however there was a time when i was 18 where i fucking went in on someone i know irl for their treatment of me and you know what? to this day i still broadly dont regret it. sometimes you do have to cuss people out

the stages of my young adulthood as i transcended my teens:

1. horny teen with selfish tendencies and insecurities that could have grown into abusive ones without selfawareness and reflection

2. made irl friends again at a new school and felt accepted by people. went to parties and was well liked.

3. uh oh! here comes university! will our intrepid hero lose it all and return to another point in his life where he must deal with losing all the stability he once had or will he maintain his stability and personal growth?

4. did cocaine at a club and ate all of my mates brown bread. crisis averted, feeling normal again

also as a 15 year old i was also constantly inserting sex and sexual stuff into convos to the point it was probably borderline whether i was becoming a sex pest. the one or two friends i still keep from this site have said as much that if i was like i was a teen now they wouldnt have been my friend still. it had become apparent to me just how horrendously bad being that person is to others and i havent looked back since.

on reflection, being a hormonal teen that had completely split from his rl friends over bullying with plenty of insecurities and poor socialisation to the point i have wondered whether im on the spectrum didnt help this. im just glad i fucking logged off and adjusted myself

the mike z stuff does make me think that i never really addressed being a shithead teenager on this site to any of the people i used to speak to and that although it may have been like a relatively short part of my life that maybe had no bearing on others long term, was still bad. my problem was mainly the emotional blackmail part where id blow up on people or vague because i thought they werent giving me enough attention. i pretty much have no lines to anyone i used to speak to that i did that too but given the opportunity i would like to make amends 

mike z: hmmmm today and for the next eight years i think i will sexually harass my coworkers and hold them hostage emotionally if they don’t conform to what i want <------------- clueless

i read all of the accusations and things the dude did and its literally shit that an idiot fifteen year old would do. i remember being like a insecure hormonal teenager and doing shit like making close to the mark inappropriate remarks to try and fit in with adults and it appears mike z did that as an adult for almost a decade. and now people have lost their jobs - whether through resignation or when the company likely goes tits up because a studio like that cant support a mass staff turnover - because of it. deranged

wow crazy shit about mike z huh? someone should stick a boot up his arse until his skeleton pops out of his mouth