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autistic!jack is Real

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parvuls

The bruise on Jack's jaw looks worse now, in the wan light of Bitty's bedside lamp. Bitty's gaze catches on it while Jack slides off the side of the bed and rubs a hand over it, rasping on fresh stubble.

"Are you sure you don't need anything? Some painkillers? I might even have scar cream for that lyin' around, if you want."

Jack's mouth twitches, but he shakes his head. "It's fine, Bittle. It doesn't hurt that bad."

"If you say so…" Bitty sits up when Jack steps into his underwear and drags them up his thick thighs. He's got some red marks around his hips, but they're faint enough that they should fade before attracting anyone's notice. "That hit was still nasty, Jack. Martin better pay for it next time you've got a game against the Isles."

"Ha. I'm sure Tater's already got it covered." Jack crouches to collect his discarded clothes from all over the floor. He's facing away from Bitty when he says: "Though we’re not playing them again until the middle of March."

"...Oh."

They aren't playing the Rangers or the Devils until March, either; Bitty knows because he checked. That's two months without Jack coming up to New York. Without an excuse to see him.

Bitty tries to rein in his disappointment, and horribly fails.

It's quiet while Jack gets dressed. Bitty watches him from the bed, sheets pooled in his lap, hands fisted in the sheets. Jack pulls on his dress shirt and leaves it hanging open from his shoulders as he slips into his pants, pulls on his socks. His abs flex when he bends down to lace up his shoes.

"We're playing the Flyers in two weeks," he says apropos of nothing while he’s buttoning up his shirt. Bitty stares at the dark strip of hair on Jack’s broad chest, slowly disappearing under the fabric, then determinedly averts his eyes.

"Uh… Okay?"

Jack's face is downturned, shadowed in the dim room, eyes on his hands wrapping his blue tie around his neck and adjusting it under the collar. "Philly’s two hours away. Probably less, that late at night."

Bitty's heart starts beating faster, but he valiantly keeps his expression neutral. "Probably."

"If you want…" Jack’s tone is unreadable. He tugs on the knot of his tie; Bitty itches to get up and bat his hands away, straighten the tie into place himself, but doesn’t dare move.

"Oh, I – if you’re sure!" Bitty bites his lip so hard it hurts. "That’s a heck of a drive after playing a game, though."

Jack puts his jacket on and finally looks up. He looks so sharp in the low light, so elegantly put-together in the tailored lines of his game day suit. It almost hurts to look at him. Only his mussed hair and flushed cheeks hint that he was naked and coming undone in Bitty’s bed only half an hour ago.

"It’s fine. I’ve got this BBC podcast I’ve been meaning to get to anyway." Jack swipes his keys and his wallet from Bitty’s dresser, then takes the step back towards the bed. "Or maybe I could listen to that playlist you made back in college. For before games. If those basses won’t keep me awake nothing will, eh?"

Bitty almost can’t believe Jack remembers that – although, it shouldn’t surprise him that Jack still remembers all of his past teammates’ pre-game rituals. "You, listening to Beyoncé and Sia for two hours? I don’t know, Jack. All that culture shock while drivin’ sounds pretty dangerous."

"Well, I do live for danger," Jack deadpans, and leans down to kiss the startled laugh off Bitty’s lips. Then he pats his pockets one last time, bids Bitty goodbye, and leaves.

Bitty lies down on his bed, still warm with their shared body heat, and tries to convince himself it doesn't mean anything when a boy is willing to drive two hours just for a booty call.

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not to be controversial, but ford isn’t an actor. she’s obviously a techie. “she knows all the words to defying gravity” yeah but not by CHOICE. before stage managing, she was a techie. she loves gaff tape more than she loves like, anything else. she knows how to lift stuff twice her size. she always has a spare crescent wrench in her pocket that she got (stole, by accident) from the cats. she has no clue what a tenor is, but she does know what a cyc light is. she has strong opinions on what the best power tools are and is deathly afraid of the table saw. she has one of those little gel sample books and has a scrap of a gel taped over her phone flashlight at all times. she owns so much all-black clothing. she coils all her chargers.

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dereknursey

picture of the zimmermann’s on a red carper goes viral with the caption “whole family thick for no reason”

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ngozi is queen of predictable cliffhangers and even though i call them predictable, she gets me every fucking time

may i say with some uncharacteristic sincerity that this is a legitimate sign of a fantastic storyteller. the fact that i know exactly what's coming, there's (probably) not going to be any ooc plot twists, i mean people have been saying this is how the comic would end for years, and STILL i am on the edge of my seat, feeling everything these characters are feeling, stressed and anxious even though i know how it's going to end!!!! Ngozi herself has been saying this whole time, bitty wins, and STILL i'm stressed about what might happen next!!!!! maybe this is just my experience but fuck if Ngozi doesn't have me in the palm of her hand

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I can’t wait for the Falcs to get Beyoncé to do a pregame show.

Jack even allows Bitty to be there in person to bask in her glow.

And just before she gets to her last song, Beyoncé pauses to make an announcement. 

“I want to send a message out to someone special. Someone who has touched the hearts of so many people.” 

And she’ll look Bitty straight in the eye, smile, and croon: 

“Bitty… finish your thesis.”

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ngoziu

so that entitlement thing

this same person, interestingly enough:

full disclosure: i know MANY readers who enjoy parse as a character and who are good and responsible humans. Those readers are wonderful! Thank you for treating me fairly and with respect!

But every time I encounter a reader who treats me this way, they are always parse fans. It’s been this way for years. Always, after dozens of instances, the people who don’t care about my feelings, care more about the fictional character, the fictional white man that I created. That came from my mind. They are always parse fans. How delusional must you be to not see how this is an issue?

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s-leary

If the main character of a work is “the Worst,” and you’re living for a character who shows up in maybe 6% of the comics, then it’s time to recognize that the story you are enjoying is the version in your head that’s more your own invention than the creator’s. Which is great! Take it to AO3 and have a seat. Abusing the writer for telling her story instead of your version… just real fucked up.

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