All day, I do everything for you. I deal with your mood. I hold you at my fingertips. Like I hold the wings of a butterfly. But⦠But what? You are not mine.
books Iβve read in 2024 π no. 023
Hopeless by Elsie Silver
βIβm done pretending to be head over heels in love with you because Iβm legitimately head over heels in love with you. And acting like Iβm not tears me up.β
"Iβm done pretending to be head over heels in love with you because Iβm legitimately head over heels in love with you. And acting like Iβm not tears me up."
Hopeless (Chestnut Springs Series) by Elsie Silver
βItβs in silence we know ourselves, vampire. Itβs in stillness we hear the questions that truly matter, scratching like baby birds on the eggshells of our eyes. Who am I? What do I want? What have I become? Truth is, the questions you hear in the quiet are always the most terrifying, because most people never take the time to listen to the answers. They dance. And they sing. And they fight. And they fuck. And they drown, filling their gullets with piss and their lungs with smoke and their heads with shit so they never have to learn the truth of who the fuck they are. Put a man in a room for a hundred years with a thousand books, and heβll know a million truths. Put him in a room for a year with silence, and heβll know himself.β Β
γ € γ € γ € γ € γ € γ € γ € γ € γ € γ € γ € γ € γ € γ € γ € γ €γ € Β β Jay Kristoff, Empire of the Vampire
the fact that shakespeare was a playwright is sometimes so funny to me. just the concept of the "greatest writer of the English language" being a random 450-year-old entertainer, a 16th cent pop cultural sensation (thanks in large part to puns & dirty jokes & verbiage & a long-running appeal to commoners). and his work was made to be watched not read, but in the classroom teachers just hand us his scripts and say "that's literature"
just...imagine it's 2450 A.D. and English Lit students are regularly going into 100k debt writing postdoc theses on The Simpsons screenplays. the original animation hasn't even been preserved, it's literally just scripts and the occasional SDH subtitles.txt. they've been republished more times than the Bible
Anon request: Calling each other by their first names.
* i threw in the titles too just because.
Ichabbie ways of sayingΒ βI love youβ
- βOur fates are intertwined now. Running away isnβt going to change that.β
- βI do take comfort knowing that this strange road we find ourselves on can only be traveled together.β
- βSo if she dies in the dreamβ¦βΒ βShe dies. Period."Β Β "I see.β *Ichabod marches over and drinks a concoction.Β βCrane!"Β β¦.Β Β "What are you thinking?"Β Β "Well, iβm coming with you now, so no point in discussing it.β
- βBelieve me when I say that you belong in Sleepy Hollow. In the here and now.β
- βYou are home, Crane.β
- βI look forward to you expanding my horizons further.β
- βYou know how important Crane is.βΒ Β βTo you?βΒ Β βYeah, to me.β
- βThrough these centuries, against the impossibility that we would find each other, we did. And I am most grateful for it.β
- βPerhaps it would be easier if you left.βΒ βThereβs no way. Too many people I never got a chance to say goodbye to. You are not gonna be one of them.β
- βYou were right. Thereβs always another way.β
- βNext time listen to me, okay? I canβt go through that again.β
- βIf it makes you feel any better, I feel pretty alone sometimes too.βΒ Β βPerhaps this is the sacrifice that witnesses must carry. all we really get is one another.β
- βYour company holds the greatest value to me.β
the most illogical and asinine thing about sleepy hollow isnβt that one of the main characters is actually from the revolutionary war era and awakened in 2013 because his (unbeknownst to him) witch of a wife cast a spell on him and bore him a sin eater/the second horseman of the apocalypse. Itβs not even the demons, Headless, Moloch, wendigo, purgatory, or time travel. the most illogical and asinine thing about sleepy hollow is that Ichabod Crane, a white man from the 18th century, didnβt have a problem with Abbie Millsβ skin color, but the writers, white men from the 21st century, did.
Itβs been 84 years and I still get mad about Ichabbie sometimes. Letting go? Never heard of her! π
π books i read in 2024: mindf*ck series by s. t. abby
βTo defeat a monster, you have to be twice as monstrous. To love a monster, you have to share your soul.β