A week ago today the recruiting team I was a part of got laid off, and I think it broke a tolerance of stress I can usually mentally withstand. There’s a lot of feeling of self doubt and worthlessness in comparison to other people in my life, and I’m really not in a good headspace at this moment.

I’m feeling some aspects of depression kicking in and I’m feeling myself become unhappier a little more each day. I’m crying more often, and I feel I don’t want to burden anybody with these feelings.

It feels like an endless cycle I’m stuck in here with money problems, shutting down and pushing people away, and being so needy.. I’ve definitely seen better days.

he looks like a hunchback peeping in the background who knows he doesn't belong in the photo LOL

Mud Run 06102017

If you want something, just be direct. Especially if it's a rare occasion where I'm introverting for the night; be upfront and quick.

A night in the memory box with this mentality is never a good idea. Emotional as hell and crying everywhere.. lol I'm such a fucking mess.

I think I'm a one and done with Coachella. It was a blast this year, but my body can't hang anymore. I'm getting old.

Currently trying to relearn Spanish because it's embarrassing I can't hold a conversation!

final semester of university is coming to destroy me in a three week time period and I'm really not excited for it RIP

Celebrating Derek’s 27th Birthday with a mixology course.

I moved into May's house in Buena Park.

A lot has changed: I’m driving and commuting again, I’m almost done with university, I’m happily in a relationship, and unfortunately I’ve become less motivated in school.

I think maybe each update deserves its own post.. Once spring break rolls around in a day or two, I’ll tend to it.

Until then, I hope everyone’s been well since we’ve last chatted!

Internal battles.. Meh.

Old habits die hard.

that hair 😍 LOL

Regardless of the results, that was probably the most pleasant interview experience I've had thus far.

taken from Snapchat

Kinda sucks I didn't get to spend Valentines Day with the bf. But then again, I'm happy I even have someone I connect with on this level. Hope everyone enjoyed their Valentines Day 😊💕

Rhondavous: A Lovers' Ball 😛

morning after Armin Only: Embrace, messy hair