I think it's time for a final update before I bow out of Tumblr completely.

It's been a wild 12 years since I created this blog...

What's yall ig/ Finsta or whatever?

Im soooo ready to move! I fucking hate this house😂. I don't like old houses at all. Fucking random ants, spiders & other crawlies constantly make me itch!

I hate it here😩

I have to wait 2 more years to move into a modern new construction and im livid about it🤬ugh!

It's the year Two-Thousand and twenty one...

Im sitting here in my 2 year old car that I fucking love because I've never owned a push to start car.😁 I'm not a "car person", I couldn't care less about a LuXUrY vehicle. I am however going to get one for my next milestone birthday.

Sooo today, just another day, im wearing a cashmere sweater(300), some comfy leggings(20) lol, LV boots(1.3k), a super warm butter soft leather(800), underneath it all I specifically wore a beige-ish set from fleur du mal(400?) just to feel pretty. Im carrying my matching LV bag(1.4k?) and wallet(1k).

On my wrist im wearing a new gold watch that cost wayyy too much money imo($xx,xxx🤪), two very delicate, dainty gold bracelets(2k) and a cute but hella expensive for what it is bracelet(4.5k). On the same hand sits my exquisite, damn near flawless, simple, classy, clean engagement ring(XXk?🤷‍♀️).

Draped on my neck is a tiny & feminine necklace(1.3k) that was gifted during the engagement ring shopping process & is perfect, unfortunately it's covered by my Hermes silk scarf. In my ears are some gold studs that I bought during a day drunk excursion to the mall lol (1.8k) and on my face are my some Tom Ford shades that I LOVE(600).

My makeup is Pat Mcgrath, my lashes are perfectly placed extensions(I'm so over strips)

I sit here wearing all of that thinking about the tropical vacation we just returned from that was a grand total of 30k for 10 days.

It was lovely because it was somewhere I had never been so i fully appreciated the beauty. I swam in water I've never swam in and saw natives ive never seen in real life. The memorable moments were worth the hassle of traveling during these unprecedented times.

Right now im inside of that car I mentioned and it's inside of my garage... something im not as used to either... The engine is off & I'm just thinking of how drastically different my life was just 4 short years ago.

On January 21, 2017 I was probably trying to suck some guy off for a few hundred dollars then rinse and repeat until I burnt out.(I was actually on a month long hiatus and transitioning into my soon to be born "higher end" persona)

The main thing that's different in my life is the amount of new, random penis I don't choke on anyone. Im only fake gagging on one peen these days... one. My daily life is like a s l o w moving carousel. Highly routine orientated, vanilla, calm, quiet, kinda smothering at times. Its weird because it's exactly what I wanted but I find myself wanting more lol.

It's because I'm on ig too much😄 I read into the fake lives and terrible advice people are throwing(selling), knowing damn well its all smoke & mirrors. For a hot second I thought I wasnt elevated enough😂 I actually thought I needed to compete? Compare? Tf?! That was so weird, especially when I realized I richer than 80% of the accounts im following🥴Like, I'm truly where most want to be in le bowl... wow. Apparently I attract hella newbies that are easily persuaded whether they realize it or not.

Pure confidence game being played aggressively & repetitively. Its like watching a ill scripted reality show. I feel bad for newbies watching this bs and acknowledging it as gospel. The amount of blatant manipulation of novices is so gross but I understand tho... the gullible wannabes are being played because they don't have good common sense and can't process the difference of what they're seeing & being told between what they're seeing and being told.😂😂😂

I watch this shit in mf awe. I pay attention. My life is a totally comfortable, consistent bore & I always have time to notice the subtle misalignment of stories. I see the minut inconsistencies and even the slight of hand. One person in particular be so high they don't even see that they've posted the same shit twice and the novices don't notice either...or they're afraid of bringing attention to it because they'll be 'kicked out of the circle'. Im here for the fuckery, but I won't spend a wooden nickle on that foolishness😂 biiiiiitch please.

If you feel like this post is ill timed because a lot of people are going through hard times, fuck you.🤷‍♀️ Such is life.

If you go back into my archives you'll see I was a broke bitch but decided to stop being a broke bitch... not through luck but determination. I was determined to be comfortable. I was desperate for a super boring life like this.. bitch issa whole blessing to not everrrrrrrrrr have to worry about money in any aspect. Did yall notice how positive and peaceful my blog was from 2016 until still??

I had to rewire my thought process completely.

I had to stop thinking of abundance and instead FROM abundance.

I stopped chasing and started visualizing. Most people don't believe in manifestation but im proof that it's real baby.

My archives shows it.

This Goddess is right where she envisioned herself to be. Perched upon her respectable throne, enjoying the fruits of a decade of 304n and finding a man that doesn't care about said past. A man that will share his money to help erase all of the struggle and im thankful.