See You Soon

So I don’t really use Tumblr anymore, I dont know if anyone else I know in real life does anymore. But I just need to fucking rant, I dont really need responses or advice. I just need an outlet.

Im such a dumb fucking idiot. I have a friend who i continually let treat my like shit and use me and I have no fucking idea why I do. Like i know they are going to use me and lie to me but for some reason I let them do it over and over again. and every time they come back and make some grand apology and make me feel all warm and happy like they’ve changed and then sooner or later we are back to square one. They slip up in a lie or I notice something on social media and I call them out. they try to defend themselves by blaming me and turning it around and you know what it fucking works. I keep letting them walk all over me. We had a huge fight about a month ago and finally made up and sorted things out, It was one of the worse ones yet. I opened up to them today and got really personal about my feelings and things going on in my life. Things I hadn’t built up the courage to tell other yet. We had a real heart to heart. Well fast forward to tonight and I catch them in a huge lie about the thing we had our huge fight about. I fucking did it to myself again. I don’t know why I believed them and why I keep letting this happen. And now they are ignoring my texts. awesome.