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Drawn out Nightmares

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Hi there! I don't know if you know me...but I'm a nightmare. Not a special one, just a lil' Alb, haunting your dreams and nights...So...how was your night~? M!A: -none- ((Drawing Ask Blog, impersonating an Alb, a nightmare from Germany! Have fun with...
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Thank you.

THank you for your kindness you’ve shown me. I do try to get better and do try to be on here.

With that...would any of you be even interested in comissions? If yes, then I can make maybe a listing or something so ... yeah...

Because sadly since I’m unemployed, i don’t have money and have quite a few problems through this. So ... every coin counts really. But yeh! Thank you again for all your kindness you fill my heart with warmth!

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Hello there, people on the internet! Hello my friends that still remained, even now....

It’s not really easy for me to talk about things anymore, you know? I have quite the good life, actually. I live luckily still with my family that support me, friends that come to me and a boyfriend that cares for me greatly...

Though even if I do have those, I feel like I do not deserve them. I’m trash, and I don’t mean like the people that say ‘Oh, yes girl, I’m super trash~!” I’m just...garbage. I know I’m always like this, sad Becca always craving attention...and yes, I do want it. Y’know I can use this blog for that and not be ashamed of me, because I know that neither my friends nor my family can see this. Because they DON’T know what I’m really going through most nights

I have night terrors from a past event in my life. It has been closed, it has been worked out but sometimes...sometimes I relive it. It was a damn disaster what happened and I left from it with mental scars that will never really heal and will follow me through my life. I know it sounds like a dramatic thing, ‘cause people call me a ‘drama queen’. Maybe it is? But for me it is real...it has happened, it has scared me and it will haunt me for my life, because rape isn’t something you LIVE through without having something left. I’m fine. Everything has happened, I was on court (as the only one that told my story infront of the judge, without the other at least 10 girls that could have been there too) and they are behind bars and will never really see freedom again...

I’m a baker. I went through apprenticeship in a workplace that treated me like dirt. I didn’t get payed for my overtime (and it was at least 9 hours a day, sometimes 10 or 11 hours), got stressed by my boss for not doing great and being screamed at by him, even if i didn’t do anything wrong....He just needed someone to vent to and that was the weakest in the bakery: the apprentice. Now I’m a full baker..and I struggle to get a job in an economy that hasn’t really a problem for my job branch. But i get judged with my weight, my sex and everything, y’know? I know, i know, maybe I just haven’t found it...but it’s nearly a year and I...I’m ashamed

I’m ashamed because there is this voice in my head that tells me: you are not good enough. You don’t deserve anything anymore. I work on pictures on the side, I take requests and I want to built a Ko-Fi, to at least have something in my bank, even if it’s just a few dollars. I want to be not dependent anymore...

Mentally and physically.

So maybe I should do comissions...Or just...stop coming here...I don’t feel like I’m important anymore...and I’m sorry I chewed your ears off. I’m sorry for being not active and I’m sorry for being a whiney bitch that you barely know. I...just wanted to get it off my chest...maybe to get someone to listen and write with me...to get someone to notice, because right now? I’m alone in a big house, it’s past midnight and my depression and anxiety are both looking at me and clawing at my throat...I can’t sleep...

I’m sorry I’m a drama Queen and an attention whore, but that’s how I feel...I’ll delete this later. I’m sorry

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i dont know if these are still hashtag trendy but i made one and it was fun

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A tall young man slendered into the shop, wearing a white suit with a ice blue tie. His long almost silver hair was pulled back, styled to perfection, while his hands were in also pristine white gloves. His smile was wide, eyes a white blue. "Good day~" he greeted, his voice had a dark honey quality to it

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He hadn’t seen this man around before, but still he was a customer. “Good day to you too, welcome to Debbie’s Daisies. Anything you need help with?” James replied with his best smile.

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Erlking’s eyes went wide, his cheeks instantley turning a bright pink and his mouth was slightly agape. He was this distracted he almost let his glamour fall, but only let his ears twitch and slightly seem point-ier as they peeked out of his hair. His smile softend and he felt his eyes go a bit darker blue as he took the book in one gloved hand, touch lingering lightly on the young man’s hand.
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“Thank you, young man…that reminds me…I never catched your name…My name’s Matthias White…It is nice to meet such a young and kind man like yourself”
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“Aww thats nice of you Mr White. Or do you prefer Matthias? My name is James Smalley, though just call me James. You’ve been a pleasure to help out too.” Thankfully James was oblivious to the small changes as he returned to the counter, trimming off a bit of ribbon to wrap around the pot in a neat bow, “Alright, that’ll be $4.65. Hope your love likes them.”

He watched him, watching how his slender hand gently changed the pots and wrapped a ribbon around it, then neatly sat it down. His wonderful, beautiful crush...was he the Erlking’s crush?

James smiled at him, his tired eyes were looking at him, ringing truth with all his words. He was a pleasure...a pleasure to help? It was a start. Though as he talked about his love, a knot formed in his gut and he blushed lightly, covering his mouth with one gloved hand.

“Thank you...I hope...I hope so too” he smiled genuinly and felt tears prick in his eyes. “I hope to see you soon again, James” his name was spoken softly, fondly, as he grabbed his wallet, taking the money out of it. It was a one hundred dollar bill.

“Take the tip. For the wonderful service~!” he said softly, taking the flowerpot and turned around leaving the shop...for now.

“Oh, James...I really...do hope we see each other again~” Erlking murmured, his glowing blue eyes glimmering as he vanished into thin air.

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A tall young man slendered into the shop, wearing a white suit with a ice blue tie. His long almost silver hair was pulled back, styled to perfection, while his hands were in also pristine white gloves. His smile was wide, eyes a white blue. "Good day~" he greeted, his voice had a dark honey quality to it

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He hadn’t seen this man around before, but still he was a customer. “Good day to you too, welcome to Debbie’s Daisies. Anything you need help with?” James replied with his best smile.

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The fae watched the human with rapt attention as he walked over to the coronation and smiled lightly. He looked even prettier…he bet he would look lovely, all spread on a whole meadow full of pink and yellow coronation, on his head a woven crown of forget me nots and pink and white roses, his clothes a pale white blue, fitting to his eyes, his body carressed by those soft petals…
Slowly he nodded, lightly touching the soft petals, the image of him still haunting them “That sounds wonderful. I would love to take some in a pot…I’m sure they would…love them. Though you have to tell me…do they need sunshine? Much water, or not so much? I don’t want them to wilt…” his face was slightly saddend for a moment “..they don’t grow much for me anymore…it’s too dark where I live, you know? If I can…I will provide them the best home they can get” he was clearly speaking about the flowers, but in the back of his head, he meant someone else entirely but a plant…

“They will need sunshine and water, but… hang on.” James skittered around the back as he took the potted plant with him.  He returned moments later with a book before setting the flowers on the table and returning to him.

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“Here! Its a book on how to care for lots of different plants, including Carnations. Its on the house. I’ll add a ribbon to the pot for you.” James offered  as he held out the book. His smile was genuine, and while his eyes were heavy with deep bags under his eyes he had his full attention.

Erlking’s eyes went wide, his cheeks instantley turning a bright pink and his mouth was slightly agape. He was this distracted he almost let his glamour fall, but only let his ears twitch and slightly seem point-ier as they peeked out of his hair. His smile softend and he felt his eyes go a bit darker blue as he took the book in one gloved hand, touch lingering lightly on the young man’s hand.

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“Thank you, young man...that reminds me...I never catched your name...My name’s Matthias White...It is nice to meet such a young and kind man like yourself”

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A tall young man slendered into the shop, wearing a white suit with a ice blue tie. His long almost silver hair was pulled back, styled to perfection, while his hands were in also pristine white gloves. His smile was wide, eyes a white blue. "Good day~" he greeted, his voice had a dark honey quality to it

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He hadn’t seen this man around before, but still he was a customer. “Good day to you too, welcome to Debbie’s Daisies. Anything you need help with?” James replied with his best smile.

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Erlking blinked lightly as he looked at the flower, his smile seemed so…sad. HIs blue eyes were focused on the flowers, his speech solemn as if he had lost something dear maybe? Maybe he did miss his garden more than he let on? The fae had a garden of his own, most flowers he wanted grew there, also a few thornbushes, but only to guard off the more rebellious under-faelings that wanted to steal and eat his flowers…
Seeing him like this made the king of faes wish he could show it to him. By due time maybe. “Ah…those sound beautiful” he smiled softly. “I would like to see some. Maybe in a pretty colour. Maybe pale…it reminds me of their skin…to be honest…you remind me so much of them.” he smiled a little more, though keeping his distance.
He felt…strange. What was James doing to him? He wanted to prank him, to torment him but now, with that damn smile on his face…the only thing he wanted to do…was to see him smile honestly and warmly up to him, those blue eyes twinkling with happiness and warmth…he wanted nothing more than that

“Thats kind of you… and course you can, they’re just over here.” James agreed as he showed him to the plants. They came in pretty pinks, whites and other colours and James gave Erlking a smile, “If you like I can give you one of our potted ones, they’ll last a whole lot longer and I can tie a ribbon around it.”

Looking at the flower shop all of the plants were in pots, cuttings were careful when making bouquets so the plant would grow more. The potted plants were a little more expensive but as long as they were cared for they would live a long while.

The fae watched the human with rapt attention as he walked over to the coronation and smiled lightly. He looked even prettier...he bet he would look lovely, all spread on a whole meadow full of pink and yellow coronation, on his head a woven crown of forget me nots and pink and white roses, his clothes a pale white blue, fitting to his eyes, his body carressed by those soft petals...

Slowly he nodded, lightly touching the soft petals, the image of him still haunting them “That sounds wonderful. I would love to take some in a pot...I’m sure they would...love them. Though you have to tell me...do they need sunshine? Much water, or not so much? I don’t want them to wilt...” his face was slightly saddend for a moment “..they don’t grow much for me anymore...it’s too dark where I live, you know? If I can...I will provide them the best home they can get” he was clearly speaking about the flowers, but in the back of his head, he meant someone else entirely but a plant...

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A tall young man slendered into the shop, wearing a white suit with a ice blue tie. His long almost silver hair was pulled back, styled to perfection, while his hands were in also pristine white gloves. His smile was wide, eyes a white blue. "Good day~" he greeted, his voice had a dark honey quality to it

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He hadn’t seen this man around before, but still he was a customer. “Good day to you too, welcome to Debbie’s Daisies. Anything you need help with?” James replied with his best smile.

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He smiled kindly, nodding as he stepped finally around the counter. Oh, how he missed his James, his blond locks those beautiful eyes, that slender frame, like a maiden, fair skin and all. Beautiful from top to bottom.
“Oh…that’s complicated. I think…Roses *are* the classic in most choices, but I don’t know…my partner is special.” he looked at the blue colored flowers with the soft tint of purple and smiled. “Forget-me-nots are quite popular where i come from…we weave crowns of them and put them on the heads of our partners, so they never forget how much they are loved…” his smile was charmingly, his pale blue eyes now trained on James. “Mh…lillies do smell wonderful, but they remind me of graver days…still…they are quite fair, like my partner’s skin…so soft…so beautiful” he sighed happily and stroked delicatley over one of the petals, humming
“Ah…so many decisions…what would you pick, my dear? Any flower you favour?”
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“Me?” Seemed like an odd question, James hadn’t though of the flowers he’d cared for when he had a huge garden. But they were always beautiful; from the poppies in the nearby fields or the rose bushes that bloomed in his walls… and the morning glory that would curl up the walls.

“Suppose people would call me basic but I like carnations. I used to garden a lot but can’t really do that in the city.”  He chuckled, “Not too big or small, comes in lots of different colours, just as pretty as a rose but less likely to prick you.”

Erlking blinked lightly as he looked at the flower, his smile seemed so...sad. HIs blue eyes were focused on the flowers, his speech solemn as if he had lost something dear maybe? Maybe he did miss his garden more than he let on? The fae had a garden of his own, most flowers he wanted grew there, also a few thornbushes, but only to guard off the more rebellious under-faelings that wanted to steal and eat his flowers...

Seeing him like this made the king of faes wish he could show it to him. By due time maybe. “Ah...those sound beautiful” he smiled softly. “I would like to see some. Maybe in a pretty colour. Maybe pale...it reminds me of their skin...to be honest...you remind me so much of them.” he smiled a little more, though keeping his distance.

He felt...strange. What was James doing to him? He wanted to prank him, to torment him but now, with that damn smile on his face...the only thing he wanted to do...was to see him smile honestly and warmly up to him, those blue eyes twinkling with happiness and warmth...he wanted nothing more than that

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A tall young man slendered into the shop, wearing a white suit with a ice blue tie. His long almost silver hair was pulled back, styled to perfection, while his hands were in also pristine white gloves. His smile was wide, eyes a white blue. "Good day~" he greeted, his voice had a dark honey quality to it

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He hadn’t seen this man around before, but still he was a customer. “Good day to you too, welcome to Debbie’s Daisies. Anything you need help with?” James replied with his best smile.

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The man smiled softly as he saw the young man. James looked wonderful in the warm light of the sun, surrounded by flowers, like a romantic painting in the renaissance maybe. His bright eyes that looked at him were so kind…so beautiful.
Erlking laughed and grinned wide. “Good day, sir! And yes…I do search for something quite in particular!” he said, stepping closer to the counter, while swiveling his head from left to right and up and down the counters filled with flowers and small accessoires and decorative pots. “You see, I have a lover..and I want to give them something very special. But I don’t know if they even like flowers…I don’t really know much about them either too” he laughed, clearly embarrassed, his eyes giving out a warm glow as he smiled “I’m sure though, from looking at you, I’m in good hands. What…would you say is a good flower for someone in love? Expressing their love to them I mean?”

James grinned and gave a small nod, stepping out from around the counter to show some of their flowers. “Well a classic is roses, its often a clear indication, but then you have flowers like forget me nots. They’re Debbie’s favourite flowers. Red tulips work too, some people even appreciate lilies for their smell” He suggested, “It all depends on their personality.”

He smiled kindly, nodding as he stepped finally around the counter. Oh, how he missed his James, his blond locks those beautiful eyes, that slender frame, like a maiden, fair skin and all. Beautiful from top to bottom.

“Oh...that’s complicated. I think...Roses *are* the classic in most choices, but I don’t know...my partner is special.” he looked at the blue colored flowers with the soft tint of purple and smiled. “Forget-me-nots are quite popular where i come from...we weave crowns of them and put them on the heads of our partners, so they never forget how much they are loved...” his smile was charmingly, his pale blue eyes now trained on James. “Mh...lillies do smell wonderful, but they remind me of graver days...still...they are quite fair, like my partner’s skin...so soft...so beautiful” he sighed happily and stroked delicatley over one of the petals, humming

“Ah...so many decisions...what would you pick, my dear? Any flower you favour?”

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Anonymous asked:

Date both Alb and Erlking to kiss Pho

“Oh, that is clearly too easy! I would *love* to kiss the pretty bird...she’s quite the catch indeed...don’t you agree, my dear?”

“...god, father....stop being such a damn creep...” the Alb blushed hard and huffed. “But yes. I do agree. She’s special. We take the dare!”

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A tall young man slendered into the shop, wearing a white suit with a ice blue tie. His long almost silver hair was pulled back, styled to perfection, while his hands were in also pristine white gloves. His smile was wide, eyes a white blue. "Good day~" he greeted, his voice had a dark honey quality to it

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He hadn’t seen this man around before, but still he was a customer. “Good day to you too, welcome to Debbie’s Daisies. Anything you need help with?” James replied with his best smile.

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The man smiled softly as he saw the young man. James looked wonderful in the warm light of the sun, surrounded by flowers, like a romantic painting in the renaissance maybe. His bright eyes that looked at him were so kind...so beautiful.

Erlking laughed and grinned wide. “Good day, sir! And yes...I do search for something quite in particular!” he said, stepping closer to the counter, while swiveling his head from left to right and up and down the counters filled with flowers and small accessoires and decorative pots. “You see, I have a lover..and I want to give them something very special. But I don’t know if they even like flowers...I don’t really know much about them either too” he laughed, clearly embarrassed, his eyes giving out a warm glow as he smiled “I’m sure though, from looking at you, I’m in good hands. What...would you say is a good flower for someone in love? Expressing their love to them I mean?”

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