i just want my life to be as soft and as simple as possible

— Before Sunset (2004)

I want that "have you seen the way he looks at her" kind of love.

manifesting this

Feeling safe in someone's energy is a different type of intimacy. That peace of mind and security is very underrated and I cannot emphasize this enough.

Photo By Ann E. Zelle 1986

“I’m becoming who I am and it’s the scariest thing I’ve ever done.” Posted from the PostSecret website.

(important to note: the postcard includes a chemical formula pasted next to the message. the chemical is testosterone.)

“So what are you gonna say at my funeral, now that you’ve killed me? Here lies the body of the love of my life, whose heart I broke without a gun to my head. Here lies the mother of my children, both living and dead. Rest in peace, my true love, who I took for granted. Most bomb pussy who, because of me, sleep evaded. Her god listening. Her heaven will be a love without betrayal. Ashes to ashes, dust to side chicks.” Beyoncé: Lemonade (2016)

I’m having one of those moments right now..

cursed with "do you still like me?" "are you mad at me?" "did i do something wrong?" disorder

"this is actually anxious attachment style" no. it's "do you still like me?" "are you mad at me?" "did i do something wrong?" disorder.

Take the step.

A child free from the guilt of ownership and the burden of economic competition will grow up with the will to do what needs doing and the capacity for joy in doing it. It is useless work that darkens the heart. The delight of the nursing mother, of the scholar, of the successful hunter, of the good cook, of the skillful maker, of anyone doing needed work and doing it well—this durable joy is perhaps the deepest source of human affection, and of sociality as a whole.

— Ursula K. Le Guin, from The Dispossessed