Marina Abramović (via thetalks)
The night touches me, turns me to Braille. - Bob Hicok, A definition
that point in the semester where everything is like
ever since I made this post it gets reblogged when there’s about 3 weeks left before finals which lets me know that it’s that point of the semester again
[image description: drawing of a yellow bird saying “University is hard. You’re trying your best, and you’ll find your path.” in an orange speech bubble.]
How many times will I cut my hair til I just become that throbbing impulse itself and embody a changed me? How many times will I change through outfits to make myself comfortable or feel like I have a reason to be dressed today? How many times will I fall in love only to fall out of it and cry as I tell them no more? How many times will I tell myself that this is the semester I will be the good student I use to be whenever I was young, full of contentedness instead of anxiety? Only to repeat it again the next semester. I’m tired of my own bullshit. Of these regurgitated situations and feelings. I wish a fire would consume me. That I would have that sudden realization that something is happening to me; that I am happening! I’m aching from the strong arching curve of a question mark that my spine has adopted shape from. - What do I really want if not this?
I feel like I have to reintroduce myself so often to others, to myself. And, I just bury the problem of growth away because I hate to think that I’ve changed in the bad ways that I have and in the good ways that I don’t think others will understand or accept. This year I became beautiful. I became selfish. I became lazy and stupid. I became aware and confident. I became loving. I became more myself. But I also became a secret to guard from others and a secret to myself as I looked ahead and wondered what I really am. I feel stuck inside my present arrangements and circumstances in life. Am I who I need to be? Am I where I need to be? How long am I going to have to wonder?
Flowers float in the Mediterranean Sea in honor of migrants lost while making the perilous journey to Europe. Last night more than 80 Syrians and Palestinians refugees have drowned in the Mediterranean close to the Libyan shores trying to reach Europe.
I FEEL LIKE I’VE BEEN WAITING MY WHOLE LIFE FOR THIS AND I STILL WASN’T READY
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Kinda fucked up how cis women are allowed to abandon feminity in the name of feminism but trans women are forced to adopt it just to be recognized as women
Bernard Tschumi, Advertisements for Architecture (1976-1977)
Louise Bourgeois, What is the Shape of This Problem?, 1999, lithography and letter press, series of 9 (x)
NEVER STOP HUSTLING
Very feelio
Things I’m missing that I had when I was still in the general education system:
- reading books regularly
- routine physical activities
- motivation and pressure to make art consistently
- busy work to boost my grade because I’m a procrastinator and don’t always do the important assignments
- routine socializing with my closest friends
- routine socializing with familiar strangers and acquaintances
- relationships with my teachers
- not having to work
- sick days where you were able to be blissfully idle
- the lack of impending doom and horror I feel now whenever I consider the future and its complete ambiguity and my fear that I’ve already fucked it up somehow
Russian artist El Lissitzky, born this day in 1890, originally trained to be an architect.
[El Lissitzky. Proun 19D. 1920 or 1921. The Museum of Modern Art, New York. © 2015 Artists Rights Society (ARS), New York / VG Bild-Kunst, Bonn]