I'm not sure what I did wrong to make someone I thought was my best friend to ghost me.
I haven't checked this blog in a while because I was afraid to see her posting stuff when she clearly didn't have time to reply to my messages. I haven't heard from her in three years. And we've lived in separate states for 15 now.
It looks like she no longer follows me.
We've known each other since 2nd grade.
For some time before she finally stopped replying, she did take quite awhile to respond. But she was working two jobs, so I figured she was busy. I wasn't working at the time but I understood.
The last time I emailed her before she stabbed replying entirely, I think was in late 2017. I don't think I said anything offensive and if I did I'm sorry. I did tell something kind of personal that I was trying to work though. Maybe she couldn't accept it. I just wish she'd told me she didn't want to be friends anymore instead of ignoring me.
Is it because we don't like the same fandoms anymore? That can't be all a friendship is built on and if that's all we had, then I guess we're better off apart.
Is it because I posted on FB that I'm on the Ace spectrum? If that's the reason then I guess she wasn't a true friend. By the way, I saw on her blog, she watches Loki and I hear he's bisexual. So...?
Is it because she's Christian and I'm very much not? I thought we were overlooking that?
Whatever the case, I don't think I did anything wrong. I just wish she'd tell me what she thought I did or point blank told me she didn't want to be friends. I would have been hurt but I would have accepted because I am her friend.
I gave up trying to contact her last year after one last email, asking her these questions. No reply.
I should have realized sooner.
I'll unfollow her so I don't torture myself. I need to let her go. She needs to stop showing up in my dreams though.
The messed up thing is that if she were to contact me out of the blue, wanting to be friends again, I'd take her back.
I don't have any friends. I get along with co-workers but we don't hang out outside of work. I don't know how to be friends anymore or make friends. I have my mom and my two cats.
Anyway, sorry for the ramble.
-A