For the void
Work changed the phone system we use, so now as a 911 operator, I don't get a good solid location on where my callers are.
So tonight I wasn't able to help a 9 year old who was brave and cared 911 for his momma who was getting beat by her boyfriend.
On top of that my legs are covered in random bruises, I'm starting to get rashes all over my body and I'm having extreme fatigue and lower back pain. Which were all early smytoms of my cancer.
The love of my life broke up with me almost a year ago and I've never felt more alone than I do right now.
I'm exhausted, I'm burnt out, I'm tired, and I'm scared. I need a hug but I feel like everyone in my life is just as exhausted with me as I am.