When the one you love the most & was supposed to love you the most, knows you are falling apart, that they could help, but refuses to. It hurts. Everyone is better off without me. I can’t wait to be free. I can’t wait.
I dream of death every night. It is peaceful. I have finally accepted it. When I wake to my reality, I am hurt, angry, upset with myself. I yearn to go back to sleep. To shed my vessel & let my soul be free.
I loved too hard, was not loved enough. I have lost myself. Forever.
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I'm tired and I
I want to go to bed
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don't want to wake up on my own anymore
Sing to me
Sing to me
I don't want to wake up on my own anymore
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go
There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Bye
Give me tough love
Leave me with nothin when I come down
My kind of love
Force me & choke me til I pass out
Lock me up & throw away the key
He knows how to get the best out of me
I'm no force for the world to see
Trade my whole life just to be
Top of the world, but I'm still not free
This is a secret that I keep
Until it's gone, I can never find peace
Waste my whole life just to be
Robert Goolrick, from The End of the World as We Know It: Scenes from a Life
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— H.D., from The Collected Poems of Hilda Doolittle: 1912-1944.
how are christians homophobic when theres yaoi in the bible.
don't care + didn't ask + hope you're cursed forever to sleep on a twin size mattress
we all know a guy who got cursed forever to sleep on a twin sized mattress in somebody’s attic or basement their whole life
Comforting a drunker person while drunk feel like what I imagine it would be like to comfort a dying soldier on the battlefield
the ultracoquette rope i use on my enemies
Having a bruise is great it’s like a second clitoris but it only does masochism
I’m done w diagnoses there’s nothing wrong w me. I’m just a bit peculiar and eccentric