checking out the old blog. remembering there isn’t much to see since i had a break down an unfollowed so many ppl. what’s new?

ok. hi, everyone. i can’t figure out why there are still 800+ followers on this blog that i haven’t used, and still don’t know if i’m gonna come back to it. i fixed the theme so ppl can look through old posts and shit. there’s a lot of info in there i don’t like, but maybe there’s something in there for ppl to be able to grow from. particularly in the vegan or veganism or anti-speciesism tags. 

ppl who know me closest know that i been dealing with some pretty bad mental shit. i needed some time to reevaluate my thoughts and shit. i have been through the lowest point in my life after 33 years. i am falling in love with the persxn i am, and it has taken a lifetime just to get here. i don’t like the path i have taken to get to where i am, and i am deeply embarrassed and ashamed of who i was and who i thought i wanted to be. 

umm...since this blog has kinda served as a reference point for vegans, i am going to address the vegan community in particular. i hope that ppl can start acknowledging that all communities have the capacity to reproduce and perpetuate harmful and oppressive power structures, and the vegan community is no exception. i’m gonna say rn that it takes a lot of self-reflection.

the blog i use to talk about social justice stuff is hamajang.tumblr.com. i don’t use it as much as i did with this blog, but it’s there if you’re interested. i have a persxnal blog that use when i’m super up, and super down. it’s mostly anxiety and depression whining at the few ppl who know it exists, and for them to pretend to ignore me (i know you read some of it. don’t lie.) you can send a message to hamajang if you are interested in persxnal blog info, but i’m still very guarded and selective of who i want to allow into my life rn, so please don’t take it as reflection of you. i really doubt anyone is going to read this anyway, but i’m in a better place in general to start trying to move my life forward. 

i am a wreck, but i am a fucking amazing wreck. 

i have too many regrets from running this blog.

heeeeeey! some friends and i are participating in a fundraiser for abortion access. please consider donating or reblogging <3

i also think that because of reasonsssis reasonsis

you have to get new xkit

i got all these videos of us singing karaoke, and none of you will ever get to enjoy them >

nah

i always login the wrong account when i’m on my computer =/

come follow my new blog hamajang that is at least somewhat active compared to this blog that is zerowhat active

i might start posting here part time just because i have more followers on this account. probably will redirect my asks to my other blog. and my music blog is on this account too.

logged into the wrong account. hi bye