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nightlyquotes

“Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it.”

— David Foster Wallace

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“She’s never where she is. She’s only inside her head.”

— Janet Fitch, White Oleander

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Yeah, they all had something to say. She’s too young, too old, too famous, not famous enough, too rich, she should want more money, well Honey, happy Mother’s Day cause you never gave a damn about anything the naysayers thought anyway! Now you’re tired all the time but you’ve never laughed more. There’s shit stuck to your shoe?! What IS that? But you’re never bored. You’re on the ground more but not because you’re sad like before and your inner child is just fine with that! You always had a reason, well, most of the time but now you have purpose and long after the songs and dirty venues and nightclubs you’ll still have a number one fan. And even when you feel like you can’t- you can. Because of little shoes and toys you trip over too much and little paint prints that are fingers and toes and little everything! But he’s already too big. And so it goes. Thank god you were too young, too old, too famous, not famous enough, too rich, should want more money because todays your day!

Oh, and Ashley… Halsey? Whatever… the answer is the one pretending there is a difference❤️ Like the face you carved out of your own bone and flesh is somehow a mask and not laugh lines you’ve earned and not the same one that screams on stage or scrunches their nose in the mirror because they know they’re a standard of good looking this world seems to regard and thank god because that’s easier. Like you can’t love and hate yourself, and everyone else for that matter, at the same fucking time?! Of course you can! Time is an illusion and so is armor. You never gave yourself credit- even when you signed the songs Ashley Frangipane. You’re the one who showed up for you. It was YOU when you were tired, weak, manic, sure lucky charms were a meal, you you you. But you’re so quick to give them away like they’re an idea. Well, illusion is an illusion too and if someone tells you different- fuck it! Leave that and them in the woods with fresh earth and everything else you’ve had to leave behind, but reaper don’t pretend you killed them. They made up their own mind. And if it’s real to you, well then, sweet Sunday, it’s real to me too.

#h #tiredandlonelymuse #halsey #ashley frangipane #poem #happy Mother’s Day

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tiredandlonelymuse

Perhaps it victimizes me to admit that I am expertly betrayed. Easily taken advantage of. I am not a martyr. I am The Devil’s Professional Advocate. I will put myself in your shoes till my flesh melts with the soles. And in these trappings not made for me, my clumsy and stumbling gait walks me into gaping pits of disillusion. Bear traps set in a forest by those who know I will stop to admire the leaves and search for beetles on their backs who need rescuing. I suppose that I owe my survival to a magic trick I learned (earned?) when I was young:

“Leave your body, and go somewhere else.”

I became such a skilled dis-associator that I split in two. Peel myself straight down the middle like the plastic backing of a bandaid. Astral project into a timeline where I haven’t made whatever grave error in character judgement has landed me in my terrible predicament. I have been asked 100 times what the difference is between Halsey and Ashley and I have never answered honestly. The truth is that I built her, as a child, to protect the tender core that lies beneath. In a confusing chain of events, my maladaptive daydream became my full time reality. My armor can walk and talk and they look just like me. But you can’t hurt us anymore,

Because one of us is not real.

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“You don’t have to have it all figured out to move forward.”

— Unknown

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You. Well, except that one bit. But… you.

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awesome-picz

Wholesome Cat Posts That Will Hopefully Make Your Day.

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shirleygetloose

not to be dramatic but we desperately need a punk movement to come in and wash away this Instagram model airbrushed picture perfect trend. it’s so damaging……teens, young adults, kids, the Grown….all of us need to just. we need to be sweaty again. we deserve it smeared eyeliner…..idk just. it’s okay if ur hair is greasy please just relax & then get mad about stuff that’s important to you.