que sera, sera

James baldwin’s the artists struggle for identity. Btw.

"That I have experienced my share of traumatic experiences, have survived abuse of various kinds, have faced near death from accidental circumstance and from violence (different as the particulars of these may be from those around me) is not a card to play in gamified social interaction or a weapon to wield in battles over prestige. It is not what gives me a special right to speak, to evaluate, or to decide for a group. It is a concrete, experiential manifestation of the vulnerability that connects me to most of the people on this earth. It comes between me and other people not as a wall, but as a bridge."

Olúfẹ́mi O. Táíwò, Elite Capture, 2022

Mary Oliver, from "Evidence", Devotions

Charles Dickens, from “Great Expectations”

I sit beside the fire and think of all that I have seen, of meadow-flowers and butterflies in summers that have been; of yellow leaves and gossamer in autumns that there were, with morning mist and silver sun and wind upon my hair. I sit beside the fire and think of how the world will be when winter comes without a spring that I shall ever see. For still there are so many things that I have never seen: in every wood in every spring there is a different green. I sit beside the fire and think of people long ago, and people who will see a world that I shall never know. But all the while I sit and think of times there were before, I listen for returning feet and voices at the door.

John Keats, from Selected Poems & Letters of John Keats; "Endymion,"

Margaret Atwood, from The Circle Game

-Emily Dickinson.

this is going to be difficult -> i am capable of doing difficult things -> i have done everything prior to this moment -> this difficulty will soon be proof of capability

it’s so fun being a securely attached person and not getting anxious over people leaving your life bc you finally recognize if they’re so quick to leave then maybe they were never worth your time to begin with and there’s nothing you could’ve done differently to change that

be terrified, but open your arms

Constant reminder

Sunday Views. 35mm. Santa Cruz, CA. 2018

my moat fucking sucks and i am going to get sieged