“fantasies have to be unrealistic because the moment, the second, that you get what you desire, you don’t; you can’t want it anymore. in order to continue to exist, desire must have it’s objects perpetually absent. Its not the -it- that you want, it’s the fantasy of it. so desire supports crazy fantasies. this is what pascal means when he says we are only truly happy when daydreaming about future happiness or why we say the hunt is sweeter than the kill. or be careful what you wish for. not because you get it but because you’re doomed not to want it once you do. so the lesson of lucas is, living by wants will never make you happy. what it means to be fully human is to strive to live by ideas and ideals and not to measure your life by what you’ve attained in terms of your desires but those small moments of integrity, compassion, rationality, even self-sacrifice. because in the end, the only way that we can measure the significance of our own lives is by valuing the lives of others.”
i feel like i don't understand anything anymore. i'm on the outside, looking in. or maybe i'm trapped in a dark, dusty box on the bottom shelf of a closet. and the door is nailed shut. everyone is carrying on, doing their own things, making plans. building relationships. i'm staring up at the holes, poked in the lid of my box. pretending the dim light coming in are stars. well, some days they're stars. most nights, i'm afraid to fall asleep. what if i don't wake up? those are the nights i know why i've chosen to be alone. but the nights i do see the stars, i can't help but wonder why you don't love me.
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one of my favorites. it hangs on my living room wall 💕
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Jean Rhys, from Wide Sargasso Sea (W. W. Norton, 1966)
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i eat in n out excessively when i miss george. 😁
i've got your name written all over me but you're the only one who can see it.
she drowned in moonlight, strangled by her own bra
one of my best buds rod and scott paige (of pink floyd) covering miss you by the rolling stones 👌👌
Single serving size // r.i.d (via inkskinned)
on repeat. 😍😍😍😍
hey, @thisisntthegeorgeyourelookingfor thank you for bein' a friend.
2006 v. 2016. regardless of how hard things have been for me healthwise, she has made it the best 10 years of my life.
when i found out i was pregnant, the doctors told me i would be risking my life for her. i nearly died after she was born and every day since, i have been through a lot just to make sure i could spend as much time with her as i can. and every single thing has been worth it. she is the best decision i’ve ever made.
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even when i'm in the hospital, i know how to have a good time. 😸