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My mind was lost in translation my heart has become a cold and impassive machine.
Bucky Barnes MCU based with hints of 616.
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I shouldn’t have to feel this way. I should be able to wake up in the mornings, get up, and go about my normal day, without having to question why I’m even here - and whether I deserve to live or not. I should be able to talk to friends and smile without having to fake my own happiness, because for some reason, I woke up sad that morning, and haven’t felt right since. I shouldn’t have to miss out on things, because I’m in an awful mood and just can’t deal with it. It’s not fair - it’s not right. So I constantly find myself asking: why is this my life? Did I do something wrong? You find yourself thinking you deserve to live this way, because how could you feel the way you feel, unless you’d done something terrible, which needed punishing? I should be allowed to live. I should be allowed to live easily - comfortably - I should be able to do the things I want, and enjoy the things I have. So is there some great secret I’m just not seeing? Because if there is, I’m dying to know it - quite literally, I am. Because despite everything, I don’t want to die. I want to live. I want to be free. I want to discover how that’s possible - and I want to know: is there more, than this? But I know no one will have the answer. I know no one knows. And that’s why I’m still here, I guess. I’m still trying to find it out, for myself.

broken thoughts

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                             ( * couldntshakeit )

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              He was sure he’d heard it all wrong, Sure that his memories               were wrong and that Hydra DID NOT had Sarah Rogers held               captive in one of its bases. But some gut feeling told him that               his memories were not wrong, that it was true ---- and long time               ago Barnes learned to follow his gut, specially when it came to               Steve and his family ---- his surrogate family.

              Sniper rifle packed in his back, knife in hand and clad in his Winter               Soldier uniform --- slightly enhanced by SHIELD’s tech, Bucky made               his way through the base like the Devil himself. Following his instinct               and the blurry memory of his time there, the soldier advanced confident               in his destination.

                                        Mission: retrieve Sarah Rogers from captivity.

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              Killing every person that got on his way, Bucky finally made it to the               room where they kept her. His heart beat faster at her sight: she looked               just as he remembered from where he was little -- a fleeting memory               that usually came late at night and always slipped through the next               second.

                                               ❛      Sarah ?.     ❜

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shippy angst starters.

"You're an idiot if you thought I cared about you."
"You took advantage of my feelings for you."
"Fuck you, fuck your boyfriend/girlfriend and fuck everything about you!"
"I'm in love with you and I'm sick of having to hide it."
"You were supposed to be different."
"You were the one, I can't just move on!"
"I loved you, and just because we broke up doesn't mean I can turn it off."
"I love you too much and you don't love me at all..."
"I would've done anything for you..."
"You left me. You don't get to come back."
"I want you to hurt like I do."
"That's it? You're just giving up on me?"
"I never thought we'd end like this."
"It's such a shame to let you walk away."
"Love isn't a three-way street!"
"Is this goodbye?"
"I would have followed you anywhere. "
"Do I even matter to you?!"
"My back has turned on you."
"I should have known you'd break my heart."
"You're gone and I'm haunted and I bet you are just fine!"
"Goodbye, my almost lover."
"It's over."
"I can't do this anymore."
"I'm leaving you."
"I'm done crying over you."
"I have to let you go."
"You said you loved me..."
"I LOVED you. Past tense."
"I don't believe in love."
"I never loved you."
"I hate you."
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xtelumendil

I need a support group for people dealing with characters who are inwardly miserable but appear totally fine on the outside until some little thing trips them up and for a moment it’s revealed how utterly broken they are on the inside. ★~(◡ω◕✿)

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