- Life update -

Hey everyone!! Hope you’re all well. long time no see!  With this virus, I stumbled across Tumblr again and realized it had been abandoned a year or so back. Flicking through my page, I realized how much of ‘me’ exists here and how many friends I had... I hope you’re all still here!  So I thought, now that I am attempting to ‘work from home’ I would sit down and share a few massive changes which have occurred in my life!

The biggest thing to have happened is that I am now married!! I am just so overwhelmed by love and happiness. There is so much I could write about my incredible husband but I won’t bore you all too much haha. As my husband is from England, I have now moved down south (to much dismay of my nationalist brother!) Scotland will always be home but in the meantime, I love England! 

I have left work, work was really starting to take a toll on me mentally and physically. The hours I was putting in were just not feasible and I’m so glad I prioritized my health and left. It was a very difficult decision for me as I’m not a quitter and hate feeling like one but I knew it had to be done and I feel so much happier now. 

In the meantime while I am looking for roles, I have started working on my blog, I’m trying to break into the world of copywriting so the blog is a good way of keeping my skills up to date. 

A lot has changed in my life and I’ve had to make many adjustments, mentally and physically. Being the first to get married, I feel I've outgrown a lot of my friends and colleagues. I still have so much love for all my friends back home, even though I won’t see them that often. 

On to bigger things, the virus has really taken control of our lives. it’s been mentally very draining and I feel as though it’s the main topic of conversation which doesn’t really help. There is so much happening in the world, these are indeed very uncertain times. The virus has affected my personal life a lot and it’s coming to terms with these uncontrollable changes which worry me.

Overall, life is so good. I can’t count all my blessings and I feel so happy and content with my life. I used to imagine what real happiness would be like and although I still have so much to learn and go through, it’s mad thinking I’ve reached it, Alhamdulillah. Now that I’m married, I would love to write a post on being prepared, marriage in Islam, knowing ‘the one’, and all sorts however I’m not sure when that will be lol or if I’ll even do it but its a thought! 

Anyway, I hope you have all been well. I hope you are all staying safe and washing your hands and minimizing outdoor activity.  

- Rabia 

New thoughts, New home, New me 💭

Hiii, I hope you’ve not forgotten about me! It’s taken me some serious effort to log on to Tumblr and revisit this blog.

It’s been a long time since I’ve been able to come and write something. I kept putting it off but I finally got my shit together and decided to write something meaningful. To be honest, I’m a completely different person since I was properly active on here. My life has drastically changed in the last six months which resulted in the temporary abandonment of my blog. I’ve always been honest on my blog and for the longest time, this was the only place I was able to share my thoughts freely so it’s definitely been interesting being inactive. I know nobody cares about these posts but seeing as this was the place I used to write down my thoughts, I thought I would try and compose a few sentences.

I’m not going to sugarcoat it but my inactivity was partly due to relationships causing a drastic change in my music taste. The latter being the most significant. I’ve always been a staunch listener of ‘rock’ music and never imagined myself distancing from it. With that, this place used to be the place where I would catch up on my music, talk to my mutuals, and share ideas about music. However, around 6 months ago, I got involved with someone who was a heavy rap/hip-hop listener and exposed me to it and since then I never looked back.

I think it’s interesting how we cling on to certain things because we feel protection, comfort, or safety within them. For me, my music taste was the only real thing I was able to identify myself with. Appearance-wise, I never dressed ‘emo’ enough or ‘Muslim’ enough so my music taste was the one thing I held onto. I think it came from a need to be ‘unique’ and ‘different’ which now sounds so stupid and immature but what can I say? I think somewhere along the way, I just gave up carrying a ‘false’ pretense and that goes for on here as well. I think it’s important to realise that nobody is 2D and we all have different ‘layers’ and right now I’m okay listening to UK grime but also reading Fitzgerald. Though I’ll admit, I’m lowkey slacking with the reading, my aim this year is to read all the Fitzgerald books I have on my bookshelf hahaha. 

Now for the biggest news, I have gotten a graduate job down south so I am actually relocating to England in the coming weeks. It’s been a very interesting journey and I’m so excited about my new company and the people I’ll be moving closer to. It was a much-needed relocation. I have always loved England and am looking forward to my new independent adult life.

Apart from that. I don’t really have much to say... Life is beautiful. God truly works in mysterious ways. It hasn’t been an easy journey but I am so happy right now... Probably the happiest I have ever been in my life. I’m not sure how often I’ll be on here but I really hope everyone has been well and is enjoying their summer :)

Take care - Rabia