Hahaha did I tell you guys I relapsed two weeks ago after not self harming since 2015
Here we go again…
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Hahaha did I tell you guys I relapsed two weeks ago after not self harming since 2015
Here we go again…
Guess who got a massage as a self care activity and all was fine and good until the lady giving the massage asked if I’m pregnant?
Has anyone here ever had 4 Long Island iced teas, one right after the other?
….i have 🤦🏻♀️
lol when you have lived in the community for over a year but don’t go to shul that often and then when you do, it’s not crowded and literally like 10 people come up to you to welcome you to Queens 🤦🏻♀️
What do you do in your life day to day? Are you still a teacher?
Yes! I am a 4th grade teacher and it’s my third year at my current school. Things are crazy, school politics are always insane regardless of where you work, but I love who I work with as well as my 21 little buggers (students, okay?).
It’s good to have work as a distraction, in fact I am the picture of happiness and humor at work.
How’s your mental health these days and do you still see your therapist?
I do still see my therapist that I was seeing when I was posting consistently. She is a godsend and has truly saved me. We get into very intense and deep topics that go beyond whatever I am dealing with in that moment. It’s difficult but also good.
My mental health is up in the air right now.
For the entirety of December and around half of January I was in a constant state of crisis - severely depressed, binge eating, not showering, so much screaming and crying, intense suicidal ideation. Chronic pain and fatigue. So much heaviness.
Medication was raised. My psychiatrist is now seeing me twice a month instead of once. My therapist tries hard to get me a second appointment during the week. It’s…a lot.
Right now it’s very hard for me to describe how I am feeling. My session on Thursday was mostly centered on how I don’t have the words right now. I almost relapsed last Sunday night due to my inability to express how I feel.
Whatever is going on with me currently is not good. But it’s difficult to exactly explain why.
That wasn’t a great answer, sorry 🤦🏻♀️
When’s the last time you self injured?
June 7th, 2015.
What does one do when all her clinicians are worried and she doesn’t have medication refills but DOES have a box of 100 double edge razor blades?
….asking for a friend.
lol I feel like this is a ghost blog now.
But anyway yeah I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia last week.
Yup.
My grandfather died today.
We’re doing great over here.
Okay, people who actually follow me:
Please ask me questions. I really really want to post more consistently but I need like…prompts first. About my life, mental health, work, literally anything.
Okay cool thanks.
“Rivka how can you say you’re unhelpable if you’re not accepting of the help being offered?
-my therapist
Lol my life may be falling apart and everything is all over the place BUT I just booked a skydiving session in two weeks.
SO. Who is really winning?
Today is the day!
Lol my life may be falling apart and everything is all over the place BUT I just booked a skydiving session in two weeks.
SO. Who is really winning?
Lol it’s 3:15am and I am DRUNK.
Well.
That was a night.
Lol it’s 3:15am and I am DRUNK.