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girl on the mind
I’m pretty sure I’m at my breaking point...
These past few months have been so hard. I’ve been taking blow after blow to my mental and physical states and honestly I don’t know what to do anymore.
I was really trying to make this work. I was trying to make this job my career and I don’t think I can. I’m sure I’ve plateaued. I don’t have any more room for growth and I know my manger doesn’t believe in me. I hate to admit it but it was my last remaining bit of hope. I think if I could’ve heard her say something along the lines of “hey, you’re not ready to be a manager yet, but I believe in you and will help you get there” then I would’ve been comfortable. I would’ve been happy and willing to fight. But I’ve only gotten compared to others and reminded of my own short comings. Even when I am complemented it feels like a lie or unenthusiastic. But when others are complemented around me my bosses voice sounds different and sencere... and I know it’s not in my head...
But I’m starting to see that I’m really just terrible at my job. I’m so bad at it and no matter how many times I tweak and contort my personality and habits, I fall short. It’s not enough, and yet again I’m not good enough at something in my life. I’m working so many hours and trying so hard and I’m pretty much ready to drop out of school completely because work has completely consumed my time. Why am I even doing all of this. I’m starting to feel so empty.... I really want to die. And I think about it so much now. It’s just too much. I don’t feel like I can do anything.
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Do I love you or am I just insane? Maybe a bit of both...
I want to talk to you for hours on end, and maybe at some point while we’re both spouting words at each other that we’ll finally understand one another.
Maybe you already understand me though... and maybe that’s why you don’t like me
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everlastingjesus
“You made flowers grow in my lungs and although they are beautiful, I can’t breathe.”
— Unknown (via thoughtkick)
If only
Someone could make me feel the way you make me feel...
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Source: twitter.com
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What are you eating here???
A little illustration for https://www.instagram.com/theycallmemysh/
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I’ll probably start venting here again. I think it’s the only place where my friends don’t see and well... no one replies so I know for sure that no one cares about how I feel.
I’ll just isolate myself again. It’s fine
Welp
I opened up and it was laughable. I feel like everything I do for them is a joke. There was a time where they liked me... I miss that
I think I’ll never find love
That scares me. The last person I was genuinely in love with.. well.. that didn’t work out..
I doubt I’ll find someone who will want me.
How do I become ok with this?
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How to put “wrote fan-fiction” on your résumé:
Leveraged an inventory of established fictional character and setting elements to generate a disruptive custom-curated narrative entertainment asset.
I worked in HR, handling applications and interviews, and if someone turned in that string of techno babble nonsense, I would have rejected them out of hand.
A resume doesn’t need to sound fancy or overly technical, it needs to tell us why we should hire you.
“Independent novelist/writer” is more than sufficient here. If you want to express the skills that fan fiction taught you, something like, “creative writing, editing, and publication,” will get you a lot further than… Whatever that just was.
A resume should be tailored to the position, if you can afford the time and energy for that. But if not, then just think about what writing got fandom taught you. How to respond to criticism, how to present a professional pubic face, how to correct punished mistakes, creative thinking, project planning, persuasion via emotional leverage, html formatting, office suite fluency.
There are a lot of actual, marketable skills that go into fan fiction.
How to put “I was in a zine” on your resume
Writer:
- Published short fiction stories for anthology collection
- Able to write short fiction within a designated word count for layout purposes (900-1500 words, 1500-2000, 3000-5000)
- Wrote short articles for independent publication
- Assisted with editing short stories for publication
- Able to reduce or expand written content based on layout needs
- Able to check for basic spelling, grammar and syntax
- Familiar with Microsoft Office and Google docs
Artist:
- Produced full-colour digital illustration for independent magazine
- Able to produce digital illustrations optimized for both online and print display
- Produced full-colour 2-page spread for art anthology
- Published 4-page short comic in anthology collection for charity
- Able to transfer traditional art to digital illustration
- Illustrated the cover (always brag if you’re on the cover) of an independent art publication
- Familiar with professional illustration tools such as Adobe Photoshop, Illustrator, Clip Studio Paint and stylus tablet
Merch artist / graphic designer:
- Designed 2″ clear decorative double-sided keychain charm as bonus sale item
- Designed 5″ x 6″ sheet of graphic stickers included in art anthology
- Able to design bold graphics that are measured for laser cutting production
- Designed layouts for 65-page art and writing magazine, focusing on (art placement, text layout, etc)
- Able to keep layout design simple and in accordance with the project director’s chosen theme
- Created promotional art, icons and banners tailored for social media sites like Twitter, Tumblr, Facebook, etc
- Familiar with professional layout and design software such as Adobe Illustrator and InDesign
Running a zine
- Produced an independent art and writing collection for sale / for charity
- Managed (10, 20, 30) independent artists and writers out of over 500 applicants to create a short-run independent magazine
- Worked in online sales and social media promotion selling an independent comics anthology
- If it’s really spectacular you can brag about specific numbers
- Our book raised over $4,000 for charity in under six months of production
- We sold over 750 copies in two weeks of online sales
- Produced a digital PDF and printed version of anthology, mailing to recipients all over the world
- Communicated with printers and manufacturers of plastic accessories and paper goods, assembling professional packages of our merchandise for mailing.
- Built a custom digital storefront and navigated professional market and payment systems including Paypal and Tictail / Bigcartel / Wix etc
- Created promotional events to boost sales, including raffles and giveaways over social media
- Organized participants through mass emails and use of social media posts on tumblr and twitter
- Familiar with organizational software such as Microsoft Excel, Google spreadsheets and Trello
Added some more
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Concept: you’ve been married to your wife for 3 years. You wake up in your bed before she does, your nose cold but your body warm. Careful not to wake her, you get out of bed and your toes curl when your feet hit the cold floor. You brew a pot of coffee and take a cup, making sure to leave enough for her. You pull on a big sweater and walk out onto your deck, sitting in a big wood chair to look out over the forest. The leaves are orange and edged with frost. All is quiet as the sun rises over the trees. You hear the door opening behind you and your wife sits down next to you, wrapping the comforter from your bed around both of you shoulders. You sit there like that until the sun is well up and your coffee cups are empty.
extrashenanigans
Oh my god. This is it. I want this so badly.