Help

I need your help

I need our help

I need the help

Please don’t run

I need your help 

“Hello World”

If it were 2013, maybe my teen angst would be applauded. Here I am - 2017, 24, still the same individual

No balls, no attempts

Still unchanging, the same stream I subscribed to years ago

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If you are reading this Know that I ended my life over a year ago And that my perfect life has been over for some time And that I miss what I used to be And that I will never be what I used to be And that what I was before will never be again. I will never be close to a human being again. My life ended when I left. And now I will push myself beyond my limits until I don't exist

LA

The elevators could see us And it was funny for us Happy?

I remember the fireworks From Disney land on the way back

Was I happy?

Were you happy?

Are we happy now?

Can I be happy?

Am I allowed?

Can I allow myself?

2/2/15

Sometimes it’s hard not to look back

Sometimes it’s hard to move forward

sometimes I’m stuck for days in the same spot

with my brain in the past

Maybe it’s part of growing up

But there’s always this feeling of

“I’ll never have that back"

“I’ll never experience this again"

everyone lives in the past too much

I live in the past too much

Sometimes I can’t believe there are parts of me that are lost forever

sometimes I can’t believe it’s been so long since I saw you,

or you,

or anyone

Sometimes I feel as though I’m losing myself

But the self that I’m losing was worth losing

but the self that I lost would probably think I suck

my family is so emotionally stunted n so am I

why are u awake?

what are u searching for?

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