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WHEN I REFLECT ON MY ACTIONS FROM THIS WEEKEND
my sentiments exactly. Sigh.
3:04 Saturday Afternoon
Very few things lately make me happier than my boyfriend snoring next to me at 3 in the afternoon while I read my blogs and munch on cold pizza before work. He looks absolutely perfect while he sleeps (so much so that I tolerate the snoring). Ah love.
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Dan Savage puts monogamy in different terms and perspective. This is how I feel on all of it, I could never find the words or explination that didn’t make me sound like a run of the mill whore.
Monogamy versus Polyamory is infinitely fascinating. I admire Dan Savage greatly and appreciate his opinion on this particular topic. It is a subject that I feel like I'm constantly rethinking about and relearning.
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"No freedom till we're equal, damn right I'll support it" Goosebumps each and every time I hear this beautiful, thoughtful, and inspiring song. Mad love to this man and his message.
Mr. Magorium and his infinite knowledge.
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I have never identified with any fictional movie character quite like I do with Clementine. I love her impulsiveness, her opinionated nature, her vulnerability, her truth, how genuinely authentic she is, and her imbalance. She yells, she smiles, she reveals, and shes never tries to be anything but herself. Too many days shes narrarating all of my thoughts.
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“There’s a bravery and vulnerability to her level of constant commitment, whether she’s cracking up while auctioning off her best friend’s body or breaking down while accepting a marriage proposal. Watching her in the final scene last night — and how could anyone watch anything but her — I was reminded of the improviser’s code: that when you agree to go onstage without a script (or a net), the one word you must always have on your lips is “yes.” Amy Poehler brings that fearless positivity to everything she does. As demonstrated last night, it’s more than the definition of good comedic acting. It’s just good acting.”
inspired.
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my hero
AMEN.
lacking.
Internet is totally functional yet again and I'll try and keep up for my own sanity and peace of mind. Life is good, the new apartment is better and per usual I feel blessed, a little cynical and a lot inspired.
valleys.
I'm currently walking through a valley. It has been an emotionally draining and thrilling weekend all at once, and I'll update when I feel capable.
Tuesday May 22nd: Yesterday did not necessarily go according to plan. There was more miscommunication, mixed signals and a lot of disappointment. After what feels like years of trying to find someone who fills that strange void when it comes to my relationships, I realize that I may need to keep looking. The person who has held my most recent interest is clearly not on the same level, despite what I may have thought. That's the strange thing about perspective and perceptions, I saw and heard what I wanted to see and not the reality of what was going on.
I have always allowed myself to embrace whatever emotion comes my way and try to understand it's source. So yesterday, I felt a combination of jealousy, anger, sadness and disappointment but I knew that I couldn't dwell. So often I think we try and mask these emotions because we're afraid of what they mean or what they say about us. I don't think anyone can judge another human's suffering. So while I allowed myself to wallow in self pity and disappointment last night, it is now time to pick myself up and keep going through the motions. There were still many rays of light amongst the clouds and for that I am truly grateful. Life is constantly ebbing and flowing with good moments and bad, and it truly is a balance sometimes. While yesterday I may have been cursing karma after a few too many shots and wondering when the universe was going to send some positive energy my way, I need to remember that some of these let downs make me so much more aware of the wonderful aspects of my life.
Highlights of yesterday:
- Gibbard, my most dearest lion cat, was shaved for the first time and it was absolutely hilarious. He looks like a king and knows it, while proudly strutting around.
- My sister, her boyfriend and I celebrated my mamma's birthday complete with pizza, gifts, and lots of reality television. Mamma was happy and glowing all day so that made my heart feel a bit fuller.
- Despite the boy, I had a fabulous time with my wonderful co-workers and our first en devour together downtown. I feel blessed to work with such wonderful people and I feel like we are really care about each other.
- Good music. Always.
And finally, the walk home and deep, supportive conversations with Kayla and Taylor. Taylor has known me since 3rd grade and Kayla since 6th, so we share an immense history completely with millions of crazy memories. They have seen me at my worst and at my best and love me regardless. They listened to me, took in my emotions and helped me feel so much better about the situation at hand. I don't know what I would've done without them there and I am so grateful to have such compassionate ladies in my life.
Monday May 21st: Seeing this beautiful, amazing, hilarious and supportive boy, Mr. TJ O’Connor. I cannot imagine my life without our crazy adventures, endless conversations, and non-stop laughter. He is truly an inspiration best friend and I feel so blessed to have him in my life. Nikki’s birthday last night was phenomenal :) Keep the adventures coming, love!
It is now summer..
I will be reflecting on my favorite thing (or things because life is just that fantastic sometimes) of every summer day to keep myself positive and optimistic.
Weekly Recap: Monday- TJ surprise visiting me from the cities and spending the night taking shots, dancing, and catching up with Nikki, Natalie, Petey, and his friend Gabe. Another key highlight was meeting a few more of Luke's friends and spending the night bonding with him. Tuesday- Spending the morning sipping mimosas at Fayzes with TJ, Luke and Gabe leading up to an afternoon on Natalies fabulous porch followed by laying on a beautiful sandbar with friends I never get to see enough like Natalie, Petey, TJ and his fabulous friend Gabe. Wednesday- Having a Trashy-Classy night with my soul mate, Kenny, and catching up with him just like every other day of last summer. His positive and enthusiastic energy is so fantastic. And the fact that he played Natalie Cole on repeat at the bar :) Another highlight was having stimulating conversations with my new friend, Cole, well into the morning.
Thursday- Kayla and I spending our night catching up with another bestie, Amy, and her fantastic boyfriend Brian who I couldn't adore more. Teaching her what 'YOLO' and 'CRAY' meant was just hilarious. It is always a good time with them.
Friday- Getting off of work a little early and spending the night downtown with Mitch, Patty, Benjamin, Kayla, Russell and Hocks. Running into my old friends Austin, Grace, David, Andy and Sam just made it so much more fantastic.
Today- So far it is most definitely having a feast with Kayla and Patty while watching "Empire Records" but I'm sure the best is still yet to come :)
Another goal is to include photo documentation.. I always get lazy when it comes to this so I'll try my best to keep up. Happy Summer!
Old Xanga Post
"in my dream world i will choose a major that i love. and it will come easy. and i will have the strength and the intelligence and the oppurtunities to succeed. i will meet some nerdy boy who completes me, doesnt judge me and who fills my world up completely. we will have fun and host parties and fall head over heels"
- 2008/2009.
Talk about perspective and HOLY SHIT.