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     ❝ I’m not certain, ❞ Athelstan admitted, looking back down at the cup in his hands. The sweet and heavy liquid inside it had remained untouched until now, its scent numbing his sense of smell to anything else. He was tired in a way he hadn’t been since his early days as a monk, back in England. A tiredness of the mind it was, not of the body. Thoughts about the things he had witnessed in Uppsala had plagued him day and night since their return, accompanied by a plethora of inconsistent emotions. There was a sense of betrayal –but nothing palpable; only the ghost of a feeling he might have felt, had anyone else tried to offer him as a sacrifice for the salvation of their soul. It stood no chance against the constant voice in his head, reminding him that these were not his people, nor would they ever really be. He could accept them, and they could accept him, but he felt as though the doubts in his heart would forever separate them like the ocean the shores of Scandinavia and England.
There was no anger or fear in him now, only hollow spaces where waves of them had hit as realisation had taken over. Had he rested himself in a false sense of security, amidst supposed friends, who always looked at him with the eyes of strangers? Had he been offered a great - and true - honor, and turned it down like a faithless fool? The cause of Athelstan’s confusion was so beyond the realm of anything interpersonal that it did not affect the way he spoke to Ragnar like a regular fight might have. Something was different now, but Athelstan found himself unable to say if it had changed for the better or the worse - and the attempt to figure it out left him with nothing but a burning headache and more questions than before.
Ragnar’s words made him turn his head, in time to see Thyri avert her eyes. His lips parted with almost uttered words, but he remained silent. The night before the sacrifice was a haze, his memories fractured and blended in with dreams and hallucinations and nightmares. He remembered her gentle touch and her warm gaze, but the memory left him cold. It seemed false now; like a last act of kindness granted to a doomed man, or the praise for a hero given before it was due - because that was what it had been, wasn’t it? ❝ Because I am still here, ❞ Athelstan finally replied, turning back to Ragnar. ❝ So she can look at me. ❞
Finally he put the cup down, accepting that the desire to drink would not settle in tonight. The lights of the flames in the hall’s fireplace were dancing in Ragnar’s eyes, giving them a mischievous gleam. ( Thought, somehow, he always seemed a little mischievous. ) ❝ Was it your plan all along? When you brought me back from England. To bring me to Uppsala? ❞
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Perhaps Ragnar would not admit it to others, but Athelstan was still an outsider, even though e was trying to blend in. Their world was different from his own and even though at some point THE priest would get used it, it was still all new. No. I didn’t know you then.” he responded quietly, his eyes remaining on his hands as he spoke. Wouldn’t have been easier then, to lose him? Athelstan had become a part of his life now and even though Ragnar didn’t mean to, he had liked it, he had grew fond of him. It would be better if he apologized, a part of him had regreted it, the fact that he had kept it from him more than anything else. But it was more important for Athelstan to understand.  “That wouldn’t be a sacrifice then, would it?” he smiled slightly, running his hand through the flames of the candle between them. FInally, he looked up, to meet his gaze. “Don’t confuse sacrifice with killing. If I ended your life in the monastery, it would be just another murder, just another killing. And as you saw, we don’t mind doing that at all.” No, his people loved blood, they loved taking lives of others, of their enemies to please the Gods and themselves. “Sacrifice means giving something you don’t want to lose to prove your faith. You might not give human lives to your God, but don’t you sacrifice something to, when you become a monk? The chance of a family, of falling in love?”

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game of thrones sentence starters ( s3ep6)

  • “ the more wood the bigger the fire.”
  • “ you know your fires.”
  • “ i knew you were highborn.”
  • “ buried treasure. thousands of years old, i think.”
  • “ what does it do?”
  • “ it’s beautiful though, isn’t it?”
  • “ how much longer?”
  • “ you’re playing with me.”
  • “ do you sing?”
  • “ sing me a song.”
  • “ that’s not how you skin a rabbit.”
  • “ i made this bow myself.”
  • “ oh, you’re gonna punch the rabbit to death?”
  • “ some of us are just a little better.”
  • “ you’ve got a big mouth and too many teeth.”
  • “ stop it!”
  • “ me? it’s my fault?”
  • “ we can’t fight each other, we’ll never make it!”
  • “ don’t push me.”
  • “ i’m right here with you.”
  • “ what’s happening?”
  • “ you’re afraid.”
  • “ i’ve waited my whole life to see the world from up there.”
  • “ here, sit down.”
  • “ you killed someone for them?”
  • “ i didn’t kill him, but i bet his balls are still bruised.”
  • “ can we not talk about that here?”
  • “ you were trembling like a leaf!”
  • “ don’t worry, your secret is safe with me.”
  • “ you’re loyal, and your brave.”
  • “ they don’t care if you live or die.”
  • “ don’t ever betray me.”
  • “ ’cause i’ll cut your pretty cock right off and wear it ’round me neck.”
  • “ you’re good. you’re not as good as you think you are.”
  • “ there’s someone out there.”
  • “ that’s about far enough.”
  • “ you’re going to hurt him.”
  • “ i see a darkness in you.”
  • “ you staring at me ass, ___?”
  • “ sorry. were you sleeping?”
  • “ wa… wa… water? you want some water?”
  • “ i wish i had some for you.”
  • “ so let’s play a game. which body-part do you need the least?”
  • “ please! i’ll do everything, please.”
  • “ wouldn’t that be a hunt to remember?”
  • “ you failed, but i’m a better hunter than you.”
  • “ how about your  ___? you don’t need that for much do you?”
  • “ good, let’s start with that.”
  • “ you’ve been wondering why you’re here, haven’t you?”
  • “ if you guess right, i’ll tell you. by the old gods and the new, i swear it.”
  • “ you win the game if you can figure out who i am.”
  • “ if i win, you’ll let me go?”
  • “ if you think this has a happy ending, you haven’t been paying attention.”
  • “ if you say please again, you’ll with you hadn’t.”
  • “ do i look like a fucking umber to you?”
  • “ how did you know that?”
  • “ it was just a guess.”
  • “ he’s dead. strangled by ____”
  • “that’s why you’re torturing me.”
  • “ yes. you win.”
  • “ but you forgot to ask one question. you forgot to ask if i’m a liar. i’m afraid i am.”
  • “ everything i’ve told you is a lie.”
  • “ this isn’t happening to you for a reason. well, one reason. i enjoy it!”
  • “ please, cut if off, cut if off!”
  • “ i win!”
  • “ thank you for riding here so quickly. i know travel isn’t easy in these times.”
  • “ i had something less permanent in mind.”
  • “ if we don’t do this, and do it now, we’re lost.”
  • “ many people would pay a great deal for you.”
  • “ shall we drink on it?”
  • “ you do understand how suspicious that is to ordinary people?”
  • “ i’m afraid i must insist.”
  • “ you’re in no place to insist on anything.”
  • “ i would have hoped you’d learned your lesson.” 
  • “ you may have a stomach for bloodshed and slaughter, but this is another matter entirely.”
  • “ i will not breathe further life into a malicious lie by discussing it.”
  • “ i feel like i’m in a dream.”
  • “ it’s terrible isn’t it? the most terrible place there is.”
  • “ trying to have me killed is an odd way of saying thank you.”
  • “ it’s… this… this is awkward.”
  • “ who doesn’t like to see their friends fail now and then?”
  • “ i did what i did for the good of the realm.”
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((PSA; I think I am going to put Ragnar on semi-hiatus for now, I don’t have really muse for me. But who knows, maybe he’ll come back properly at the end of November MEANWHILE, you can find me here on Erik/Magneto and on Renly))

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((PSA; I think I am going to put Ragnar on semi-hiatus for now, I don’t have really muse for me. But who knows, maybe he’ll come back properly at the end of November MEANWHILE, you can find me here on Erik/Magneto and on Renly))

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The boy followed Ragnar up the hill, still quivering like a feather on the breeze. When they reached the top, Floki started to feel anxious again. “M-Maybe I should just…go home. Your father might not want me in your house.” His teeth chattered a little.

“Why wouldn’t he want you home?” he stopped to give him a curious look, wondering if the boy hid a horrible secret that everyone but Ragnar knew. “You have not killed anyone, have you?” he asked, but he already knew the answer to that “You don’t have to come with me, if you don’t want to, but it is more than alright if you do!”

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