genesxis reblogged
spilledellipses-deactivated2017
momentary flashbacks,
like postcards I sent to myself,
suddenly pouring from my mailbox,
stampeding me
with a diverse collage
of who I used to be
and who I still am,
vivid reminders
of this lifelong scam,
pretending I can become
a more normal someone,
knowing I will always remain
in this same twisted brain,
wondering if some day
it will all go away,
and there will be no more
greetings from crazyland,
because I’ll finally be free
reduced to dust in the sand,
so you can mold me into castles
and scribe your name in my hand,
instead of exhausting yourself
pointlessly trying to understand
why I am how I am,
why I don’t give a damn
if my heart stops today,
why I’d gently sigh
and gladly say,
finally,
I no longer have to live this way.
(via the-tie-that-binds)
