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the decline & fall

@heliochronometer / heliochronometer.tumblr.com

Silje. 27. Illustrator, Writer & Ballet Dancer.
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looking back on old photos of yourself is an act of mourning, always. how many times have you looked at pictures of yourself from even just a few months ago and thought “who is that? did i look like that? she’s beautiful” but fail to reconcile it with how you felt. that girl is me and that girl is beautiful but i have never been her, y’know? and the cycle is endless. i am always longing to be myself from two years ago, or six months ago, or last night. SHE was beautiful in ways i don’t know how to be now. i’m grieving for the death of my past selves, constantly, and grieving for the time they wasted mourning THEIR predecessors when they could’ve been feeling beautiful. in between disparaging remarks about the weight she holds around her midsection, my mother shows me photos from when she was younger and handles them gently; “i was kind of a looker back then, wasn’t i?” i wonder what i’ll be saying about this body in thirty years. i wonder if it’ll be kind

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saintjehanne

[ID: an excerpt from ‘Gemini,’ a poem by Audre Lorde

“All the earth falls down like lost light frightened out between my fingers.”]

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H O L I E S T : C A N T O  I  —  T H E   T O W E R  [ i - iv ]

THE FIRST SCENES of [canto i - the tower] are now available to read on [wattpad] & [patreon]

I N F O R M A T I O N

i. the parts are listed as ‘cantos’ as homage to dante’s divine comedy, from which most of the book’s cosmos is inspired. each part has an accompanying poem at the end.
ii. the next updates will be 8.23 and 8.30.  bi-weekly updates begin in september.
iii. if you like the story and wish to help others find it, votes on wattpad are appreciated.
iv. full illustration available to view on [patreon]

D I S C O V E R

[official blog] [excerpts] [illustrations]
[SUPPORT ‘HOLIEST’ ON PATREON]

special thanks & taglist—

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#mine#my story#if anyone is interested in following the updates
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H O L I E S T : A B I D E  W I T H  U S  — 8.13.2019

on august thirteenth, [begin a new revelation] and join the residents of hell for an apocalypse story, but an apocalypse for only one of its players. meet four horsemen who are not horsemen but who instead surround the throne of god, witness seven plagues both matching the visions of john of patmos and not matching them. meet the whore, the beast, and the false prophet, none of whom are who they are presumed to be, and see images of untrue angels and twisted gardens and dead dragons. navigate between warring hosts, descend the circles of hell, climb the terraces of purgatory, and greet with disdain the impious cherub who, for the second time, began a tragedy beyond his ability to comprehend.

I N F O R M A T I O N

GENRE | dark biblical horror POV | third person limited SETTING | the circles of hell // the terraces of purgatory // the spheres of heaven THEMES | abandonment, trauma, psychosis, hell (biblical & psychological), death, secrets, biblical symbolism, betrayal, obsessive devotion, revelation, disability, dreams & nightmares, paradise lost, the inferno  CONTENT WARNING | mental illness, torture, self-harm, body horror

[holiest] is founded on the idea of likening a severe mental breakdown to an apocalypse, and it is heavily based upon the hell of dante, the characters of milton, and a bastardized interpretation of the ‘revelation of john.’ 

at its core, it is a mental illness story. it is a psychological apocalypse.

[holiest] is told in nine parts, beginning on 8.13.19 and updating bi-weekly, with a brief lull between each major part. the update schedule is subject to change based upon interest and/or life events.

updates are currently going to be exclusive to [wattpad]. add it to your reading list or check back for additional pre-launch materials. if you like the story and wish to help others find it, votes are appreciated.

BONUS — previews of new written material are available on [patreon], as well as unreleased artwork and information regarding the other works in this uniquely crafted universe: [the harrowing], [heresiarch], and the numerous tragedies of [the infernal apocrypha]. depending on the circle you join, you can also receive bonus prints, drawing requests, and additional materials as they are created and funded through your generosity. 

D I S C O V E R

[official blog] [excerpts] [illustrations] 
[SUPPORT ‘HOLIEST’ ON PATREON]
— [AWAIT THE REVELATION ON WATTPAD] —

special thanks & tag list—

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#oops#self-promo#i've been writing a thing for the past... many. years. decade. ish.
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