remember that time when taemin rebelled against sm and cut his hair?

super secret photo of kyungsoo dressing as his idol, weird al

I'm TUMOR FREE!!! :D

Guys!!! I'm back home and healing up! Surgery was a success, I lost a lot of blood in the process but the doctor gave me a few transfusions and everything is good now.

I had one tumor the size of a CANTALOUPE and 4 or 5 others the size of a grapefruit! We knew they were pretty big from the ultrasound they did, but in the 2 months I had to wait for surgery after that they decided to grow a little more.

I've got 24 staples going down around my belly button to my pelvic bone, still a little groggy from anesthesia, and I can't get up without someone to help me up, but my pain is very tolerable and actually BETTER than how I felt before surgery.

Uterine fibroids are actually very common for women to get, but usually it affects middle aged women rather than people in their 20's or younger. My family is cursed with these buggers and it hasn't skipped a generation, when I was diagnosed I wasn't surprised or upset to hear the word "tumor" but told the doctor "So it's finally here." One family member actually had to get a hysterectomy at age 18 because of these, so I'm not the youngest to deal with them. 

I hated being the only young person I know having to go through this, and by all means I hope none of you ever have to deal with it because it's been painful and frustrating. But if you do, I'm here to talk to you and answer questions!

But I'm home, I have pain medicine to help me out, my husband is taking off work for another week to help me get around the house and he's been a lovely nurse (and a fiiiiiiine one at that ;D) It doesn't take much moving around for me to feel worn out and tired, but that is a normal side effect of surgery and anesthesia. All in all, considering I was operated on Wednesday morning, I already feel 200% better than I did before I walked in to the hospital before.

Thank you again for all the sweet messages you guys have sent over the past 2 years, your support and kind words made this situation much more tolerable than it would have been otherwise! 

After nearly 2 years of struggling with no insurance, lots of pain, frustration, anxiety, and an overall feeling of helplessness, I am finally getting rid of my tumors.

I know I don't actively use this blog much anymore, and most of you have probably forgotten about it, but I'm so thrilled/anxious and wanted to share.

Thank you for all the kind words of support I've gotten about this over the last 2 years! Wednesday is the big day so keep your fingers crossed that everything goes smoothly!

(I'm about to be stuck in the house healing for 6 weeks, maybe I will photoshop some new pictures to pass the time once I get back home.)

is anyone playing dragon age inquisition? because i really need to talk about blackwall and i dont have any friends who are playing it!!!! AND CULLEN LETS TALK ABOUT CULLEN oh my god.

I WAS JUST WATCHING JERRY SPRINGER EPISODES ON YOUTUBE AND I SAW SOMEONE I KNOW ON AN EPISODE OMFG

I CANT POST IT ON FACEBOOK CAUSE I DONT WANNA STIR UP ANYTHING BUT I JUST HAD TO SAY IT TO SOMEONE

hey guys, do any of you remember the health problems i've been having with fibroid tumors?

and remember how i don't have insurance and have struggled so much with getting this problem dealt with?

today, i found out i'm eligible for a local program that helps people without insurance when they're having trouble working or are out of work due to an injury.

they told me they don't have the funds at the moment, but i should be getting surgery after the new year and most likely before march!

and the best part?

they're covering everything. i don't have to pay a dime.

TODAY IS A WONDERFUL DAY MY FRIENDS! i had to share my joy with someone!