tired of guys only looking out for chiobus and only talking to prettaye girls.
yeah i know that first impressions count, but it doesn't necessarily mean that you target pretty girls and talk to them only! what about the others??
perhaps it's because my self-esteem is dropping again...
It's march now.. and nowadays, almost everyday I suddenly think of you, out of the blue, not just when I'm alone. Granted, I don't picture your face, but it seems like sometimes I recall your lame jokes, or racist comments and I smile to myself.
It's true we're never meant to be together, because I can't picture myself growing old with you, but it doesn't mean you're no longer special to me.
Guys can be very callous, yeah I know. But I hope that wherever you are right now, you're still thinking of me in an amiable way and maybe someday we can just be normal bruddas and laugh together.
Someday.
Happy 70th birthday POPs! Hahah you're not that aunty, and I hope that even after thet big 7-0, you'll still be as young at heart as you are now. Just tone down on the nagging please...
MBS has very nice architecture, and honestly, now that the Science-Art Museum is open, the laser show on the lotus is very nice :) The food at Pacific was really REALLY yummy too, with lemon-butter lobster, scallop with century egg, super awesome EE-FU-MIAN (yowza, I'm definitely learning how to cook that) and SHOU BAO!
I really hope that my gramma will be able to live past the age of 80 without any major diseases attacking her body. I know it may be impossible, since the Bible age is threescoreandtwentyyears, but I pray that God will be merciful.
Speaking of which, had the chance to sort of witness to my friends the other day! They were musing about how religion is man's way of finding support, and I told them that it's super obvious that there is a god (God) at work. I mean, just looking at the Sun rising and setting everyday is proof enough that it is God's handiwork. I hope alil of what I said got through to them though :)
<3 12SO3I
It's 12.31 am and I'm gonna do a little math tutorial, then sleep! (yawns)
But first, I'd just like to comment on wannabes. You may think you're pretty, but please don't flirt around with guys left, right and centre! THEY may think you're pretty, but don't just giggle and lay your hand suggestively on their chest!
HAHAH just a random iwannasleepnow rant.
Love floorball :)
AM VERY BEWILDERED BY FLOORBALL.
WANT TO RUN FASTER, STRIKE HARDER AND AIM BETTER, BUT AM SERIOUSLY LAGGING BEHIND.
SHOULD HAVE GONE FOR FRISBEE? BUT I LIKE PLAYING THE GAME. JUST NOT SO COMPETITIVE LAH.
MOM SAYS TO JOIN BOTH CCAS, BUT THAT WOULD MEAN 0 PERSONAL LIFE.
YAWNS.
My mom just scolded me for 'being arrogant' because I tried to wake up my sis to do her Malay composition for school tomorrow. My sis was trying to do one her 'energy booster' naps and I tapped her on the head with the comb because I know that she's not going to wake up till 6.00 am tomorrow (trust me, I've seen her pack her bag, braid her hair and drink milk at the same time when this happens). So, my sis starts yelling (in her sleepy voice) that it's none of my business, so my mom wakes up and TELLS ME OFF FOR TRYING TO WAKE MY SIS UP.
Hahaha okay fine, you guys may think that I'm just trying to exaggerate my 'victimisation', but SERIOUSLY, I sometimes think my mom picks on me for NO REASON. AND SAYS I'M ARROGANT WHENEVER I TALK BACK TO HER.
But.. what if she has a point? What if this is some bad habit that I'm not aware of? Okay shall list all the things I tend to do when I'm in a tantrum or pulling a long face:
1. Speak in a slight angmoh accent and use big words (only when I'm angry. weird.)
2. Use the person's argument, totally TWIST IT AND THROW IT BACK AT THEM. (okay I see it now!! It's sarcastic and really makes me sound like a smart aleck!!)
3. Make loud noises. (No, not farts..) Slam doors, tables, etc.
4. Make ref to totally unrelated incidents, and try to make myself sound really unloved and unwanted. (heh. the emo style attack). Makes parents feel guilty.
5. Say my parents are biased towards my sis (which is aptly demonstrated by above incident! If I wanted to nap and not do my work, my mom will morph into a whip!Not encourage me to sleep more)
Oh dear. I guess I AM quite annoying. What should I do? Corinthians says that I should use LOVE and show LOVE, but it's so hard when I am constantly on the verge of losing my temper. I am quite hotheaded and can easily misinterpret what people say. I really hope I can change in the future.. Mellow down abit.
BUT outside of the house, I'm a different person! It's like Jekyll and Hyde. Two different people with extreme personalities. Everyone says I'm very sociable, and lame (hehe) but at home the talons come out. They say that your true personality is when you're at home. IS THAT TRUE?
Who is this girl I see/Staring straight back at me?
I think I need a reality check right now, take a deep breath and STOP, see where I am now. So many things have happened to me recently, that I'm not sure if I'm living in a fairytale or nightmare right now.
first up, I got into FLOORBALL :D yaya papaya (hahah i know i mashed up the meaning) but I'm so overjoyed! Hmm yeah I know it's annoying to be so happy about getting into a cca, and some people will go "why is she so happy?". But I'm really thankful about it! I really want to join it...
BUT I'm also gonna try out for council too. Which one should I pick? Okay more on this dilemma in the next post.
- the important thing is, I think I'm losing my true self now. All this gossiping, and trying to be popular, trying to be Miss Nice, and AHHHHH. I just want to sleep.
May TAKE 5 be a blast tomorrow! I really want my OG to be bonded together and not run off but it's too late to hope for anything now. HAIZ.
Had hockey trials today and i just abt committed every possible foul in the game!used my foot to stop the ball, crossed my stick, used the back to hit... Haiz. I hope i at least get shortlisted!but i told myself to just have the mentality that I'm no gd enough and i have to have fun and relax.. It kinda worked! no disappointments! hope tmr's a better day.
I have high hopes for my class! it's full of jolly people, and i srsly mean JOLLY. Very smilely, full of funny ideas, sweet and friendly. There's a good mix of enthu ppl, quietly nice ppl and down to earth ones. Not many jocks are in our class, and I'm thankful for that :) not that I've anything against jocks, but they always act cool and solid, it's quite hard to be gd friends with them. Esp me, since I'm the bubbly, try-too-hard kind. i think God has really blessed me with this class. And Menaz laughed at me for praying before class lists came out! Hah!
Let's try this out! Since I'm posting again, let's just talk abt lost love, eternal love and any kind of love, since vday is around the corner.
Love is a tricky thing. You need to have PATIENCE because God created singlehood for a reason! So that we can be mature enough not to depend on our parents to wipe our noses, but at the same time, not be distracted by a boy or girl. That's what i found out, far too late.
at tiffany's. at rjc's canteen.
tomorrow's gonna be a day of epic proportions for me. (sorry for using the word 'epic'! trying to cut down usage alrdy)
1. class allocations are out! i really hope I get a class like 409, because everyone may be quiet, but we're all nice and non-aggressive. yet, we're not passive. I'm really terrified I'll get some slutty person in my class! then it'll be CLAWS OUT.
2. floorball trials are tomorrow! arrrhhhhggghh I really have 0.5% chance of getting in, since 90% of the people going tomorrow have been shortlisted!haha you say that there's 9.5% chance left right? Well, there's still the JAE students whom I can tell are atheletic too!
just went running at the park just now, and I realised that there are so many things to be thankful for, despite the deluge of bad stuff that (could) happen tomorrow! the fact that I can run, that I'm not diseased or disabled, that I can still be in the running for council, that I have this whole bunch of friends whom I can pokitypoke anytime. yeah, life goes on.
1. it's all gonna end up outside again
2. well, you CAN'T guarantee it's ALL gonna end up outside again
3. people think you have constipation
4. that's what you think. you don't know for sure
5. you look like a pig for eating all that food.
6. no matter how much you lose, ppl still think you're a pig (see pt. 5)
7. it's a waste of TIME! (think of all the other things you could be doing)
8. it's a waste of MONEY! (think of all the food)
9. in the long run, you're gonna end up like a balloon
10. your body doesn't know when you're full properly.
HOPE THIS GOES IN PROPERLY. digest it. *hurhur pun intended*
haha first post of the year! (happy CNY!) and honestly, first post since a gazillion years ago, when i first had blogger.
i thought that i was over blogging already after all the scandalous tales of racist bloggers and irresponsible posers who get lugged to jail for talking about *ahem* stuff on the Net. But recently there've been so many things I want to talk about that I decided I'll jump on the tumblr bandwagon too!
Fingers crossed, hopefully this tumblr account will last for a long time to come.
Hahah here's the list of tumblr urls that I came up with:dongdongchiang was accepted but it seemed alil too lame.
