A Bond Between Men
In my last 4 years since writing here, I’ve become a wedding videographer. I call it a side gig as I’m about to enter year 8 as a high school teacher, but it’s much more than that. It’s exciting. It’s special. I get to blend into the background of arguably the most important days of people’s live and film their experiences and then stitch those moments together into a lasting film. I enjoy the process and I kind of depend on the job to force me to be present in my life, if only for the duration of a 10 or 12 hour shoot.
This past weekend I filmed what seemed on the surface to be a normal wedding day, preparations at a hotel followed by ceremony and reception at a typical Massachusetts venue, outdoor tent on a beautiful property. In these waning days of summer, I almost relegated this wedding to be just another one to film through and then be on my way home as I’ve been constantly filming every single weekend since the start of May and will be until Thanksgiving. But something happened that surprised me pretty early in the day on this early August wedding.
The groom, his name is Rey, had about 10 or 11 groomsmen. The thing is though that this most recent wedding, the groomsmen, steeped in their pre ceremony jitters and buzzed states of mind with a few drinks in them, did something I had not witnessed in my almost 3 years of filming weddings, they went around in a circle in the hotel room and talked about the impact the groom had on their own lives.
These seemingly innocuous moments were just so pure and genuine that I was really taken back. Obviously I just filmed the whole event by being a fly on the wall but man, something about this vulnerable moment between a large group of men getting really emotional with each other gave me so much life, not because men are not allowed to do this socially, which I think is rare, but because I wish I was part of this group. I’ve got a few good friends but we’re scattered by geography and circumstance.
There was something so profound about this simple and spontaneous exercise of an expression of love between friends that just crippled me. I’ve got good friends but to see this display between men that on the surface appeared super macho and concerned with appearance and machismo but deep down just wanted to express love for their friend was truly inspiring and heart warming.
I love being able to see and capture these intimate moments, even if I’m the stranger in the corner behind the camera.