I've lost control of my life 🌸🌸

happy homestuck day, you filthy animals

MAJOR KUDOS to the animators who did this scene the sweep was just gorgeous and the lighting made the music and voices hit SO much harder

A surprising article to find on the Huffington post. I think, especially towards the end, there's still a saturation of healthism and diet talk (just of the "clean eating" variety), but the information about weight discrimination is absolutely on point, especially within the medical field ignoring decades of research.

Not only do we know that weight loss isn't sustainable or possible, we also know that weight discrimination kills, in a myriad of ways. If you actually care about "health" then start unlearning your weight bias NOW and realize that fat people are just people who are a different shape.

And this article doesn't even touch on "the obesity paradox"(the fact that fat people survive heart attacks and injuries BETTER THAN thin people) or the fact that dieting, especially "yo-yo dieting," is a better predictor for heart disease than weight, and that many of the fat people who have cardiovascular diseases have a long history of dieting that (understandably) didn't work.

encouraged to rb but fatphobes will just be blocked.

hi heres a sneaky little wip :0

English added by me :)

My chronic pain doctor suggested I exercise more

I asked him “how?”

He looked confused. Said I should try a bit every day

I said “not when, how?” I asked what exercises I should do

He suggested half a dozen options that had all been explicitly banned by other doctors. I’m not allowed to run. I’m not allowed to bike. I’m not allowed to use my rowing machine or my punching bag.

I walk my dog whenever I have the energy and when it doesn’t hurt too much

What else can I do?

He told me I should exercise more

And then he changed the subject.

Next time a doctor tells me that, I'm asking "how?"

the first thing I did in my journey out of bed was kind of an accidental win. I bought a weighted blanket when I didn’t even have a gp because my other one left the area just before the pandemic hit, and didn’t give me any suggestions where to go when I was struggling a lot with brain fog; so I was without support or painkillers for a year.

it’s pale pink and fluffy. lighter than the one the company recommended for my age and size, and it’s still very heavy for me. the way all of the beads pull in such an unwieldy fashion can make it difficult to pull onto the bed. I could only handle half an hour at a time at the beginning.

but slowly, completely by accident, it actually helped. especially my core muscles and thighs from turning over in bed. I was just feeling anxious. I had no room in my head for thoughts of exercise. but I actually put on a scant bit of muscle. it was crazy

the second bit of exercise I started doing was to get out of bed and sit in a chair by the window instead of laying in bed.

the third, wearing clothes. showering a little more often. putting two braids in my hair instead of one.

then doing laundry

then learning to cook again, because brain fog had robbed me of most of what I knew.

and of course cooking meant more and better food, which gave me more energy and helped my body get a bit stronger

in there were stretches. I had no room in my head for videos or books so I did the three I could still remember from back when I saw a good physio years ago. I could only do three repeats at first, not even the five that was a recommended set.

all of that helped me get strong enough to make it to sit through a two day course at the pain clinic, and thankfully they weren’t like OP’s doctor, they were adamant that pacing is vital to any improvement if you have chronic pain. pushing too far too fast is the enemy. low and slow. persistence. is key

it was crazy to sit in that chair with my blanket and a pillow to hold onto so I could lean on it, and prop myself up, because a lot of what they said I’d kind of worked out. but they were scientists and doctors who had all experienced chronic pain and so they had the terminology and were able to piece it together

and most of all they vindicated my own course that I’d stepped on by accident.

and finally when my new gp asked me every month whether I’d thought about taking some walks I was able to say ‘I believe I’ll get there, but not yet. and the pain climic agree with me.’

and I did get there. I don’t walk as much as she would like but honestly I don’t think she’ll ever be happy lmao

the thing most doctors, even many chronic illness specialists and chronic pain specialists fail to account for is that the activity you’re already doing is important (vital, even, because personal maintenance and living life is very important!) and it’s already exercise and strain and very energy consumptive. it counts! and also they greatly underestimate the incredible value of seriously seriously small, tiny, incremental steps that can actually account for massive improvement over time for the chronically ill—if we’re allowed to pace ourselves properly, for, like…ever and not just a certain period of time

I don’t know your pain, I don’t know your body. but I recommend that you sit down and think about—or perhaps actually just take note over the course of your days and weeks, what activity you’re already doing. maybe at first you’ll only notice when something makes you hurt, but take note of it. because that matters*. and you can build off of that. slowly slowly slowly.

you’re a persistence predator. we walk slower, we do everything slower; and many of us will never get to a place where the average physio will approve of our condition.

but fuck them. we can build muscle; I’ve seen it. we can gain small amounts of improvement without undoing all of the good work we put in. but we have to be patient, and persistent, and we have to be cautious and we have to be brave

*I do feel the need to add that I also learned how to arrange my day so that some activities hurt less. and I learned over the course of a year —and really i’m still learning—to see my days in fifteen minute to half hour increments because I have to consider PEM as well. stretches have to happen if I sit in the chair too long. especially if I’m on my computer. a very short walk is best if I’ve been out and sitting at tables because that puts so much strain on my back. it takes spoons and it’s really tempting to think it’s too much but I generally find the pain the next day if I don’t takes more spoons than if I do. most activities at home are done in fifteen minute on thirty minute off shifts. when I say slow I mean slow

that’s not always possible. I don’t have kids, and just sent the cat I was living with to another home with someone who could bend without crying all the time. I have time and space to set that pace and not everyone can. life can be complicated.

but

you can exercise. you just need to vastly vastly change what the word exercise movement activity mean for you.

anyway I hope that helps

big pain day today so I’m feeling very bitey esp about doctors

you’re a persistence predator.

“Orgone energy is the life force energy, which             surrounds all life form when  active. Orgone Pyramids             Naturally attracts Positive Etheric energy  then converts            the negative orgone into positive  ions.“

ROCKET TO MARS ON A SHIP POWERED BY BLOOD SEMEN AND GOOD VIBES

oh my god orgone energy is from the sexbox guy right???

YEAH OK I GOOGLED IT TO DOUBLE CHECK I WAS RIGHT

basically the dude who invented “orgone energy” (Wilhelm Reich) thought that it was a kind of sex energy (orgone=orgasm) and he made these sexbox things that people would get naked and sit in and they would measure your orgasm energy and also probably cure cancer?

Anyways Albert Einstein spent a full day examining Reich’s “invention” before concluding it was bullshit but some people in the USA were like into it and now orgone energy has a cult following even though it’s complete bullshit.

Oh my GOD i clicked on OPs blog and-

ORGONITE DILDO

but with graphics like these……………..

Okay at first I was like “that link looks like it’ll give my computer tetanus and and sti” And then I scrolled down and now I’m all “that dildo will give your junk tetanus and adware”

I made a lot of Bella Sara-inspired Illustrations lately, but I haven't done any direct fanart in a while! This is an adult version of the foal "Cherub" from the card series "Baby Bella". I love the foals of this series and recently wondered how some of them might look like grown up! So I started with one of my favorites, the little foal with the spring-green wings and mane...

Original illustration of Cherub by Heather Edwards (aka Heather Theurer) on the right:

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I've been obsessed by the bird situation with the Gävlebocken, so here's some art about it! Happy holidays!

HAPPY 2018 f OL KS heres ur yearly DAVESPRITE

happy 413 everyone!! 15 years felt like a significant number so i wanted to do push myself to do smthg over the top for this one haha

this comic has had me in a chokehold for over 10 years waow.. still lookin forward to see what comes from the new team! anyway happy anniversary sweethearts <333

Period underwear changed my life (you can wash Aisle brand normally in your machines, so sometimes I wear it on non-period days to not feel sweaty). Expensive, but worth the investment, imo.

[AVOID THE TEMPTATION TO MAKE CHOICES THAT ARE FAMILIAR BUT NO LONGER SERVE YOU]