Annual leave day 1/21 not a shabby start at all
btnursey reblogged
You have to accept that some people are not made for deep conversations, or for holding you together when you’re about to fall apart, or for keeping you from unzipping your skin, or for talking you out of suicide, or to love you through the worst moments of your life. Some people are made for shallow exchanges, and ridiculous banter, and nothing more. And that’s okay. That doesn’t make them horrible people because they simply aren’t able to handle a storm like you. It doesn’t make you a bad person because you won’t divulge all the gritty details of your horror show. It makes you smart. You have to accept that there will be people that cannot give you what you need. It doesn’t mean they are not worth keeping in your life. You just have to figure out who these ones are before you’re disappointed. And you have to keep them at arm’s length. You cannot expect everyone in your life to understand, to be nonjudgmental, to get it. But that’s okay, because not everyone was made to impart wisdom, or wax-poetic, or speak on politics and the depravity of society, or discuss how crucial it is that the stigma of mental illness be abolished. There are times when you have to get away from all that heaviness. You have to. And you will need superficial conversation about Kim Kardashian’s arse, or a debate on the colour of The Dress. You will need those ones. So don’t go round cutting people off and dropping your friends. You need people for all your seasons. You need people or you won’t survive this.
What my therapist told me this morning (via llogicas)
This is seriously the greatest thing in the entire world.
This is my life. The crossfit open is over and, despite how hard most of the WODs were, it was so much fun. I have serious goals for this time next year (if I'm still in the crossfit game next year because $$$ and one of my favourite parts of crossfit is Sal, and she's leaving😫😫) I surprised myself with how well I feel I did in the open, and I believe that nothing will ever be as hard as 16.5. Burpees at my current body weight is way too hard so I'm making a serious effort to both get stronger, and to lower the physical load. I've lost a whole kilo post Easter. That's something! Also, I feel like I am always on nightshift. Forever napping behind triage. Sal and I have signed up for a crossfit teams comp in 8.5weeks. We are going to demolish it. We've picked up our training and making a serious effort. Bring it.
I need to stop moving backwards. And wire my jaw shut.
WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING
This is ridiculously frustrating
Werk it.
holy shit I'm actually crazy
I have just been checking out my archive on this blog, and I used to be so disciplined, and dedicated and legit crazy.
I don't know if this is a realistic goal to get back here. but damn. DAMN.
WEEK 1 RECAP - 14/2/16
One week down, only eleven more to go (please help me)
This week started off so strong - 3 protein only days, exercise, sleep, steps - and then fizzed into a terrible binge weekend. I don't know what it is; I can be so disciplined all week, and then come the weekend - BOOM - all my hard work, portion control and good choices become wasted.
And for that reason alone, I refuse to step onto the scales until at least Thursday. I think I might make Thursday my official weigh in day for this challenge.
So, for a little recap - exercise has been pretty good: 2 x crossfit sessions, 1 x gym session, 1 x home gym session at my parents place with all of my little sisters funky workout equipment, 1 x big walk, 1 x medium walk, 1 x little walk. I need to be getting to crossfit at least 3x per week (preferably 4) to make it a financially viable option and to the gym 2x per week. I love walking and wish I had more time in my day to go for big adventure walks (where all my time goes I have no idea)
On the days that I had work this week, my eating was excellent. Thursday was a little more relaxed, Friday I had breakfast and then forgot to eat again until 7pm (FOOOOOOOOOLISH) and then Saturday and Sunday were like a party.
So next week ill aim to be more consistent with my intake on my days off (Wednesday, Thursday, Friday) and attempt to maintain my intake on the working days.
FUN FACTS:
- I bought myself a macbook pro this weekend - this is pretty much the first post I've even written on a computer, All of my previous posting has been done from my iPhone!
- Whilst minding my own sweaty business at the gym this evening, I was approached and then recruited to a womens AFL team whilst at the gym because I looked “strong”. I am so time poor that I don't think I can possibly join, but I really miss team sport so I'm thinking about it.
- We made tacos for dinner and they were ahhhmazing!
AND IM OUT...
Yolo..
Life.
Day 2, Week 1
Slept til 1pm.... whhhhhatt! Protein only day - intake was pretty good. Portion control was done really well. Crossfit in the evening prior to nightshift. And then a pretty busy night at work. Crossfit was deadly - FT burpee pull ups (modified to burpee hang holds) and push jerks. 21,9,15,7,9,5. 12 min EMOM - esentric pull-ups x 3; box dips with 3 second hold at top and bottom x 5; alt leg pistols onto a box x 10.
Week 1,Day 1. I’ve decided to embark on this challenge with the goal of cleaning out my wardrobe. I have accumulated a ridiculous number of clothes; most of which don’t actually fit me at the moment. Therefore, in 12 weeks - which will be the 1st of May - I’ll be discardingor selling or donating any of the clothes in my wardrobe that don’t spark joy, suit my body, or fit. The reality is I’ve grown out of most of my clothes. My weight has crept up as I’ve gotten on with life and found love and become the happiest version of myself. And I keep longing looking at my wardrobe and wishing that those clothes still fit. 12 weeks. Bodytrim style eating, portion control, exercise, hydration and sleep. And then I will clean the wardrobe in time for winter. Starting weight - 82.1 kg I'm not sure what day I want to weigh in because of shift work yet, but I'm sure I'll work it out. X
If you gym and don't selfie - did you actually gym?
Day -1 (Is that even a thing!)
Anonymous asked:
Waitttttttt! You're back?!?!?!?!?!??
Hahaha. Yes. For now, I am!