hello yes. i’m working on following people back and trying to be here and eveRYWHERE AND I’M SORRY I HAVE SO MANY MUSES
❛ cryotistics liked for a starter.
‘ are you lost?
not–––not that you necessarily look lost, i know the stereotype that men hate thinking they’re lost and you definitely don’t. look lost, or anything. but you may be becoming lost, so i. you know. figured i’d ask. because you kind of. i mean. just a little! you just look a little lost. ’
❛ he feels like a V I R U S infecting the cells of the human race, yet he finds himselfUNWILLINGto let go… ❜ —— ( x )
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“–in the beginning, i suppose.”
he couldn’t very well claim that he was on his own. an empty apartment, sure, but it was different. tony was in the north side of the city, and though nick floated, his visits were clockwork. still, he smiles. “i’ve got a hard time believing a pretty girl like you is really out on her own.”
‘ it’s not––-––i mean. it’s not that i’m alone, really. i’ve got work and. i’m not lonely. but it’s different, i think. ’
felicity never claimed to make any SENSE, not unless it came to codes and computers. sometimes words sat heavy on her tongue, like she didn’t know what to do with them.
but really. just an IT girl, apartment for one, kind of becoming friends with her boss because he asks her for weird favors. felicity’s pretty on her own.
‘ it’s not BAD, or anything. i’m exactly where i want to be. ’
pause.
‘ also thanks for the. compliment? if it. i think it was. were you? if not, you can. we can disregard this. how about we disregard this all together. ’
So I am honestly not going to be mushy and stuff because that’s dumb and not worth it but you are all really super cool wow. I really enjoy writing with all you people and seeing you cool people on my dash all the time. I know I haven’t been super active all the time, and I drop threads left and right and am crap at replying to ask memes but really wow so cool people.
And I even changed blogs during this year ( used to be here! ). It’s been a crazy year, especially with school and a lot of schoolwork BUT playing bucky has really improved my writing and people skills and also stress-release. Okay I could probably say more things but I’m going to just move on.
First off! Special shoutout to xjaybird aka freya aka the only person i really talk to/do anything with from the start of my playing bucky and ALSO bucky is like so in love with jane it’s been a crazy year ur so cool wow.
And cool people I think are super cool and I either do/want to write with uniiiverses/ teleterrified / anomalcus ( ur so cool wow hella shoutout @ you ) hardknocked ( annie is so cool ) bosslly ( tasha i haven’t talked to u in ages i dont know what blog ur on now sorry ) notaflouncygirl / ferrodonna ( KIT also fem!tony amazing we’ve never done anything on toni so we should ) fightsback ( ur hella cool ) xvdova ( i know ur not on nat anymore but ur still cool ) maquisarde ( jackie and bucky are hella cool wow so are you ) xaedificare ( we did a couple things on my old blog ur still cool ) xtherbarnes ( i remember when u made that blog becca is cool ) agentxthirteenx ( we’ve done a couple of things i think )
People who may or may not be in mutual follows with me but I love seeing on my dash despite that. And who I really want to write with and be friends with.
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pondelistic replied to your post:"Seems harmless enough. Hard to see what all the...
OH GOD
she’s just “LISTEN AMY I’M NOT SAYING IT’S ALIENS BUT”
‘ rough day? ’
normally, felicity likes to bite her tongue on making comments. or well, she tries. gets that some people don’t want to talk about it, talk about ANYTHING to strangers, really. especially because they’re sitting alone, probably for a reason.
but she offers a smile, sheepish and small, raises her paper coffee cup in understanding.
"Seems harmless enough. Hard to see what all the fuss is about."
‘ they rip your EYEBROWS out, with thread. that sounds like, literally, the scariest thing i have ever heard. how do they manage? it’s a thin piece of string. i don’t know. but it definitely does not sound harmless. it sounds like some sort of torture training. ’
Captain America: The First Avenger (2011 film) : Sentence Starters
"Help me."
‘ see, i very much like helping people, right, and i would be MORE than willing to help you, but i? i don’t know what, exactly, you’re asking me to do here. can you explain it a little better? maybe there’s, maybe there’s instructions or something you could––––just. okay. ’
breathes.
‘ what do i have to do? ’
"Love is putting someone elses needs before yours."
‘ but–––but don’t you have to love YOURSELF, too? where does the line get drawn? like, when do you. when do you know to love yourself enough to–––to put YOUR needs first? because that’s important too, isn’t it? knowing that you deserve––––that you deserve something good, something that…i don’t know. just. where’s the line, then. when you decide that you have to start––––i don’t know, just. why are we talking about this, again? was this me? i definitely brought this up. point is, i love you. this team. and i’ll put you guys first. but just remember, thea––––seriously, you. you deserve putting your needs first, too. ’
「 ☽ 」 the listless skim of felicity’s touch puts his eyes to a close; heart finding a wind of it’s own & ghosting a beat that’s just enough to be something b i t t e r s w e e t.
❛ i can handle it. ❜
’ if it’s all for you, ’ he wants to say, but falls short with another breath, shutter struck gaze opening once more.
❛ my abuelita used to do much worse. ❜
‘ ––––––––––sorry! ’
hands fall from his face, nervous like the flutter of a butterfly’s wings. on some sort of a whim, because she thinks it’s LESS AWKWARD than just, you know, moving away, she fixes his collar, smile creaking on her lips like the floorboards you try to avoid in the middle of the night.
finally, felicity drops them all together. they linger at her side, no place to go. bunches her fingers into her shirt instead.
‘ yeah? i bet. you had really cute cheeks. TOTALLY pinch worthy. i bet old people loved you. it’s like when i had my glasses as a kid, and my mom’s friends would always, like––––tap the frame. i felt like a fish, scott. i. ’
takes a step back, because she was still close enough that their feet touched.
‘ i’ll tell my mom to lay off though, seriously. it’d just be a miracle if she listened to me.’
"When you go home everything looks different."
{ ‘ meme i’m too lazy to look for.
❝ … and it feels so different it isn’t home anymore. ❞ the first time Amy walked into her old house in Leadworth after everything she felt as if walking back into a prison right after being freed from it. As if running away had only been the right choice if she never went back there. As if her every old problem had come running to greet her. Embraces so tight around her ribs it crashed her breath away. Anxiety wasn’t always an easy thing to fight and Amelia never felt as if she had trully won that battle, for the enemy was always around. WATCHING. Waiting for her fall.
❝ I know how that is. ❞ said she, gently. Hands brushing a stray lock of hair away from her features, the eyes locked onto the other as she tried to sound as comforting as she could.
❝ but that isn’t because home left you behind, ❞ carried on, her voice soft as velvet as she spoke.
❝ but because you finally grew enough to make yourself a new one. ❞
strikes a pose
there’s a version of forgiveness which ends with the wolves as metaphors at your feet. a retelling in which you know what it’s like to be fed. to be worshipped. it isn’t this version. here, the wolves howl and you hear your voice. the wolves howl and you
you can taste the blood on your teeth, the smell of iron on your skin. are you yourself, the wolves, or the moon? come here. you can’t be all three.