It looks like tumblr isn't going to fix my account access issue and I'm starting to think that it's a sign from the universe for me to stop fitness blogging. I've had this blog for three years and while I've been able to make friends and follow some amazing journeys, I feel like my own fitness journey is a failure. The physical changes I've wanted to see so badly just don't come in spite of my diligence, and I'm feeling disillusioned with the idea that anyone can achieve their dream body. I'm not meant to be beautiful or fit and maybe that's OK but every day I'm on this site, the more I'm convinced that only appearances really matter. There are only so many times I can listen to the same "love yourself, you're beautiful the way you are!" message when it's coming from someone whose marketability is based on their appearance. It's not really a criticism of them but how hypocritical fitness and social media can be. There certainly are a lot of people who are strong enough to soldier on in spite of eating disorders and the pressures to be beautiful but I'm just not one of them. In any case, thank you all for your support over the last three years. There are so many of you that I'll still be following and rooting for ❤️ I'll try to post something here in the case that I do start a new fitness blog. I'm going to pour my everything into school and work, and maybe if I work hard enough I can actually enjoy fitness again.

WELP time to update your emails

tumblr is a piece of garbage and it's making a ton of people reset their passwords with NO prior warning so if you're linked to a defunct email CHANGE IT NOW or you will suffer my fate 😢 thank you SO much @staff for your "sucks to be you!" customer service policy, I'm so glad I get to say goodbye to a blog I've had for three years because you didn't bother to warn people about this !!!

Potential Goodbye

Long story short, tumblr is stupid and is making me reset my password but I no longer have access to the email account I used to sign up and can't figure out that password either. That being said, it's only a matter of time before my tumblr app on my phone glitches and logs me out so that I'm completely screwed and unable to log into this account. So, if I never post again, y'all know why. Keep your fingers crossed that I can convince customer service to cut me some slack ...

am I the only one whose self image goes down 85739% when relatives post pictures of them on Facebook? Pictures from my sister's graduation are now up and I am horrified 😱😱😱

Tagged by the goddess-like @apros3xia for selfies ❤️. I'm currently in Dallas with my twin and we are about to go out like normal 22 year olds !! I am 80 years old at heart and uncool but my sister styled me so I feel fancy~