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;; Sirius loves his brother. He doesn’t like what his parents did to his brother, and hates himself for not being able to stand up and take the mantle as the heir to protect him. While he openly spends a lot of time berating his brother at school, he’s more frustrated with the situation they’re in than anything else.
He’s also not a fan of how much Slughorn likes him, but that’s something else entirely.
;; Sirius isn’t so dense as to not see the similarities between himself and Snape. One bad turn for him, or one good one for Snape, and they’re practically the same peson.This is most of the drive behind his dislike and distrust of Snape -- he knows the type, and he isn’t a fan.
Is his treatment of Snape fair by any means? Of course not. It isn’t until they’re older that Snape has made his own bed, and the playing field evens a bit.
That’s not going to stop him from hating Snape.
;; For a few years, Sirius just finds her annoying. She returns the favor, at least publically. It isn’t until around fourth or fifth year that he seems to remember that she’s a muggleborn -- the magical world is still new to her, in a way that it isn’t to him.
He doesn’t stop finding her to be a small irritance, if only for the fact that she’s all but immune to him. Somewhere along the way, it becomes endearing, and it isn’t until James tells him that he had to explain to Lily that Sirius isn’t actually that much of a jackass that he tries to reach out to her.
;; made a golden trio oc - under heavy co. you can follow her brother as well
;; Another “opposites attract” friendship, Peter operates under the assumption that no one really pays attention to him. He’s invisible to the public. Sirius loves this about him and, truth be told, uses this to his advantage for a while.
But they develop a good enough friendship -- when James is with Quidditch and Lily has stolen Remus, Sirius is grateful for the silent friendship that is Peter. They work on the map together, Sirius works on his Charms work under Peter’s help (countercharms Sirius is good at -- everything else is shite).
It’s easy going, it doesn’t require Sirius’ obnoxious personality, and he doesn’t feel compelled to talk nonstop to Peter.
;; On the surface, the boys don’t have a lot in common. Remus is a bit quiet, the background type of mischieveous that gets overlooked. Sirius forces himself into the center of attention on a regular basis, isn’t afraid to hex purebloods in the middle of the great hall.
So no, they don’t seem like they’d be good friends.
When Remus opened up about being a werewolf, Sirius hadn’t really been able to level with his pain, but opened up about his home life in an attempt to put him and Remus on a similar level.
The boys had been all but inseperable since.
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;; Despite their shared time together, and Sirius’ overall feelings of protectiveness towards the other, it’s hard to put “best friends” within the Marauders. Sirius does genuinely love James (as far as he’s really capable) and is devastated when James starts to drift from him in sixth year.
He’s even more devastated when he is forced to leave the Potter house, and leaves school in his seventh.
But James, being James, forgives Sirius when he comes back as a truly new person. He’s best man at the wedding, he’s eventually godfather.
The definition of through thick and thin.
“Nah, Lily’s starting to not hate him as much, he’s forgotten I even exist,” she laughed it off. Marls Mother had frequently told her that she was hard to love, so she knew it wouldn’t be a great loss, if she was gone.
Sirius stopped, turning to Marlene with an armful of chocolate. “Hey, do you wanna skip dinner and go have a drink?” It was the nicest way he was going to ask do you wanna talk about it without making her uncomfortable.
Marls had to be optimistic, if no one else would believe in her, she had to do it for herself. Her mother had sent a howler when Marley made the Quidditch team, and said that people would think she was a lesbian, although the word that Adora McKinnon wasn’t as kind. “You’ll be the only one who would miss me,” she chuckled.
“That’s not true.” Sirius had a lot of self-doubt -- third year, him and his cousin Narcissa had gotten into it pretty badly, and he’d received about a dozen angry letters from his mother, at least two in Howler form, and one from a very annoyed Andromeda.
And honestly? For his family, that was tame. He’d spent a long time frustrated and annoyed, and Walburga’s egging had turned it all inward.
“James would miss you too.”
Marls smiled. “Well, it just reminds me that there’s hope. Eventually it will be summer again, but also there are things that are good for cold weather. Cocoa, jumpers, laying and reading by the fire… things like that.”
Marls got a few things, but struggled a bit with the dress. “Scale of one to ten, how terrible would it be for me to ditch this dress and walk about naked?”
Sirius shook his head, kind of amazed at her never ending optimism. It had to be a front, like so many of them. But then she had him laughing again, looking her over a bit. “I mean, I wouldn’t care, but I’m sure you’d freeze to death very quickly.”
There had to be a clothes shop around here somewhere. It wouldn’t be amazing, but it would be better than her dress.
“We can try and find some clothes for you.” And him, probably. He wasn’t nearly as uncomfortable as she was -- more accustomed to suffering in nice clothes.
Marley laughed as well, she and Sirius had always gotten along pretty well. “I don’t know how you’ll be able to recover,” she sighed solemnly, but then burst into laughter once more.
Once they were away, she inhaled deeply. “It’s such a lovely night. Chilly, but lovely.” She didn’t want to talk about school. Her family was putting a lot of pressure on her, and she didn’t want to think about it.
“I hate the damn cold,” Sirius said, just wandering aimlessly through the shop with Marlene. He didn’t have any real agenda here, he just didn’t want to deal with a whole lot of people right now. Marlene had always been easier to talk to.
He did eventually pull some chocolate off a shelf, knowing that the stash of sweets in their dorm was getting dangerously low.
“i swear, you do it to piss me off!”
----- “I’m sure I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
Watching him, she smiled softly. “Mr. Black, that sounds dangerously like a proper date,” Marls teased. It was a bit cold as they left the party, and she instinctively curled closer to Sirius, for warmth. “If you’re not careful, you may be seen as a” she faked a gasp “proper gentleman!” The blonde couldn’t stop the laughter that sprang forth after her dramatic outburst. “And I don’t need to start studying just yet. I have Lily talking over her homework in her sleep, so I’m being tutored through sleep.”
"How dare I soil my good name by treating a lovely young lady properly!" he said it with a laugh, placing his free hand over hers for a second before pulling away to open the door to their next destination.
"Remus and James have been up until the shite hours of the morning comparing notes. I feel your pain."
Regulus answered him with silence. Silence and a half-open mouth that wanted to speak but could not form words. He was being careful not to exacerbate the situation but, Merlin, he had no idea what Sirius was thinking, anyways.
“I want—” he wavered where he stood, halfway between approaching his brother and remaining hovered by the door, “I want you to… think about what you’re doing. You can’t undo a decision like this. You know she won’t let you.” Sirius had to know where the choice would lead him—permanently, irrevocably removed from the family.
From him.
“You’re angry, and upset, and emotional, and you know there can be no logic here. You’ve been—influenced, by those people. By your friends, and…
“Sirius, you can’t leave.”
"Oh, I can't?" And he whipped around, all the anger and fear he's not allowed to show in front of Walburga or Orion now on display in force.
The hand around his wand was shaking, and he dropped the wand into his trunk to really keep himself from doing something he would regret. He knew, without a doubt, that he'd end up cut off. Like Uncle Alphard. Like Andromeda. No contact without reprimand. Or worse. This could be the last time he would see Regulus without house colors draped over him.
And even then. Walburga had eyes and ears everywhere.
"I'm not going to let her bully me into moving with Bellatrix. She clearly thinks she's failed as a mother and --" That's fucking rich, honestly. Perfect.
"Fuck her. I can't take this shit anymore, Regulus."
;; It’s no lie that Sirius only seems to have three real friends, and seems to hang around a lot of girls. Rumors fly that he’s fucking anyone he can get his hands on, but the reality of the situation is he’s had maybe two girlfriends and a handful of private boyfriends.
It’s not that Sirius isn’t interested in girls -- he doesn’t want to accidentally end up knocking some girl up, nor does he really have the emotional capacity to handle a relationship.
As for all the girls: Sirius finds it easier talking about his problems with people that understand. To the Marauder’s credit, they’re all fairly empathetic and kind people, but Sirius knows they can’t handle a lot of the shit that he deals with.
Nevermind that James is the only other pureblood, and his parents are amazing.
