I feel like I’ve just been kicked in the teeth. I never expect people who haven’t been abused to understand. But, I do hope that they will listen to survivors and at least try to grasp how hard it can be sometimes. It will never cease to amaze me when someone blames a victim for being abused. Oh, you don’t want to be abused, well you should have left at the first sign of a red flag dummy. DUH,…

One of the toughest things when you have an invisible illness is remind yourself to stop when you’re having a good day. When you’re having a good pain day or your depression decided to take a nap, you want to do all of the things you can’t normally do. Today is a perfect example of that for me. I have the day off work because of the holiday. I’m trying really hard to get more organized and get a…

I’ve written a lot about my abusers. A1 and A2 have been the subject of my entries many times. What I haven’t really talked about is the abuse I endured from a seemingly normal relationship. In between A1 and A2 there was a guy that I was completely in love with. We’ll call him J. For the first 3 years of our relationship things went just fine. Normal arguments that were resolved in a healthy…

May 31, 2017, around 9:30pm. I was on my way to see a patient that I used to help out at night. The car two cars a head of me was turning into a Checkers. The car in front of me stopped, and therefore I also stopped. The car behind me did not stop. The driver claimed she didn’t see that I was stopped. Not sure how she missed my red brake lights, but accidents happen and I have no malice against…

Unless you live under a rock, you probably know who Kate Spade is. You probably also know that the iconic fashion designer hanged herself on Tuesday June 5, 2018. She was only 55 years old.

One thing I keep hearing that really bothers me is why would someone who has what she has, hang themselves? According to the note she left her daughter, there was a divorce looming. But is that enough to cause…

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. Not because I’m doing great and have nothing to write about. Because I’ve been distracted by something much more important in my life, my son.

The last 3-4 weeks of preschool my son went from the boy who was always well behaved and helping the teachers, to the boy who was flipping desks and throwing chairs. On more than one occasion he had to move to…

Have you ever looked at someone and thought, wow what did I do right in my life to deserve you? I’m going to be honest, it wasn’t until recently that I had ever had that thought. Sure, I thought I was lucky to have someone in my life. Of course I felt like a won the lottery when my kids were born. And, yes, I appreciate the fact that I have an amazing and supportive family. But, until recently, I…