Okay I've been back maybe 3 weeks and it's quickly looking like reminiscing the last 5-6 years of tumblr is this month's meme.
A request for help
I haven't made a post in a very long while. A brief explanation for that is college happened and college is chewing me up and continuing to do so. But I have a reason for this post. That reason is that I'm reaching out for help. I don't know who will respond. I don't know if it'll even make it somewhere that will be helpful. A general summary is I deal with anxiety and no self-confidence and that's beginning to affect my day to day life. I'll explain. I've never quite had a singular passion like most everyone else I know. I was never a talented genius in some area and I'm still not. I just. Floated. Did whatever I wanted for however long I wanted looking for something that would be my "passion." I still haven't found that. And it's become a problem because I'm graduating college at the end of this coming school year. I'm in programming. So there's plenty of topics to choose from. I've tried everything I can get my hands on. I'm still searching. It's gotten to the point that I'm scared of starting projects and my lack of self-confidence prevents me from starting via discouraging thoughts that happen before I even realize they're present. And by the time I get to it. Even minutes after. I'm bored. Uninterested. I know I don't want a job that I hate waking up for. I want to travel freely and explore. I like learning new things and problem solving. But I go through interests like a reader goes through books. And now I'm so scared and paranoid interests don't pop up. I think of something (project ideas or things to learn) and am met with panic and frantic forms of "I can't do that." There's the possibility I'm burnt out because I've been pushing myself to do so much to find something. But it's becoming a problem in that I'm unable to do or even start things without feeling shitty about myself. My friends constantly tell me how incredible and amazing I am and I truly see none of that. They tell me I can do anything with my motivation and will have a bright and successful future. But I have no motivation now. I can do anything. But I don't have anything I want to do. I've cried over this for days now and stressed over this for months. My loved ones are worried. And believe me. I want to get through this. But I don't know how. I'm running out of solutions. I'm going to be talking to family and professors and advisors. But I'm worried that won't do much. I don't know what to do. My days are becoming harder to get through no matter every attempt to stay positive keep motivated etc. Tldr; I'm out of ideas. And still struggle to find what I like. This pressure I've placed upon myself to do so has made it so I can't even continue I'm so scared. And I can't seem to stop. I'd like insight or tips or something.
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Mamath’s BOXFOX GIVEAWAY
Just in time for the holiday season, here’s a Boxfox plush giveaway/promo! The giveaway period ends November 30th, midnight EST (New York time). You can refer to this countdown if you’re bad at time zones.
GRAND PRIZE: 6 BOXFOXES Enough Boxfoxes to build your own pyramid! Keep the whole pyramid to yourself or split it up between your friends! Friendship pyramid.
RUNNER UP PRIZE: 1 BOXFOX TWO (2) runner ups will receive one Boxfox each!
To enter, just reblog this post any time from now until midnight EST on November 30th (it’s a Sunday) to be entered in the random draw.
- ONLY ONE REBLOG COUNTS (though further reblogs appreciated) - Likes don’t count for entries - Giveaway blogs are not valid - Have your Ask Box open (so I can contact you if you win!) - Winners have 72 hours to respond before I pick a replacement winner - You have to be okay with giving me a postal address - I’ll ship to anywhere in the world!
You do not have to be following me to participate. If this goes nuts I may add more prizes. If you don’t know what the heck a Boxfox is, refer to this post. If you want to BUY a Boxfox, go to my store here! Good luck!
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One of the most unique shawls/scarves’ patterns I’ve seen. Sign up is free and easy at Ravelry. You get access to free and pay patterns, ratings of patterns, forum posts, comments and you can see what others have knit with the patterns you are interested in.
Suitable for adventurous beginners, techniques include: simple short rows, picking up stitches, simple increases and decreases.
Bottom Photo Collage: Sea Dragon Shawl by Ravelry User Linnah.
gunmetalskies
That is so fucking cool.
Source: ravelry.com
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Advice for girls: buy skinny jeans in the boy’s section
They’re more comfortable, still form fitting, and best of all: THE POCKETS. THEY HAVE ACTUAL POCKETS.
don’t believe me? look:
these are boys pants, and they look just as good on me as any other skinny jeans I own
See that phone? I’m going to put it in the pocket. Must be so small right??
Ah yes, girl pants length. Probably can’t fit any further than that-
what? what’s this?
Good god. Oh good lord in heaven. This is blasphemous.
Look at how much room is still there. There’s chaos in the streets. Babies are crying. Fashion designers are screaming out of fear of the unknown.
Buy your pants in the boys section, girls. Live in the beautiful world you deserve where you can fit shit in your pocket.
Also buy your flannel in the boys section. They have a working little pocket on the chest and they are not made of whatever material is thinner than PAPER so they will actually keep you warm.
thickthighing
Sweeeeet
americanfitnessstory
If only I could buy bras in the men’s section. I’m sure they would be cheaper and come with little boob pockets.
grizzy118
SPREADING THE WORD BECAUSE I KNOW SOME OF YOU WILL APPRECIATE THE HELL OUT OF THIS
impsandwaistcoats
This is so true. I’m wearing boy pants right now!
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Imagine this magical book that the instant you touched it, it can sense what book you need at the moment and it becomes that book? NO MORE READING SLUMPS.
loonylovesbooks
My jaw literally just dropped in awe. This is the best idea ever.
The Book of Requirement
Please
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Cuddling in the summer
Me: Listen, I love you but this is not sustainable.
#I feel this#more like I sweat this#bf freezes in ac and the moment he wraps himself around me it's like#hello furnace how nice to see you again you're early please stop#and then I disentangle myself bc I'm all sweaty and gross :(#winter however is a little more bearable#but this time I'm cuddled bc I'm a tiny heater to him and I'm like#fuck. it's warm still#so I don't always have reprieve I guess#sigh#oh well
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my dad recently launched an indiegogo campaign for his buddysaurus project!
it started out as an inspirational daily webcomic sort of thing but he’s been working on making his ideas into more products
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Three piece ring sets by DAINTYmeBOUTIQUE on Etsy
I NEED A THOUSAND
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PSA: Save Your Underwear
Alright so listen up girls and boys with bleeding nether regions:
Buy Always Infinity with Flexfoam. Buy nothing else. Buy Always Infinite with Flexfoam.
This sexy beast. There’s a bunch of versions. But so long as it says Infinity and Flexfoam, fucking GET IT.
So I’ve always been a fan of Always pads. Can’t stand tampons because of all the horror stories and in general, they’re uncomfortable. Always just seems to be the brand that’s always there so we always got it.
Every since Always released their Infinity brand, we’ve literally hated everything else. Even the regular versions of Always. Infinity is the way to go. It is the ONLY way to go.
Infinity is like the only way we can keep our damn bedsheets and clothes bloodless. The first night I got my period I woke up with my boxers just soaked. Completely soaked. Blood. Everywhere.
So I just pop into the bathroom and thus far we’ve only got regular Always pads. Put one on. It’s about as miserable as you’d expect. The pad shifts as you sit and move and when you change pads you’re probably changing underwear too because of the blood just seeping out the sides and getting everywhere.
But then we have Always Infinity. With the Flexfoam. You know that bullshit on the side of the box brands spew where they’re like THIS SUPER INGENIOUS INVENTION WITH A FANCY NAME IS GOING TO GIVE YOU PRISTINE CLEANLINESS AND ULTIMATE PROTECTION AND THATS WHY WE USE FLEXFOAM.
They’re not fucking kidding guys. This isn’t a fucking game. These pads are relentless. No blood gets by. You’d probably have to unhygenically use one pad 24 hours+ before the blood will actually leave the pad and get anywhere.
In addition to that? It’s invisible.
Okay look, guys. I’m trans. I’m a transman. I’m a fucking dude. I don’t suffer from dysphoria but nothing annoys and irritates me more than knowing I am wearing a fucking diaper because I can feel it everytime I move and stand and sit down.
Not these bitches. No fucking way. They’re thin, they’re super big and they’re completely inmovable. I don’t have to keep grabbing at my crotch or my ass to readjust the pad lest blood be splashing everywhere. It stays in one fucking place and it doesn’t leave until you rip it out yourself.
THIS SHIT IS SO NICE. GO GET YOURSELF SOME. PLEASE SAVE YOURSELVES. SAVE YOUR UNDERWEAR. SAVE YOUR QUILTS. SAVE YOUR BED. HERE’S SOME COUPONS.
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I can say the same. These things are the shit and its beautiful. Whoever figured it out how to make them I’d very much like to thank, and I’m pretty sure my underwear would too.
wizerdmegic
A long time ago I read that Always pads make ur hingy itch but this person seems to really like them so I guess that problem was fixed. The thing i read was at least a year ago, probably more.
blueteapot
HOLY SHIT YOU GUYS when I was in Toronto (one night in a nice hotel downtown and of course I got my fucking period) and the mini mart had these on sale so I took the risk and THESE ARE INCREDIBLE
THIN! No leaks! No blood down the ass crack! FLEX FOAM FOR LIFE!!
Always Infinity and Always Radiant are the same exact product. Both have the flex foam but Radiant just has a fragrance to it + more colorful packaging. When one is on sale, the other one generally isn’t so buy the one on sale! Also, once you finish, the boxes can have coupons on the inside so use those on your next purchase!
You had me at no blood down the ass crack.
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If you apply in the morning, you sweat too much and the damage is done by the time what’s left of it starts working. But at night you have just the right amount of ‘baseline sweating’ to suck in the active ingredients and make a ‘plug.’
Think about it- have you ever needed a deodorant refresher at night, and then you shower the next morning and feel the residue? It doesn’t seem to wash all the way off - but even if it did, it’s ALREADY IN THE DUCTS. You technically don’t have to reapply.
And it’s been on the label the whole time.
I just learned all of this. I don’t use this term often, but MIND. BLOWN.
Source: didyouknowblog.com
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being mentally ill is no fun
myrahanson
getting notes is nice but it’s kinda upsetting that so many people relate to this comic
kin-record
this is like a visual representation of that whole “low key wanna die” thing
I really appreciate this, cause most people assume that if you’re smiling and laughing, you must be fine, right?
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IM LAUGHING SO HARD I DIDNT THINK SEXUAL DESIRE WAS A REAL THING LIKE I ALWAYS SAW PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT HOW THEY WANTED SEX BUT I THOUGHT THEY WERE JOKING OR EXAGGERATING OR SOMETHING THATS WHY IT WAS SO HARD FOR ME TO REALIZE I WAS ACE BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WENT WITHOUT SAYING SEX ISNT THAT IMPORTANT IM 19 YEARS OLD I CANT STOP LAUGHING LITERALLY 99% OF THE POPULATION EXPERIENCES SEXUAL DESIRE AND I THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE
This is pretty much the definition of being an ace person, tbh, and I’m so glad.
faun-songs
this is literally the #that sounds fake but okay meme im dying
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I’ve got a friend and they mean a lot to me.
For anyone that has and is fighting depression and that feels alone. Remember: You have everyone that has fought and is fighting depression on your side, even if you don’t hear them.
I normally don’t reblog stuff like this not that I don’t appreciate it, it’s just not something I do but this is just for someone specific and I hope they see it
myxpsychoticxmind
this is for you, you know who you are, you are everything to me and more without you I don’t know what I’d do, I probably wouldn’t be here i hope you see and understand this
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mom: i want grandchildren
me: i’ll give u some grandcats
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What the signs don't tell you (sun or moon)
Aries: they're afraid the people they love will get sick of them. Aries people will try to make themselves exactly what the world is looking for and get disappointed in themselves when they can't add up to societies standards. They will tell themselves that is doesn't matter, but love is a huge chunk of who they are and what they need.
Taurus: all they want is to be accepted. taurus people will do whatever they need to get noticed or get the attention desired, no matter what this includes. taurus people would often rather be viewed as perfect, even if that puts their own happiness at line.
Gemini: they are lonely. Geminis are often viewed as social butterflies and yet they feel completely isolated from everyone and everything. Often times they just want to be seen for who they are and not what they have to pretend to be.
Cancer: they don't always mean well. Cancer people are often known as being able to forgive and forget easily, but that does not mean they do. cancer people can hold onto something for years, yet act as if it's forgotten to avoid drama or trouble.
Leo: they are afraid. Leos are afraid of themselves and the world around them. They want to be carefree and so they create the illusion that they are. And yet they always seem to hesitate, even if it's just for a fraction of a second, when you ask them a question about themselves. They are just a lost as you.
Virgo: they want to be bolder. many virgo people act extremely innocent and childish, but crave to have more of a wild side. virgo people often find satisfaction in bringing on an appearance different from how they feel they are. they tend to adventure into a wild side to experience things.
Libra: they need to save themselves. Libras are comfortable with accepting help but not in this department. They feel that they must be the ones to make themselves happy in the end. They just want to find their own strength. To them, love is important but not nearly as important as being independent and stable.
Scorpio: they are never satisfied with the present day. scorpio people will always want to go back or to go forward. many scorpio people will take this out by acting as an age other than their own, by either dressing older and doing things uncommon for someone their age or trying to bring everything into nostalgia, mimicking their former self.
Sagittarius: they are lost. Sagittarians often feel alone and confused. Every direction is a good direction to them and so they always stay in one place debating on where to go and what to do. They wish they could lead a thousand lives in a day and quietly punish themselves because they know they cannot.
Capricorn: they are insecure. Capricorns are always seen as the hardworking, heartless people of the zodiac. Most of the time they go along with this stereotype even though it makes them feel like half a person. They want to experience things they believe are out of their reach. They need someone to show them the way.
Aquarius: they are infatuated with worlds they can never belong to. Aquarians tend to travel all over the universe in their minds. Because of this, they often lose their sense of self and end up feeling like they don't belong anywhere. They need a place to feel safe, but not bored. They need the whole world but they know they'll never have it. That's their biggest challenge in life: finding a way to cope with the small amount of sky they are given.
Pisces: they will never be satisfied with who they are. they will always feel as if there is something wrong and they are experts at pointing out their own flaws. a time a pisces does not want to change something about themselves is an extremely rare time.
When you have a good day only for it to hit the ground like a house burning down…
#LISTEN TO ME#YOURE TOO HARD ON YOURSELF#invisible posts#tbd#curls up#I wasn't even involved and I reacted and now I feel like shit#woo#it's like all that work toward my self worth was just for kicks and giggles#like wow gee#I think I just found my damn trigger#and here I thought I was alright cuz I didn't have any#nope#it's people I care about yelling at someone else#it's people I care about bringing up shit that has been laid to fucking rest#it's being a disappointment#bc I feel like I'm never fucking good enough#it makes me curl up and blare music through my headphones to drown everything out#god I am /WEAK/ if I'm reacting to this...#and I'm a disappointment for that too...#I shouldn't be reacting I shouldn't care I shouldn't be thinking about how shitty I am at everything#I say sorry bc I genuinely feel that I've done wrong and feel guilt by not remedying it#I'm debating on either staying up all night and coding to forget shit or just going to bed now#>>#sorry I'm just rambling bc I feel so awful#I lied saying I was ok. but it's pretty obvious I'm not#I wouldn't be surprised if I get another or a if I tell him I'm not ok#sorry sorry sorry#I'm sorry... I still don't know what compels him to put up with this shit#there's always something wrong#I'm just an insecure mess. I'm pretty sure he thought I was much stronger as a person when we started dating