having a mad longing for the lis series again holy shit
@selfiefucked liked for a starter
Combat boots kick up at the sand underneath them as the silence gnaws at Chloe’s stomach. A flurry of apologies had rushed their way past her lips as they drove to the beach, quick enough not to be halted by venomous thoughts; but it still wasn’t enough to make her head stop spinning with anxious energy after her earlier outburst. She had wanted to be alone - GOD, she NEEDED to let the smoke of a blunt threaten to dissolve her, ACHED for something that made her forget, WANTED to scream and break shit up and cry and ━
Chloe sighs, and when she speaks, it’s a vulnerable, breathy, fragile thing.
❝ I’m sorry. I said some messed up shit and ━ hell, it’s been a fucking insane week but you really don’t deserve me being a major bitch about this. ❞
A mere two hours had passed since she all but yelled at Max in the truck, pictures of Rachel and Frank still fresh in her mind like searing hot flashes, stings of BETRAYAL that poked at the fire of wrath cursing through her veins; until the loneliness crept in holding hands with regret, and she knew she couldn’t face this alone. As much as they needed to keep the investigation going, Chloe needed time to work through all the feelings clawing at her heart -- and she honestly couldn’t think of a better way to do it than sit in the sun, palms covered in sand with the only person who could make some sense of her by her side.
❝ When you were in Seattle, did you ever -- feel like you loved someone? ❞
❛ Why are you staring at me? ❜
Chloe blinks as if to confirm the veracity of the sudden accusation; and sure enough, she’s been zoning out of whatever conversation they were having, thoughts drifting towards a warm reminiscence of the past ━ and perhaps coupled with something else brought on by having her best friend back. The doubt still tugged at the corners of her mind, as if this was precisely the ‘too good to be true’ kind of weird where Max might just disappear into thin air if she looks away for too long. With a sharp exhale and a smile, she shrugs and fights off the urge to rub at the back of her neck reticently.
❝ I uh ━ think I’m still processing seeing you all grown up after like, forever. ❞
// the muse is alive and kicking so like this for a thing!
❛ You can turn around and face the other way. ❜
Chloe scoffs, grunts, paces around in their rusted hideout, shakes her head and looks away. Dealing with Rachel whenever she was in a MOOD was usually aggravating enough, but throw in the fact that her answer to Chloe confessing how much she hated seeing her like this after a whole day of radio silence from Rachel’s part was a snappy smartass comment and she's lacing frustration in her retort. ❝ You know I hate being told what to do, but also? No. ❞
She sighs, eventually stands in front of Rachel again, eyebrows knitted together into an irked but concerned frown. ❝ You know what I meant. Just -- tell me what’s going on. ❞
❛ Why did you come? ❜
The question came inquisitively instead of accusatorily — or so Chloe hoped, anyway; but she’s not capable of much else other than standing there, mouth gaping as if debating with herself over something. The loud pulsing of the music around them made it hard to mull over an answer that didn't sound too NEEDY, to pinpoint the exact moment she’d decided to drive to a Vortex party of all places, especially after making it very clear to Rachel she had no intentions of setting foot in it tonight. She’d been to a couple of these in the past thanks to Rachel's charming smiles and sweet words, and it’s not that the leo's persuasiveness had dimmed throughout these three years — it’s that she had stopped trying to convince Chloe as much lately.
❝ I -- uh. ❞ It’s a barely audible hesitant sound that flies from her lips as a hand rubs at the back of her neck, a practiced old habit. God, she HATED every bit of this -- everything from the fucking elitist pricks who never stopped staring at her with a mixture of disdain and surprise to the fucking shitty music coupled with giggles and murmurs wherever she walked; and not even the cold beer in her hand could stop the irritable groan as she shoved her way past the makeshift VIP section -- UGH. Still, Rachel’s question rings in her ears, and although the truth threatens to creep its way past her lips once or twice, she takes a swig and shrugs with unaffectedness. ❝ I dunno. I got lonely bored after a while and was hoping you could use some company. It’s uh - cool with you if I hang here, right? ❞
// is anyone still active?
// @hurricaen I came directly from Walmart to tell u to come back & write w/ me
( ♡ aesthetic meme : chloe price / @justgottaletg0. )
❛ You act like it’s all my fault sometimes. ❜
❝ No, you’re right, it’s my fault for thinking that someone who couldn’t even text me back for five years would actually help me fix my shitty life. ❞ Sharp was all Chloe knew how to be when things didn’t go her way, and fate’s plans usually involved the latter. Warm wrath cursed through her veins as she looked out the window at the Blackwell building, fingers gripping the steering wheel hard enough to whiten her knuckles. Frank’s pictures still flashed in her mind, furiously fresh like a searing wound, and all Chloe wanted was to go home, fetch a bottle and drown out the world’s noise enough to forget it entirely.
But Max was still in the truck, still trying to reason with her, to soothe the rage and deflect the blame that Chloe tossed her way like a careless weapon. Max sounded genuinely concerned, enough that a part of Chloe actually wanted to believe she wanted to help, despite all her actions proving the contrary to a stubborn mind. Still, Chloe’s words stung with sorrow wrapped in rage, eyes burning dangerously despite the dampness that surrounded them. ❝ Not even time powers could make you care, Max. Now please, just go. ❞
❛ Have you ever tried to count the stars? ❜ from rachel
It’s a bit of an unexpected question that tugs her eyebrows upwards at first, but she turns to look back up at the blanket of luminous dots above them and ponders briefly with a soft hum. ❝ When I was a kid, yeah. Max and I used to sit and count them 'til our eyes were burning and we both just started making up numbers. ❞
A propped up leg sways from side to side as she speaks, voice fond with remembrance. ❝ I’m happy just looking at them now. It’s... relaxing, somehow. Keeps me grounded. ❞ There’s a brief pause and an even subtler grin peeking from beneath her words that becomes evident when Chloe tilts her head again to glance at the blonde. Warm words threaten to roll off her lips, and being like this — cramped together on the back of the truck on an even warmer summer evening, it’s easy to justify not holding them back. ❝ Kinda like being with you. ❞
* @justgottaletg0 // raja & chloe
❛ you sure smell like you had a good time. ❜
❝ this? nah, it’s just my natural musk. ❞ there’s an amused scoff lurking behind her lips before she shrugs with nonchalant playfunless.. ❝ you sure sound like you wanna tag along next time, though. ❞
“What motivates me is seeing people in the crowd and wondering what they’re going home to and what they’re dealing with, and knowing that for the time being we’re their escape.”
` ° * ✧ ° RANDOM SENTENCE STARTERS PT 2.
❛ I wish that I could tell you. ❜ ❛ You should have stayed. ❜ ❛ Please don’t come looking for me. ❜ ❛ Just get out of here. ❜ ❛ I don’t know, I just don’t know. ❜ ❛ Why did you come? ❜ ❛ Do you think this is a game? ❜ ❛ Can’t break something that was already broke. ❜ ❛ Don’t fix something that isn’t broke. ❜ ❛ Why can’t you just butt out? ❛ I don’t need your help. ❜ ❛ I’m not here for you. ❜ ❛ You’re never here for me when I need you. ❜ ❛ Is that smell you? ❜ ❛ Can you please just stop already. ❜ ❛ I’m leaving you. ❜ ❛ I just didn’t want you to come around. ❜ ❛ Are you sure you’re okay alone? ❜ ❛ No, no, no, no —- I just checked it last night. ❜ ❛ Don’t worry, you’ll learn how to do it someday. ❜ ❛ I think we are going to like each other a lot. ❜ ❛ I just wanted to come and let you know. ❜ ❛ So, what are you going to do, now that you know? ❜ ❛ You have got to be fucking kidding me right now. ❜ ❛ Do me a favor and shut up already. ❜ ❛ Scratch the serial number off of it. ❜ ❛ I’m not wearing a mask. ❜ ❛ You act like it’s all my fault sometimes. ❜ ❛ I’m here for your pity party. ❜ ❛ You are in a lot of trouble, you know that right? ❜ ❛ You aren’t allowed in here. ❜ ❛ Who invited you? ❜ ❛ You aren’t wanted around here anymore. Sorry. ❜ ❛ I can’t keep covering for you. What’s going on? ❜ ❛ Just tell me what’s wrong! Talk to me! ❜ ❛ There’s so many things I would’ve done differently. ❜ ❛ Stop crying about it and do something about it. ❜ ❛ Stop looking for the things worth dying over and find the things worth living for. ❜ ❛ So, prove them wrong. Thats the best way to do it. ❜ ❛ Don’t need anyone who doesn’t need me. ❜ ❛ Yeah, well, we all have our sob story so just save it. ❜ ❛ Don’t cry over me or for me, I’m not worth it. ❜ ❛ It isn’t cheating if you aren’t actually dating. ❜ ❛ You know what? That’s a good idea. ❜ ❛ You need to find someome better already. ❜ ❛ I’m not listening to your bullshit right now. ❜ ❛ Is that a freaking condom? ❜ ❛ It smells like sour milk in here for crying out loud. ❜ ❛ Am I really standing here witnessing this right now? ❜ ❛ I’m not a bad influence if it’s always your ideas. ❜ ❛ I never forced you to do anything. ❜ ❛ Are you really walking out on me? ❜ ❛ Come near me again and I’ll blow your head off. ❜ ❛ Treat me like the princess that I am. ❜ ❛ Just remember a lot of guys want what I’m letting you do right now. ❜ ❛ How can you possibly be in love with two people at the same time? ❜ ❛ Let’s just get out of here. ❜ ❛ Shhh, I’m going to key his/her car. ❜ ❛ There’s no one even here. ❜ ❛ I’m just saying, it sounds like a bad idea. ❜ ❛ Is that blood on your shirt? ❜ ❛ Oh my God, are you bleeding?! ❜ ❛ Jesus, don’t you ever get tired of doing that. ❜ ❛ You know they throw people in Asylum’s for doing that. ❜ ❛ You’re just looking for trouble, like always. ❜ ❛ Enough is never enough for you. ❜ ❛ I could never get tired of this. ❜ ❛ You’re so jumpy lately. ❜ ❛ I mean I feel bad but whatever. ❜ ❛ I have a reputation to maintain unlike you. ❜ ❛ Why are you staring at me? ❜ ❛ Stop feeding into his/her bullshit! Wake up! ❜ ❛ Are you on drugs or something? ❜ ❛ You have lost your fucking mind, once and for all. ❜ ❛ Yes, you summoned me. ❜ ❛ I’m not here to help you. I’m here to watch you struggle. ❜ ❛ Hey, cut it out already! I can hear the stupid TV. ❜ ❛ Are you seriously asking me this right now? ❜ ❛ Have you ever tried to count the stars? ❜ ❛ I should kill you right now! ❜ ❛ Don’t you dare walk away from me! ❜ ❛ I know where you live! Don’t forget! ❜ ❛ I just wanted to have a good time but no, you couldn’t let me, could you? ❜ ❛ This friendship has officially sunk, hope you’re happy. ❜ ❛ Are you satisfied now? You should be. This is what you wanted. ❜ ❛ I don’t get everything that I want unlike you. ❜ ❛ Must be nice to be that miserable all the time. ❜ ❛ Happiness is the most temporary thing in life. ❜ ❛ Everything happens for a reason, right? ❜ ❛ You can call me at any hour. Always. ❜ ❛ There’s nothing that I can’t do. ❜ ❛ You’re like a forty year old, like an old soul or something. ❜ ❛ Say it or I’ll cut your finger off. ❜ ❛ I will stab you right in the eye if you look at me one more time. ❜ ❛ Go ahead and look but don’t touch, unless you want a broken limb. ❜ ❛ I’m actually a serial killer. I’m not joking. ❜ ❛ You have such a morbid sense of humor. ❜ ❛ This is our time, come on, let’s have our time. ❜ ❛ Hey, want a hand with that? ❜ ❛ I almost forgot what that felt like. ❜ ❛ I just want to feel something. I don’t know what though. ❜ ❛ I need your help with something. ❜ ❛ I’m pissed off right now. ❜ ❛ Don’t go breaking my heart. ❜ ❛ Why do you build me and watch me fall? Is that fun for you? ❜ ❛ Well, I’m used to it by now, so take your best shot. ❜ ❛ I hate crying. It makes me mad. ❜ ❛ I really don’t want to be seen with you right now. ❜ ❛ Please, just don’t forget. Whatever you do. Don’t forget. ❜ ❛ You can’t catch me though. ❜ ❛ I know I said fucked up things and I’m sorry. ❜ ❛ Look, I’m an asshole. I don’t mean be to be. ❜ ❛ I’ll try not to be an asshole anymore. ❜ ❛ Any pocket knives or anything? ❜ ❛ Where’d you go? ❜ ❛ I’m going to turn myself in. ❜ ❛ Did you finish your cigarette yet? ❜ ❛ You can turn around and face the other way. ❜ ❛ It wasn’t worth it, was it? ❜ ❛ I have no idea what you said. ❜ ❛ Right now, you’re acting very weird. ❜ ❛ I don’t even know what that statement means. ❜