I feel dead. 5 years together and every time I think we are slowly making our way up the hill, we tumble back down. I really wonder when enough is enough.
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I stopped explaining myself when I realized people only understand from their level of perception.
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When she apologizes for being hard to love,
do not say “it’s okay”.
Tell her that loving her is like breathing
and without her you are drowning,
but you wouldn’t want it any other way.
What I Wish You Had Said, #1 - Peyton Scott (via betrueblich)
Source: writershigh
Anonymous asked:
You are an inspiration to me and I'm still finding the courage to leave my husband. It's so hard but I know I need to do what's right for me and my three kids. We as women can only take so much, and things never change between us and I just need to get up and pack my stuff and leave and file for a divorce I know I will be happier and better xo
Well thank you, but I wouldn't quite call me an inspiration. Most days I'm still stuck on what the "right" thing to do is. I haven't left yet, so basically I live every day focusing solely on Mason and Riley. As of right now, I still can't bring myself to rip them out of their home, so I'm sacrificing my happiness for theirs to continue. But you are right, us as women can only take so much and I'm sure soon enough I will reach my breaking point.
Anonymous asked:
did you ever figure out everything with the plan B, thought things were getting better since you two did the deed! What's going on! Still hoping the best for you
Yeah everything is straight with that, but since then it's been horrible. Things change on a day-to-day basis and I'm not having any of it anymore.
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The worst feeling ever is like, “well I’m really fucking used to this happening but it still really fucking hurt”
I'm so sure now that things are never going to get better.
I seriously want to cry
Because I'm so pissed off. Matt and I had sex late late late Friday night for the first time in like 3 weeks. It was deep, meaningful sex because we are both trying to make an effort to fix things. Well all was good until we were done and he noticed the condom came off inside of me when he was pulling out and he isn't sure if anything came out of the condom and got in me. So now I have to take the emergency Plan B pill. I'm scared to death that my supply will disappear and my period will start because of it. I haven't started my cycle yet since I've had Riley, so I have no idea what my body is doing. I guess I'm pissed because shit keeps happening and even when we are trying to better our life, we still get the short end of the stick. It's not like we didn't use protection at all so I'm super upset. I have like 24 more hours to take it and still be in the safe zone, so I'm holding off until I feel better about the situation.
Anonymous asked:
Why does your life suck, I wish you still were active on tumblr I loved seeing your post about your kids and husband. So many of us are in the same situation and it was nice to see we aren't the only ones
Thank you! And I'm sorry ): I'll try to update more, I've just been super busy with my Mommy responsibilities and work is so short-staffed so I've been helping out and picking up more shifts than usual. Trust me, no one is the only one! I've realized lately that all relationships have problems. I've kinda stopped using this as a place to vent because I just don't feel like writing out all the details sometimes and I don't really want other people I know personally finding my blog and reading it. Maybe tonight once the boys are asleep I'll make an update post. I only have 171 followers so I just figure that no one really wants to read what I post so I don't want to waste time writing out a huge thing for nothing, ya know??
Anonymous asked:
How come you don't update anymore
Nothing to really update. My life sucks right now though.
Ah, nevermind
I didn't think I could block people because I don't have the tumblr app and only use the browser on my phone, so the option wasn't showing. But I got to the actual desktop version from my browser and wa-la!!
Well I'll probably end up deleting myself
Some nasty milf blog just started following me and I can't block it. I won't be able to every post anything anymore and definitely won't ever post pics of my kids.
masonandmommy reblogged
My tiny guy is 6 months old now!
My big boy. I can't believe he will be 4 in two months!
@ Danisha
Thanks girl. I am hoping for the same thing, but it seems like nothing will ever get better. We have hit rock bottom lately and I wish we could find our way up soon. It seems like we are going to be struggling forever unless we leave each other :/ I hope you and your family are doing well xoxo