Letter to Liesl and Mathilde, after elections
If it wasn’t clear before, in the past two weeks, the world here seems to be upturned. Half of America is comforted at the election of the man who will next be president, and the other half is experiencing an emotion somewhere between dejection and absolute fear. We know people on both sides of that equation, and I — who now approach all elections skeptically, despite having been recently accused of still possessing youth’s idealism — remember that this was also the case eight years ago. We’re a divided lot, it seems, and for these and other reasons I have turned to the book of Ecclesiastes for understanding:
Life’s a corkscrew that can’t be straightened,
A minus that won’t add up.
Whatever was, is.
Whatever will be, is.
That’s how it always is with God.
There is either despondency or contentment in those verses depending on how you read them; and admittedly, in my re-reading of this book, I haven’t gotten to the part about hope yet — but I know that it’s there.
In the past days, we’ve heard our current president say that he is heartened after meeting with the president-elect, and we’ve had Oprah express hope about what comes next, only to be trolled for it on social media. For you, Liesl, I see the safety pin you’ve placed on your shirt, which you wear to school now and which I made sure to emphasize cannot be worn in protest of the people’s election but in solidarity of otherness and kindness and that which God has already named as good; and I see you go buy winter gear to donate to the Dakota pipeline protesters — and I try to cajole you out of mere humanism. It is good to do good, but we cannot depend that alone.
As you girls grow older, I see that instead of viewing yourselves as created beings that you may fall into thinking that you’ve created and fashioned yourselves. This is in part through the education you’re receiving in school and in part as a result of just living in this world. The words aspirational and post-truth have come into fashion as of late, as have an emphasis on other words like safe space, and striving and curate. I know what my problem with post-truth is (by definition — and in the words of poets — “Truth is as old as God — his twin identity,” truth is eternal, and nothing precedes or follows it). It’s harder to get at the reasons these other words and phrases rub me the wrong way. I think, in general, that no one wants to admit any sense of being false or finite; and not many want to see that there is more log-in-eye worth examining in what we are doing and in who we are than in the threat or offense of someone next door or miles away. I can’t imagine these are new tendencies in us humans; perhaps we just have a new way of packaging who we are or how we live in avoidance of that.
With regard to the election that just transpired, I talk to many people (the ones who are upset about the outcome of this election), and everyone agrees that we need to draw in a bit closer and love family and neighbors. That is not the response of religious people, necessarily; it’s the response of many who are disheartened or afraid. It also is not fail-safe, the idea that we come in closer to our own kind. An author I admire pointed out that it’s not our differences that divide us; it’s not multiculturalism or too-varied political or religious beliefs, which half of Europe and America seem to be railing against. She gave Northern Ireland as an example, where her husband is from, and said: “[It] is a completely racially homogeneous place, and was for hundreds of years, and they still managed to find the difference between which way you faced an altar, and then kill each other for at least 600 of those years.”
Meanwhile, family members on different political sides live in avoidance, and since an article about this appeared in the New York Times the other day, it must be a phenomenon. I say that only in half jest but, truthfully, Thanksgiving is just around the corner, and sharing a table with others who may think about the world differently than we do is inevitable. We must learn to love the differences and to see how we are so much like what we disdain in others. We must also just learn to love and to hold fast to truth.
Not much happens in my soul these days with regard to reflection or meditation. When I’m not shuttling you girls about or otherwise helping you, I work downtown, and one of the most marked thing about my days there is seeing the homeless people — out on Seventh Street by the shelter and service organizations, in the big city parking lot and under bridges camped in clusters, by the bank drive-through, which is empty as a ghost town because people don’t drive through banks anymore, on Congress Avenue, and so many places else — and what I notice, which I told you all the other night at dinner, is that homeless people and crazy people seem to have a tendency toward strife and argument and yelling and cursing at one another. I see it everywhere. It doesn’t matter if it’s early in the morning before the sun has come up or at noon or midday or later — the people I see (whom I deem to be crazy, but who a friend more kindly described as stressed and without margin) fight and yell at each other unceasingly.
That conversation met everyone like a brick the other night, but I only brought it up because I feel I am somehow like them; or I feel that we as a family are somehow like them in contention and quarreling — not always, but enough of the time to merit contemplation. Love seems to be a gift, and it is a fruit of something, but it’s not a fruit of our own making; and it’s not manufacturable. That’s why I tell you girls that we can’t depend on our good works. We’ll never do enough of them to dig our souls out of the muck that we so often live in.
This whole past autumn we’ve lived with anticipation of your sweet father losing his job from a layoff. It’s been a season of uncertainty with us, and yet provision came through — good provision — and now the uncertainty is gone. Or is it, I wonder? There is always the question of what comes next and where to go from here.
King Solomon, be he the writer of Ecclesiastes, concludes that the wise and the foolish all have the same fate, but it is perhaps better to be wise. Parenting you with wisdom and for wisdom is such a daunting thing when I feel a lack of it myself. But it’s what I want for you, and what I want — for you both — is to be able to take an event like this recent election and to hold it lightly; to hold others lightly, seeing that what is seen is not all there is. When you, Liesl, go to the Goodwill to buy supplies for the Dakota pipeline protesters, I want you to go with a heart that has compassion for the protesters and the workers of the pipeline both. When you, Mathilde, go out into the world with the very deep caution and self-doubt you seem to possess, I want you to know that you have a foundation to stand on that is deep and strong and exists outside of and in spite of how you see yourself as you stand next to others. The world’s problems are more than I know, and we the people of the world bear the image of a good God just as we act contrary to it. Republicans do that; Democrats do; independents, environmentalists, Christians, atheists, agnostics, Muslims, the elderly, the young, the homeless, the wealthy, presidents, soon-to-be presidents, religious leaders, each and every one of us. The rain falls on each of us, and common grace abounds.
After the election, I think half the country fell to thinking that the end of the world was coming, and the other fell to thinking that heaven had been re-established on earth; in terms of the latter, we still live a kingdom-life in this fallen world. In terms of the former, it’s not the end. And in the words of our current president, “I don’t believe in apocalyptic—until the apocalypse comes.”
Ecclesiastes suits me now in how it shows that all is futile until it’s not. The world now (or still is?) bent toward tribalism, toward an us and them; heed the words of Solomon and seek out more than just that:
By yourself you’re unprotected,
With a friend you can face the worst.
Can you round up a third?
A three-stranded rope isn’t easily snapped.