Magical Real

hey! i was 56 a couple of weeks back. mad.

update

still alive. things are tough. kids in therapy. i continue to be a semi functional mess. still djing for dancing people mostly when and where i can, still have my fledgling label FIBS, still a weekly netilradio.com disc jockey/presenter/selector/geek/drug addict/hippypunk (although it's changed name and it's now on a monday night) and a soundcloud but after 15yrs of no day job i'm having to retrain and try to make a living doing other things too. a side hustle? web dev and python but it's hard. hard. hard to focus on it. got to push forward though. might start interacting with the world again but that takes energy too.

the girls hate me for being slack and mental.

thinking of moving flat too. was thinking about moving to the coast.

chicky is still the only man in my life.

applied for a daytime job that I’m totally over qualified for. It was only 2 days per week. I didn’t get it. Apparently they’ve found people more qualified than me. I think that’s company speak for you’re too old and you haven’t had a job in fifteen years.

Meh!

I read tonight that ai says wormholes are possible

I think about killing myself everyday

they are unstable using regular power

If I think of something good or a fantasy I’ll immediately think of ways of doing myself over

But are apparently perfectly stable if powered by negative energy

Maybe I’m a coward or too stubborn or just unlucky

But nether the less, I’m possibly advancing science by staying alive

It’s not the first year of ‘trans day of visibility so buy your local trans woman a takeaway’ but since the passing of Mira bellwether 😢 it’s is certainly the first one I’ve shared.. pizza or curry is totally fine 🙃

@assignedmale 💪🏼☝🏼

THE goddess

(djmag)

Ok so I’m a vaguely butch mostly disheveled punkish trans woman very much into butch women, nb and trans masculine people. I’m of a certain age and have grown up(ish) kids and a dog. Haven’t dated since before my very long term relationship ship and since transitioning (nearly 15ish yrs now) post op (if people really care about those sort of things nowadays) have only had 1 encounter which was a total mess and a massive mistake which has lost me a very old friend.

HOW the devil do I date? Haven’t tried the dating thing since 1990 ffs. Do older dykes date? Is there a mysterious pdf somewhere with tips? Whaaaaa!!!