Ganja Smugglin'

Nobody cares man. Im so tired.

Accepting I wasn’t to you, as you were to me. And I get it.

All of this just really tore me up. I only hope you’re doing great.

You loved me to some degree. But, I was never going to be the guy for you.

No matter how bad I wanted to be, you always told me you knew we were incompatible.

I wasn’t who you needed, or wanted maybe. But I did want to be.

I just wanted to say I haven’t reached out anymore because it seems selfish.

I want you to be happy. Feel comfortable, be vulnerable, makes your heart explode.

I don’t know when any of this will be read or if it will be but I’m always happy for you and that’s the point of this.

You’re my best friend, and you deserve the best

If I could talk to you without getting my throat in a vice, I think I know what I’d say.

I love you, I miss you and I hope you forgive me

The more time I spend away from you, the more I realize what love is.

It’s this. It’s letting go.

I was so concerned with how I felt about you, that I often neglected to focus on how you felt.

You were my best friend and the kindest person I’d ever met, but I took it for granted.

I’m sorry I pushed us apart. If I could take anything back in life, it would be that.

But, I think that you’re going to be so much better without me in your life. You deserve to be around people who live and laugh like you. Who have such a deep well of love in their heart, as you do.

Thank you for everything, this truly was the best year I could have asked for.

I love you and I’m sorry. You’re going to do great things.

Here’s to you

I don’t feel like I should be alive