rebecca

it's so weird to stand back from life and watch how other people are behaving when you're not there with them. it's weird to see them change. it's weird to see them meet new people. and it's weird to think that you aren't a part of that. I've been standing back from life for 3 months. I have come to realise that people move on so fast. people forget you. they fear you. because you're ill. they make you feel invisible. worthless. lonely. you see what they do without you and you think "why am I missing them when they're not missing me" life is going on for them. for me it has stopped. and when my life has stopped and everyone else's continues, it is easy to get lost in my own loneliness, I just wish people didn't back away just because I am ill. it is not my fault. please don't forget everything about me. I am still here and finding life a lot harder on my own. you've deleted me. and I still don't know how I feel about it.