yellow hearts & sunflower veins

thomas barrow & the duke of crowborough––

for @goatsandgangsters and a companion piece to this (1911 vs. 1911; falling in love in the floral horror and decadence of a town house vs. falling in love amidst raw survival on the streets; a footman and a duke vs. a bloody-knuckled tempest and a small boy as quiet and watchful as the grave; the drunken, chandeliers-and-stolen-kisses sprawl of london society vs. the starving gore of the lower east side; broken hearts and spat goodbyes in a yorkshire estate vs. devotion and forged kingdoms in the waldorf astoria). 

meyer lansky & charlie luciano––

for @goatsandgangsters & @meyerlansky and a companion piece to this (1911 vs. 1911; falling in love in the floral horror and decadence of a town house vs. falling in love amidst raw survival on the streets; a footman and a duke vs. a bloody-knuckled tempest and a small boy as quiet and watchful as the grave; the drunken, chandeliers-and-stolen-kisses sprawl of london society vs. the starving gore of the lower east side; broken hearts and spat goodbyes in a yorkshire estate vs. devotion and forged kingdoms in the waldorf astoria). 

something always rubbed me up the wrong way about all that “you have to stick around when a relationship gets tough!!!!! they aren’t easy!!!!! they’ll hurt and you have to be mature enough to get through it!!!!!! love is pain but if you really love them it’ll be okay!!!!” stuff

and i think it’s that.. people mistake abuse…. and genuine misery…. in a relationship for it just…… being a tough time that you have to get through??

like

your partner being stressed out about a job interview or being in mourning because someone died or the occasional fight or whatever it may be is one thing. that, that’s the shit you work through and support and love each other through. that’s in any relationship.

but sometimes, you look at someone and realise you aren’t in love with them anymore, or they aren’t right for you, or you fight just that bit too much, or you realise “oh. wait. this is abuse. i am controlled. i am scared. i am angry. i am hateful. i hate the person i am becoming and i hate this relationship and i hate them”.

and that??

that, my friends, is not fucking normal.

you don’t have to work through that. you don’t have to stick around for that. THAT is the mature decision to make.

like, idk if the people saying that have just never been in an abusive relationship before - in which case, you’re fucking lucky - but i just really hope the people reading it realise there’s a huge fucking difference

bye

meyerlansky replied to your post “self care is asking your mum for a pen in a cafe and...”

it’s the player who hits the ball with the bat in cricket, think nothing of it, rid it from thou memory, he was just pissed because they’re called batsperson now and his apparently straight dick can only get hard for men

ALSO i cant be fucked making a whole separate post but that thing about meryl streep????? how about we...... okay wild suggestion but how about we, as a species, wait for it, what if we... hold men accountable for their actions and not immediately pin it on any nearby women in their lives with the sole purpose of once again pitting women against women 

it’s almost like people chant about internalised misogyny without recognising it in themselves 

it’s almost like that isn’t it 

whoa 

why is there no “reblog this with what you used to imagine was running alongside your car when you were a kid” post

me, through gritted teeth as i force my cheerfulness and good will upon this earth: my cv is fucking yellow choke on my joy and love you capitalist buffoons

IM GOIN FOR MY DRIVERS LEARNERS TEST TODAY wish me luck i should have done it when i was 16 but im damN WELL DOIN IT NOW LMAO