably pull through this, one way or another, but right now I’m feeling pretty hopeless.
Like… tldr I know there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, I just haven’t found it yet.
Of course this means I probably, more than likely, won’t be back for the Christmas period either. I apologize, but honestly, just logging on here to post these updates makes me feel really… nauseous. I hate it. Seeing everyone on my dash again makes me feel ill. So I very much doubt I’ll be back before Christmas, or even for next year.
So… I’m sorry to disappoint anyone, if anyone even cares.
Please like this post if you’ve read it, too.
ooc: Aight I tthink every update I make here is just gonna be on how I’m doing and how the new blog I’m making is going
The new blog is going good. Not ready just yet, but I’ve started the pages and I have a lot of work to do on it but that’s fine.
About me though. Like literally the exact opposite. Ofc if you’ve spoken to me in the past day or so you’ll know. But yesterday, my dad died. And it’s really, really hitting home. I’m doing my best to stay positive (like I’ve gotten hundreds of messages from people about it, and I’m feeling really reassured) but I am gonna be rough for a while. Just how it goes.
Also sorry for the mobile updates. I’ve been stuck on my phone because there’s been so many people over because of my father’s death so… Yeah. I will be working on stuff over the weekend, but right now I’m still coming to terms with it.
I’ll be fine though. I always am.
psa to my rp partners : There are days when I am a speed demon with replies, but there are also days ( weeks/months ) when I am a snail. But NEVER think that I have forgotten about you. Sometimes, things get lost or they are in my drafts and my muse is being a derp and screaming “lol nope”. If you know it’s my turn to reply, NEVER be afraid to message me and inform me. Even with thread tracker, it can get messy, especially with RL in the way.
Remember I love each and every one of you guys and appreciate that you guys even take the time to write with me. ❤❤❤
ooc: Alright fams.
So I’m still on hiatus. Stuff isn’t going well still. Doubt it will go as I want it to for a while. But that’s not what I came here to say.
But hopefully before christmas, I’m gonna be making a multimuse blog. It’s gonna be multifandom and all my muses are gonna be there because I’m like... well... I can’t handle having like 2 million different blogs and only be active on like 3 of them?? then feel guilty bc I don’t use my other blogs?? I ain’t about that life. Plus when I wanna add a new muse it’s not like I have to make a whole new blog for it or anything I’ll just add a new page for them
so uh there’s that but still stuff is like :/ for me. I’m really moody and sad like 80% of the time and I’m really not prepared to start running my RP blogs again ( and obvs when I do I’ll be moving em to one blog so ). But yeah
just an update.
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“I want to draw Bass tonight,” I said. Then I tried to draw him in his super form, fused with Treble. That didn’t really turn out. So then I tried this instead, and thought it looked snazzy and rad.
The shape of his buster’s a little off, but, eh.
*eats your helmet, leaving your beautiful hair flowing in the breeze*
“...Okay.”
2C for Bass maybe?
ugh this is so rushed I wanted it to be all finished and nice but I wanted to get it done before I go to bed so I had to leave it at this
it still looks nice though IMO. I haven’t drew Bass like this in a while
