SWEET / DELUSION

hey hi so um this is not nicely formatted.  but i’ve definitely been offline a lot more than usual recently.  my eating disorder has come back with a vengeance and i’m struggling a great deal.  i have been skipping meals, starving for days at a time and i’ve been struggling a lot idk.  so im going to have to take some time off these blogs.  you can find me at my personal account  HERE  but i will have to take a few days or weeks off and idk when i will be back !!  im sorry for my lacking speed and i’m not sure if i will post any replies at all on any of my blogs but pls be patient.  i love u all and i hope u are all having better days than i am rn.  and if not then i’m sending u all the good vibes.

“You’re really telling me you didn’t miss me at all? You didn’t think about me? ‘Cause I sure missed you.” 4x08 / 5x06

OK   GUYS   IM   SORRY   FOR   MY   ABSENCE          my   life   and   health   has   been   a   little   chaotic   recently.     i   adore   u   all   and   im   excited   to   be   more   active   on   valorie.     however  ,     i   think   i   will   be   absent   for   a   lil    BIT    longer.     my   health   has   been   exhausting   me   and   im   v   v   stressed   about   my   application   to   go   back   to   university   which   is   pending   till   august.     my    EDUCATION    has   always   been   chaotic   but   ive   never   cared   about   anything   so   much   as   this.     i   haven’t   been   sleeping   or    eating    properly   which   is   Not   Good   and   i’ve   got   so   much   to   do.     i   will   obv   be   around   and   i’m   going   to    be   keeping    LYRA     and    LORNA    active.     valorie   will   remain   semi - active  /  mostly   plot   based   and   i’ll   be   on   when   i   have   muse   but   i’m   so   so   tired.     my   health   is   rubbish   rn   and   iM   struggling   to   tell   u   the    TRUTH.      and   my   mental   health   is   taking   a   massive   nose   dive   and   ive   been   back   at   the     doctors    with   suicidal   thoughts   and   a   reemergence   of   my   eating   disorder   which   is  Not   great   with   my   current   immune   system.     plus   diabetes - 1   and   anorexia   have   never   mixed   well   tbh.     i   hope   u   can   all   be    PATIENT    with   me   as   i   work   all   this   out  !!     i   miss   u   guys   and   feel   free   to   hmu   on   those    OTHER    blogs   or   when   i’m   around   on   here.     ily   guys   sm.

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POSSESSIVE BEHAVIOR (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧*:・ﾟ✧

feel free to change pronouns / descriptors !

• those are chrome plated mugs.
• oh, fuck.
• you’re the only one that can help.
• get the fuck away from me!
• it was either an escaped tiger or freddy kruger.
• i’m looking for someone who’s looking for you.
• get the fuck out of my car.
• i am a fan, by the way.
• nature made me a freak. man made me a weapon. and god made it last too long. 
• holy fuck.
• two days on the road, only one meal, and hardly any sleep. 
• you are dying. you want to die.
• this is what life looks like: people love each other. you should take a moment…
• i always know who you are, i just sometimes don’t recognize you.   
• this has been the most perfect sleep i’ve had in years… and i don’t deserve it, do i? 
• (name), you still have time.
• she’s like you.
• you had a nightmare.
• people hurt me.
• i hurt people.
• i’ve hurt people, too. they were bad people.
• you know you gotta pay for that, right?
• hey, hey, c’mon, where’s your parents?
• not okay!
• what the fuck?
• the lord will provide.
• it happened once and they just turned it into a big fucking lie! 
• bad shit happens to people i care about.
• take your friends and run.
• you don’t have to fight anymore.
• don’t be what they made you.
• no … no, dad. no … no … daddy! no, daddy! dad!
• so this is what it feels like.
• such a nice man.
• i don’t wanna talk about it. i don’t wanna hear it anymore. 
• i have to pee.
• i am fucked up.
• motherfucking auto trucks!
• language, (name).
• geez, seeing you like this, it just breaks my damn heart. 
• showtime, boy!
• hey… hey, hey, what’s goin’ on? huh? 
• you can talk? you can fucking talk?
• i hear you at night; you’re not sleeping.
• there’s no living with the killing. there’s no going back. right or wrong, it’s a brand. a brand that sticks. 
• let’s go. we gotta move.
• i don’t know how you got me here, but… thank you. 
• you read these in your spare time?
• there are no more guns in the valley.
• we got ourselves an x-men fan.
• this is ice cream for bedwetters.
• they make you look younger.
• i wish i could say that you were a good pupil, but the words will choke me.
• what’s all this bullshit’s been for the last 2,000 fucking miles? 
• what? okay, shut up! shut up! shut the fuck up! 
• it’s a fantasy, kid.
• sweetie, you want some dessert?
• don’t hit me!
• no, do your homework.
• dinner’s ready.
• you okay, boss?
• i’m not a box of avocados.
• let’s go to fucking fantasy land.