Jonghyun ah, thank you for appearing in our leader's dream encouraging him to be even happier than where he is now.

As an ELF I'm very grateful and appreciate for the support you've given to SJ. Even the last second post in your instagram was promoting Black Suit.

Thank you.

You know after seeing leeteuk's ig post it made me realised that there are so many kpop idols who looked cheerful and happy all the tume actually suffered from depression.

I usually don't leave comments on my idol's social media but after what happened I realised things could happen any time and I really don't want to lose another person I love dearly.

Everyone, please pay attention to your idol's actions closely, please do your best to encourage and give them strength if one day they feel exhausted or depressed.

Please cherish and support them. They need it more than we can imagine.

They are kpop idols.

But they're also just a normal human being.

Maybe....We need Sungmin & Kangin back.

I’m sorry this is out of nowhere.

But after seeing all these things that has been happening I honestly feel that we need to give sungmin and kangin another chance.

I understand the anger that some people has towards them.

Yes they might’ve handled their situations badly or made mistakes more than once.

But that’s just being a normal human being isn’t it? We can’t be expecting idols to be flawless, upright & perfect all the time.

This is what caused Jong Hyun to take his own life in the first place.

Have you guys ever think why did kangin kept causing trouble? Always drowning himself with alcohols, slowly destroying himself.

I’m strongly suspecting that kangin has severe depression also.

Of course if today kangin and sungmin genuinely doesn’t want to join Super Junior activities anymore I would respect their decision.

I strongly urge ELF to spread this post to the rest of the of the ELF community.

Do we really need to see another person committing suicide due to depression?

Please, PLEASE cherish our idols before its too late.

Thank you for reading this message.

#PleaseComeBackSungminKangin

I'm crying even harder knowing that it's super junior carrying jonghyun's coffin.

I wasn't expecting to see 2 of my most favourite group to be appearing in front of everyone like this.

I'm still shaking and non stop crying even after 4 days.

Lord help me.

I'm so sorry I couldn't do much for you, I'm really grateful that you were here with us for the past 27 years. Please be an ordinary man in your next life, without people scrutinizing every movement from you. Please rest well, you've fought so hard against depression. You did really well for fighting against it for so many years. It wasn't easy. You've been so strong and brave, just that no one was there beside you reminding you that. You did so well jong hyun!!! I love you. Thank you for being a part in my life.

To all my dear followers out there,

Let your friends, family, anyone know if you are going through depression.

Depression is not something that you can brush of simply and think "thats fine it'll go away". It doesn't.

You can choose to fight it, accept it or let it consume you and succumb to them.

I am speaking from experiencing severe depression. I threw myself into the mental hospital because I didn't know what to do anymore.

Every inch of myself was trying so hard to fight against it but I got tired and almost gave up. Thank goodness my friend was there to be with me, held my hand and comfort me and wiped my tears.

Whether today be it you are the one facing depression, or your friend is.

PLEASE seek help.

I know some people might not care, but trust me someone do care for you. Just like what my friend did for me.

If you don't help yourself, no one else can.

I know its hard, its tough but please don't end your life like this.

Life is more than facing your school/work/family/relationship problems.

I hope you can spread the word to anyone you know that is going through a hard time.

Sometimes people just needs a pat on the back and say "Hey pal, you've been doing a good job, stop being so hard on yourself c'mon! Lets go grab pizza and a jug of beer!"

I used to be ashamed that I was diagnosed with depression. But now I don't feel ashamed anymore. Why?

Because I overcome it and I believe you can too!!

Its possible to win over depression!

Can you believe that someone who wanted to end her own life 3 years ago is now a happy, contented woman living the best out of her life, striving hard for work, learning different languages, setting goals in 2018 and trying to fulfil it?

So please, whoever you are, spread the word.

I love you for whoever you are reading this and I hope that you can get out of depression, just like what I did.

I was really shocked when I heard that Jonghyun commited suicide today and knowing that he has been battling with depression for so long and lost to it really hurts me even more.

For those who have been following me for years you guys know that I myself have been through really bad depression and nearly ended my life. But I chose not to. My good friend was there to save me and stopped myself from doing foolish things.

Shinee was the one who brought me to kpop. Jonghyun was my no. 1 bias in shinee. I loved his voice, his gorgeous looks, his talents, his quirkyness. I loved him on hello baby making me laugh everyday.

Shinee helped me went through my tough days in my college days and I'm really grateful for that. Even though I've already been an ELF for 5 years but all these while theres always a special place for shinee in my heart.

I'm really sorry that depression took his life and I hope that God in heaven can set him free. I pray that he is in a better, happier place now sharing his music and laughter with his friends in heaven.

Even until now he is willing to donate his organs helping people who needs them badly. I can't understand why someone who is so kind hearted, someone who can cheer for his fans who is going through depression ended his own life.

Jonghyun, we loved you.

Please rest in peace.

I hope that you will always be happy in heaven.

Priorities

Other famous kpop groups : We have the most youtube views for our music video.

Super Junior : We have sold more than 15,000 black suits on home shopping tv less than 45 mins.

Hello!

Hey my followers,

I know that I havent been online for ages and I want to really apologise for that despite the fact that I mentioned before I would try to post something here frequently.

I’m turning 23 soon and I’m a working adult now so I really dont have much time to use tumblr anymore or to make funny posts also because that I lost more than half of my gifs collection when I changed a new computer (It really hurts me on the inside because I spent years collecting gifs)

So I’m declaring that I’ll be on a permanent hiatus, it really hurts me alot that I have to do this, I really thank you all for your kind messages and regards, but I simply do not have the time to blog much anymore (and also the fact that I lost majority of my gifs) and SJ is somehow on a hiatus now too, there isn’t much things for me to talk about either.

If you’re curious I’m still an ELF (and always will be) I’m just quietly waiting for all SJ to be done with military and we can meet one another soon :’) I’m still into kpop so yeah.

I’m struggling with my work and life problems every single day, trying to fight against my depression that is always lingering somewhere far at the back of my mind.

Being an adult sucks really, but I’m glad that I’m still doing something useful in life, making my dreams come true which is to go to Japan, Tokyo soon :D

Anyway enough blabbering. Thank you for your kind support and I hope you’ll have a nice day after reading my message :) <3

If you’re interested, you can add me on instagram : jacey0812 

Many thanks and big hugs,

Jacey 

I really can’t believe time flies so fast....

1 year ago on this day 29th Nov, because of my severe depression and tendency of comitting suicide, I admited myself into a mental hospital because I didn’t know what to do with myself and my life anymore. I gave up because I was so tired with everything....I fell into this abyss, a complete darkness and even right now as I recall, I can still feel the fear exactly how I feel when I’m in the hospital, It’s scary af. So many of you sent messages trying to stop me from committing suicide, my bff wouldn’t stop calling my handphone when I sent her my last sms thanking her that she has been a great friend etc.

She just uploaded a post on her tumblr and I cried immediately because I didn’t know that I was so broken,pieces of glasses scattered all over the floor.

I can’t believed that it’s been a year and so many things have happened. I recovered from depression,I did counselling with my counsellor for 6 months, I was able to cope with sadness better, I found a better job, went to ss6, renovated my room, slimmed down a lil, started learning makeup and skincare for the first time (innisfree ftw).

Lately whenever I feel like it’s the worse day of my life ever I always remind myself that hey it could be worse, wayyyyy worse man. I can never forget the times when I couldn’t even go where I want to go, eat what I want to eat. I lost my freedom completely when I was in the hospital and this made me appreciate the simplest things in life even more.

A year ago I though it was the end for me, but right now I’m enjoying SS6 live audio through spotify laughing at heechul’s rap in “This is Love”. You might think that the shitty situation that you’re in is gonna last forever. It’s not. :) Because nothing lasts forever. You gotta do something about it if you want to change your life.

Though many of the people around did not know about this, I’m proud of myself that I tried to seek help when I really needed one. And you should never ever feel embarassed just because you need help.

So whoever you are, reading this post right now and you’re going through a ton of shit. Please listen to my story. Tell someone about your problem, whether is it a friend, teacher, parents, counsellor. Seek help. DO NOT ever think that seeking help is shameful. DO NOT ever think that no one cares for you. I do. I’m sure other ELF does too.

We might be a thousand miles away but actually we’re just a message/email away!

Thank you to all the people who messaged me, I’m really grateful for that. :)