An Aquarius held my cheeks softly and said, “I know you’re trying to save me. Listen, you can’t save me. All that I ask is for someone to walk beside me when I’m at my lows. Don’t be a hero. Sometimes, you just have to let people deal with it on their own.” She softly leaned up to kiss me and, I held her tightly and she buried her head on my chest, then she said, “I see you. I know you’re here and that’s all that matters to me..”
An Aries pushed me away when I tried to hold her, she shook her head no and frowned. One night, she broke a plate and she hurriedly ran to the corner and covered her face. I walked up to her and she yelled, “No! Please…” and then it hit me. I kneeled beside her and whispered to her. She slowly looked at me with tears in her eyes, “I’m so sorry, please, don’t hurt me. I.. I didn’t mean to..” and all I could ever do was wait for her to subside. I fucking hate whoever did this to her.
A Cancer and I were laying on the couch and she slowly crawled to me and kissed my cheek. Suddenly she broke down and cried onto my neck. After she finished she looked at me and apologized. “I’m so sorry, it’s just that I have been cheated on so many times, and I just thought of the most horrible thing, and I know you wouldn’t but the fear of it. Something bad always happens and I’m so sorry, do you still love me?” I pulled her into a hug and held her tightly.
A Capricorn was found unconscious in her apartment two days ago. She’s okay. I stepped into her hospital room today, and there she was looking outside her window, and she looked back at me. Her face lit up with the sight of flowers I got her. She reached for them, then realized the scars on her wrists are fresh and tucked them back under her sheets. I sat beside her and frowned. She looked at me and said, “I was tired. I’m sorry. I was too tired..” and I shook my head and just sat there in silence with her.
A Gemini laughed softly and looked at me before throwing her cigarette down the ground. “Listen to me,” she said softly “You can’t love me and just expect to have all my mental illness disappear. You have to deal with me.. You either stay, or go. The choice is up to you.” I told her I’ll stay, and she turned and smiled a little and told me she was my problem now.
A Leo called out to the bartender to get her a couple more drinks. She looked back at me with a shot glass in hand. “I drink. I drink enough to make me feel alive. It’s my escape from all the bullshit. My family, my fake friends, even you. Sometimes you. You annoy me.” she gave my face a small playful slap and tried to get another drink. It’s going to be a long night.
A Libra told me how she doesn’t really like the fact of being too clingy, but she admits that she gets clingy with me. She told me she can’t fathom not having me for days, and sometimes she wants her space, but she’ll come back to me when she’s charged up. I told her I understood and I needed some time too. She told me not to stay away too long, or she might think I’m leaving her and it gives her a crazy anxiety attack.
A Pisces leaned against me and whispered, “Tell me what you love most about me..” I looked at her, acting surprised. She looked back and told me, “Tell. Me. What. You. Love. About. Me.” and I laughed and I pulled up her sleeve and pointed at her scars and she looked at me, her gaze softened. I pointed out that she is beautiful and she showed me her true self with me and what matters is that she’s happy with me. She laughed and kissed me and told me thank you. She couldn’t stop kissing me after that.
A Sagittarius was at a corner of her room when I found her. She saw me and she opened her arms to me and she wanted me to hold her. She was talking too fast and I had to soothe her, and keep her from crying. She slowly became stabled and said, “I’m sorry that you saw me at my lows. I’m really horrible, and I couldn’t stop thinking. My anxiety is getting bad and I just had a breakdown. Oh, god, please just hold me. Okay? Please..”
A Scorpio told me she was tired of being cheated on, and she looked at me with sad eyes. I told her I would never do such a thing. She shrugged and told me that she doubt that. “Normally it’s either they tell me they’ll leave me, or cheat on me. Either way, I’m tired. Don’t take me for a fool, I am who I am because of my past. Don’t make promises you can’t keep. Don’t get my hopes up. I know you’ll leave eventually.” and hearing her say that is a hardest thing.
A Taurus gave me a sheet of paper and pointed out each and every thing wrong with her. She crossed her arms, and playfully pouted. She told me to criticize her with every flaw she had and she wanted the honest truth. I told her the truth and she frowned and she brushed everything I told her. “You’re lying. You’re being too soft with me and I need you to be real with me. You can’t even do the most simple thing I asked of you..”
A Virgo placed my hands on her thighs and watched me as I moved my hands up and down her thighs, and she watched me carefully where they lay and whispered, “I know, I have told you I have a fear of comittment. I told you this from the beginning, and I know you’re doing your best. I know you, but understand that this fear has reached so much of me that I’m a little hesitant.” I watched her eyes and slowly reached to touch her cheeks and she leaned in to my touch. “I know you care about me, but please, be patient with me.. Okay?”