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@silens-sirenis / silens-sirenis.tumblr.com

This is a personal blog. Most of it is pretty things and Bioware. F/College student. Follow for more soft nihilism
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god im so sorry people were being so shitty about your fic. you didn't deserve that. i hope you're doing a bit better now

Hey, anon, thank you so much. I got your follow up to this, and I understood what you meant! 

I’m feeling a lot better and had a really good session with my therapist about all this. Basically, the sheer number of people who helped me get out of that dark place was really overwhelming in a positive way. I want to thank everyone who backed me up either in comments or in messages. 

I’ve come a long way as a person. If people had said those things about my writing when I was a kid, I would have stopped writing. Period. I would have been decimated. I hit a bad spot, but I’m an adult now. I know my writing is good. I have unwavering faith in that. My writing was actually good for a kid, too, when I was a kid! 

I’ve talked to some of the people involved, and everyone seems to really have understood how bad it hurt me, and that’s all I can ask short of everyone who reads this to consider why “cringe-reading” or “cringe” in general is actually really harmful to starting artists. Because I continued writing after that fic. I’m made some really damn good stuff because I kept writing. I’ve been published before and received accolades for my work. But kids who have the misfortune of seeing their stuff shredded in this increasingly common internet hostility toward “bad content” don’t have the formative years I have. 

Anyway sorry for this becoming a TLDR about why cringe-culture is REALLY bad and should be kicked from all corners of the internet. I’m really thankful for you reaching out, and I’m so thankful for everyone who supported me through that. 

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Anonymous asked:

wait i wanna read the irish theta fic 👀

No, I promise you do not.

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Hey! Fun fact!! I was a literal child when I wrote this!! I thought it was fun when people contacted me about enjoying something I’d written literally 8 years back… This is……. frankly not cool. Fic writers are human too. And I was a child???? Of cOURSE there are errors. It’s also over 100k. I am so disheartened at the state of the internet. This is why I left fandom.

Guys shut up about it. I talked to her and she’s really nice, can we stop making fun of teenagers on the internet for,,, having interests? The fic wasn’t even all that bad. Like sure, she got some stuff wrong, but Academy Era content is tricky to get your hands on, especially in 2012.

We had some fun, now lay off.

okay i’m just gonna come out and write a longass paragraph to address this right now because y’all looking at me as a jerk are right.

i’m a class-a asshole and i will be held accountable for that. i’m a terrible person. just in general. that’s not really a secret. honestly? i know next to nothing nothing about this fic and if you enjoy it, good for you. like i said i barely read any of it but the writing was pretty good! if you don’t like, that’s fine too. academy era content is scarce. doctor who canon is a myth. i don’t have a lot of content for this blog these days and i only have a handful of followers so i just answer whatever people send me. didn’t expect this to go so far. fic is eight years old, definitely didn’t expect the author to turn up. i did expect it was a kid who wrote it so i read it like i would read my own work from that long ago. my bad? absolutely. again, i’m an asshole through and through. absolute bitch. i know that. that’s why i have no friends. but i know how it feels to have people talk shit about your work and i’m so sincerely fucking sorry for being that person. gonna take a dip from here for a bit and reflect on myself because there’s no excuse for acting like a dick and that’s exactly what i did. you can come at me calling me an asshole now but believe me, i know. thank you for putting this into perspective for me. i’m exactly the person i don’t want to be and i’m gonna take a longass break to address that.

Hey, I’m gonna be nice about this, because I’m an adult. But this isn’t an apology. I was bullied a lot as a kid because I had special interests. I went to therapy. I learned how to take care of myself in a world full of vultures. I saw what was going on here and had the first panic attack I’ve had in a long time.  An apology isn’t about you. Look at how many of your sentences start with “I.”  I appreciate your gesture, but ultimately, it’s hollow, because this reads as your manifesto of self-pity. Not an apology for shitting on something I genuinely loved as a child, that I put hundreds of hours of work into.  The best apology I could ever would be for you to look at the “I”s in your response and then think about how this is now all about you in your mind, not about the person sitting in her room crying. 

I had this in the tags, but I’ll also put it here: please think about getting therapy if you really feel this negatively about yourself. If you’re already in therapy, please bring this up at your next session to talk about decision making and empathy.

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thedeca-ao3
Anonymous asked:

wait i wanna read the irish theta fic 👀

No, I promise you do not.

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Hey! Fun fact!! I was a literal child when I wrote this!! I thought it was fun when people contacted me about enjoying something I’d written literally 8 years back… This is……. frankly not cool. Fic writers are human too. And I was a child???? Of cOURSE there are errors. It’s also over 100k. I am so disheartened at the state of the internet. This is why I left fandom.

Fandom being awful to creators? I'm SHOCKED

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As a college student, currently really hungry with nothing to eat, I understand how hard it can be to get food. Sometimes you really just don’t have the money to eat and when you do, you waste it all on fast food instead of stocking up on cheap things because you’re so tired of Ramen Noodes and canned food you could barf. So, I’ve composed a list of recipes and resources that will fit a college kid’s budget and appetite. Don’t go hungry! <3

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Reblogging because lord knows college kids aren’t the only ones that are broke.

Reblogging because “broke” tips also convey extremely well to Survival tips.

Learn to make something outta nothing.

Reblogging for reference because I suspect I might be broker now than I was in university.

Because it might be helpful for spoonies on a budget!

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Franziska’s formal wear for my Royalty AU is an absolute doozy to draw but I love how it turned out! I based Fran’s coat very heavily on the Morin Blossier 1902 riding coat at the MET, it was already so perfect for her that I barely changed the design! Bonus of some franmaya and some snarky siblings

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