more on my endless emotions that seem to be plagueing my night: ive always had friends from different groups in my life. i thought that was a healthy thing, showing that i was keeping a balance in my life or something. tonight MULTIPLE friends from DIFFERENT groups decided to leave me out of whatever they were doing (parties/hhn/movies). these people dont even know each other but i guess theyve mentally come to a consensus that im not worthy of an adequate friendship with anyone. i never thought i would say this but i really miss the days of public school where i would see people everyday and at least put up the illusion of being sociable. now i am just a loner. its confirmed.
