tragicsunflower

““I miss you” he said, Words I wanted to hear from you for so long I wanted to scream “I miss you too”, my heart wanted to jump out of my chest and wrap its arms around you I wanted to tell you that I never took your toothbrush out of the bathroom and no one took your spot on the left side of my bed I wanted to tell you everything was the way you left it and it can be all yours if you wanted Oh god, how I wish I could have. But I can’t forget the way you left with no hesitation I can’t forget how I saw a flash of a person I didn’t recognize and the person you were afterwards was cruel I can forgive you- we both knew I did before you asked, but I can’t forget.”

““You can’t rely on anyone.” She shrugs and flicks the ash off her burning cigarette. “Even the people you trust most in the world will let you down at some point. Maybe not in a big way to them but your heart will sink to the pit of your stomach and it’ll stay there forever. You’ll never forget that feeling.” She purses her lips and takes a drag, then she looks at me. Her eyes bright with pain as smoke drifts from between of her berry stained lips. “So, save yourself the trouble and have your own back. Because no one is going to come along and save you when things go wrong. You have to stand on your own two feet and save yourself.””

“i smoke away your heartbreak. i write this feeling down on a cigarette and as i listen to one of my dearest songs, i brush you off of my shoulder. the ashes fall onto the ground.”

“you’re choking me with the same hand that you’re caressing me with. your mouth says the most awful things to me yet still tastes sweet when you kiss me. you tell me you love me yet you act like you hate me. and still, i can’t leave you.”